This is what we're saying....

S.O.S.
you claim to be my friend, but you're never truly there
i try to measure up, but i just can't compare
to your out-of-reach standards that you pound into my head
i'll never be good enough or so you said.

i'm trying, i'm trying, i'm trying.
why do i always have to be such a put down?
i'm trying, i'm trying, trying.
trying so hard to be something more.

why do i have to be such a treat to you?
putting me down is nothing new.
no where to run, no where to hide.
wishing for someone to be by my side.

push and push 'til there's no where to go.
why would a friend make me feel so low?
i've slipped and fallen and i can't get out.
overwhelmed with insecurity and doubt.

dear tommy

it felt good to hear your voice today.
its been so long since we last spoke.
sorry it's been a while since i've called you.
i guess i've been busy too.
we should get together again.
catch up with each other, where have you been?
i want to bring up my thoughts of the past, but i can't think of a thing to say.

so we'll spend another night hidden from the world.
surrounded by buildings bigger than our imaginations.
and if you find another penny in that fountain,
that'll be a dollar and another lost wish.

and you tell me again that he's not right for me
without hinting that you are.
and you tell me again he shouldn't be that way,
and i was right along.

sorry it was my fault
and i'll accept the blame.
sorry that it had to be you.
and if i could i would change everything.

circus

walking to the door was too difficult.
she hesitates and sits back down hurt.
too many words shattered the hope.
too many times, had no one to cope.

the very first time, she was taught strong.
she looked for more than what she offered.
too many gestures too embarrassing to think of.
too many faults she wasn't aware of.

running was too complicated.
she runs out of breath quickly.
too many miles wore her out.
too many things she wouldn't shout.
talking was never her own.
she was never allowed to have a turn.
too many people around this place.
too many ears willing to embrace.

wreck my life, i'll wreck your face

your glare burns in the back of my head and i can hear every harsh word you said.
secrets you told still repeat in my ears.
with each word, you completed my fears.
i wish i would've known from the start of the faulty leaks in your heart.

make plans.
mess with my mind again.
tell your stories.
make up evil as you fall asleep and wait to tell everyone.

i don't know if i could've trusted you more.
and i guess thats what friends are for.
everything i said to you in confidence
is out and this makes no sense.

then i never would have trusted you.
please leave me with some dignity.

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