waiting for the red to drop
to put my fears aside
tension eating at me
pricking my nerves
with so many hot pokers
waiting is so uncomfortable
time is stretching out
patience is wearing thin
feel like pulling out my hair
screaming with frustration
needing some reassurance
unable to tell you my fears
no need to worry you, too
as i wait with baited breath
knowing there's nothing i can do
until i know for sure
i can't say anything
until i know one way or the other
it's eating at me
all this tension
all this fear
my chest is tight
breathing is sometimes harder
hope i don't have
a fucking anxiety attack
need your arms around me
tell me it's gonna be alright
lay to rest my fears
but you're so far away
and i'm here alone and scared
waiting for the red to drop
praying for an answer
to lay to rest my fears

©Aubrey Renae