So then, I thought you were still asleep.
I tried to wake you up.
I ran. I didn't eat.
I went to the beauty parlour.
I got some new shoes for my feet
But you didn't even blink.
So I caressed you.
I made my vessel vulnerable
to all your manhood and everything
you had to offer. I let your
hands wander the undiscovered
territories of my flesh.
But you turned back away in the end.
So I screamed.
I screamed 'til my lungs
gave out. Though my voice had no
words to say, it spoke anyway,
'til the world stared at me blankly,
'til I found myself empty.
But then I didn't want you anymore.
So I quit reaching, and found myself
sane again.
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