i'm tired of being alone
of falling asleep
all by myself
of never having
anyone to turn to
in those moments
when i need
another's arms around me

i'm tired of being lonely
of empty kisses
and empty words
touches that don't
mean anything
lukewarm slightly detached

i'm tired of never feeling
anything other
than the norm
simply being
never living
just walking through life
but never living it

i'm tired of the nights
and how they seem so long
of fighting sleep
simply because
i'm scared of what
i might dream
tired of waking up
in the middle of the night
turning over and finding
nothing but a pillow

i'm tired of yearning
for things it seems
i'll just never have
tired of looking
and i've only just now
figured out
what it is i'm looking for

©Aubrey Renae