i'm better off
sitting alone in my room
lost in my thoughts
talking to friends online
than i would be
around real people
faking the smiles and the laughs
afraid to disappoint
to bring everyone else down

no one else needs to know
that i'm feeling lost right now
like a misfit who doesn't belong
in the world she's been placed in
no one else needs to know
that the loneliness is eating at me
slowly but surely
like a cancerous worm
it's getting under my skin
eating away at the facade
it won't be too long now
before the facade decides to crumble

but i don't wanna be alone tonight
in my state of self-pity and loserdom
i wish there were someone
anyone who could join me
make me feel as though i'm not the only one
who feels this way
make me feel as though
i'm not as alone as i think

it wouldn't take much
just a smile a laugh
simple conversation
to make me feel
just the slightest bit better

but still i would want more
i always want more
always long for the things
that are just out of my reach
and God it's all so simple
those things i do want
but instead i'm stuck here
with the complicated thoughts
and feelings churning inside
when all i really want
is the simple
a touch
a kiss
a hug
a smile
love
to not be alone anymore

it's all really quite simple
and yet it keeps getting so complicated