you look at me
trying to hide
everything you're feeling
but sometimes
you seem to forget
i can read you
like a book

i'm not blind
i can see the desperation
the fear
the longing and affection
but all you do
is keep holding it in

you look at me
i'm not sure
what you see
except for the girl
who would do
anything for you

and i keep trying to hide
the things i'm feeling
inside for you
i try to cover up
the deep down want
consuming longing
the affection and tenderness
the complicated love

but sometimes it seems
as though i forget
you can read me
like a book
and my eyes are open doors
showcasing everything inside
flung wide for you to see
if only you would
bother to truly look

so i wonder
if you really do see
the things i'm trying to hide
and if i really do see
the things
you're trying to hide
of if we're both just so blinded
by the fear
everyone else can see

©Aubrey Renae

Kim Anderson photo