DADDY'S GIRL
Now that it comes down to this
Your own child, a life you've missed
Never here to show me the way
And I swear to god I'll make you pay.
A broken home and broken lives
I'm sick of all your fucking lies
Now you expect me to forgive
After this shitty life I've had to live.
I want you to know I hate you
So you wonder why I degrate you
You're a worthless fuck, society's whore
I'm not daddy's girl anymore.
You left us all so long ago
But way back then I didn't know
You'd be back now to mend my heart
When you're the one that tore it apart.
So fuck your life and go away
I care nothing for what you say
You're not welcome in my world
I'm not daddy's little girl.
DYING
Hopes shattered like broken glass
Into a million pieces on the floor
Drops of blood drip off my skin
Drinking it down, I want more.
Walk across the pointy edges
My bare feet begin to bleed
Laughing insanely I start to dance
This pain is all I need.
Feeling my heart break within
I fall to my knees and cry
My whole body soaked in blood
Now I'm surely going to die.
This pain is nothing compared to that
Which my lover has put me through
All he says is all a lie
When he says "I love you".
REVENGE
I lost my youth to you
And all the pain you put me through
Innocence gone and left with lies
Pretending until my reality dies.
I don't want to be a part of you
Or any of the things you do
I'm not evil like you like to be
So let me go and set me free.
I'm in this life and I can't get out
But now I know what you're about
If I die, I'm taking you too
Now there's nothing you can do.
You know the damage that you've done
You can't hide and you can't run
I'm gonna find you and make you bleed
Just like what you've done to me.
BLEED
Bleed myself to let you know
How much pain I'm going through
See my blood run like water
All I feel is because of you.
Bleed my own life out of me
So much blood for such a tiny hole
Can't help but to laugh at it all
Destroy my body just like my soul.
Bleed to make sure I'm real
Bleed to know I'm alive
Bleed to prove my love
Bleed and hope I'll die.
Blood flows thicker than water
Redder than the deepest wyne
The reaper steps from the shadows
And tells me it's my time.
Bleeding forever because of you
Eternally living through this hell
Making me insane with each day
My own mind; my prison cell.
LITTLE MISS PERFECT
Little miss perfect is such a whore
The spoiled brat who lives nextdoor
With golden hair and perfect nails
What will she do when beauty fails?
Little miss perfect lives a lie
I just wish the bitch would die
Manipulation and greed is all she knows
She thinks she's loved everywhere she goes.
Little miss perfect is just a fake
She cannot give but only take
Selfish, superficial, shallow, vain
No matter what, she stays the same.
Little miss perfect think she's great
Doesn't realize she's just a fake
Stupid cunt so naieve and dumb
Trains herself until emotions are numb.
Little miss perfect lives in a dream
She nothing that she claims to be
A stupid girl that I don't like
Greedy, stupid, selfish dyke.
Little miss perfect look what I've got
Everything that you have not
You think you're great but I've got news
You're just a tool for people to use.
SUICIDE IS A SIN
I pick up the knife slowly
And gaze into the blade
Keep telling myself I'm fine
Keep saying I'm not afraid.
I look at my pale arm
And the pale blue vein
I feel so fucking tired
And even a bit insane.
The blade it feels so cold
And sharp against my skin
I want to end it all now
But suicide is a sin.
Fuck it, I don't care
It's time for me to die
Stabbed myself so much
The blood loss made me high.
Drowning in a pool of blood
Everything turned to red
Blacked out for a while
Hoping I was dead.
POEM 65
Grayscale rainbows in my dark green eyes
Lackluster visions by fallen demise
God's doll-like eyes, grinning and stare
Looks to your dreaming without a care
My divinity rose hopelessly murried by sin
With nacred hued dancers all twisting within
Prismatic flurries on butterflies wings
Black and white vision of an angel who sings
Brilliance defined with each whisper heard
Pallid desire yet dreams go no forward
What would it could be, transparent about
What good is a rainbow, if colors without
Uncolored thoughts, lifeless it dies
Lost forever in those sanguine eyes
YOU'RE FAKE
You push me aside when you are through
Always believing in the things you do
Your wicked ways worn out on me
No matter what I still hate you.
Deceiving everyone will all your lies
The truth you know you can never hide
Soon your world comes crashing down
I see it happen within your eyes.
Beg and plea to be set free
From the same shit you put on me
Now you know how it feels
To cry, to scream, to die, to bleed.
Fuck your pain and fuck you too
Fuck all the shit you've put me through
Fuck yourself, fuck off and die
You're nothing but a fucking lie.
ATROPHY
Drops of blood, the elixir of life
A deep abrasion, a silver knife
It begins to drip, thick and warm
Pools of crimson begin to form
Red goes black, pink goes blue
One day soon, this might be you
Body now drained, heartbeat has stopped
No taking back the havoc now wraught
A listless corpse, dead where he lay
Soon will begin the start of decay
Peeling flesh, putrid smell
A rotting corpse, no one to tell
Graven thoughts, unbearable images
Decayed muscle, torn cartilidge
Maggots infest, and eat out the brain
Another dead soul, posesses no name
An unmarked grave for an unmarked death
Prepared at last for final rest
DISAPPOINTED
My soul a world of pain
My life an institution of guilt
Actions of a killer; thoughts of a god
A simple being the final result.
I'll be your god
I'll be your pain
Just another soul to drive insane
A being of immortality
Another level of insanity
Blindness from the light
The raven's final flight
Self destruction tears me apart
Broken hopes and shattered dreams
Living alone in a foresaken world
Where nothing's what it seems.
In the end we die alone
It happens to all we know
Our lives just one big disappointment
Lived behind a veil of happiness.......
I AM
I am the hate that's in your soul
I am the fear that's in your mind
I am the death that's in your life
I am the child you've left behind.
I am the love that you posess
I am the heart that's gone so cold
I am the one that you caress
I am the voice that's grown so old.
I am the Hell you know you fear
I am the ghost that's in your head
I am the one you hold so dear
I am the one that wants you dead.
I am the god you think you know
I am the sex that's in your bed
I am the beast inside you grows
I am the one you wish to wed.
I am the demon inside your eyes
I am the peace that died within
I am the truth inside your lies
I am the goodness in your sin.
I am the evil in your heart
I am the mortis in your flesh
I am the one who'll never part
I am your favorate fetish.
SAY GOODBYE
I'd give anything to let you see
What's it like just to be me
A single glimpse is all you'd need
Maybe then you'll start to believe.
Life isn't so easy in my place
Trying to survive in this race
Live in shadows to hide my face
Where pain and agony are commonplace.
Eternally wishing I could die
To get away from a world of lies
Just wanting to say goodbye
And to break free from all my ties.
MOON DANCER
A woman of beauty and grace
Dances elegantly in the night
Among the dead souls of past
One candle as her light.
The bloody rain begins to pour
From the blackened sky
Against the light of a silver moon
Where the bats begin to fly.
The ground is wet and soft
Due to evening mists
But a black liquid falls from her
The blood of two slit wrists.
Her face is pale and expression blank
Her body small and fair
Her eyes two sparkling emerald jewels
Sweet auburn is her hair.
With the knife she draws more blood
And smiles at the pain
She looks up into my eyes
And seems a bit insane.
A wicked laugh splits the night
And echoes off the stones
I shut my eyes and cover my ears
When I look, I'm all alone.
BRADLEY
He says he loves me and I believe
Setting myself up to be decieved
Lies pour out like running streams
All is well, at least it seems.
Deep inside I feel the pain he causes
Dealing with all of my losses
For him I give all sacrifice
To him I devote my whole life.
Pray to gods that this isn't real
But I can't deny the pain I feel
Living a life of total agony
Driving me to full insanity.
I know I've got to let go
Leave the hate and sorrow
Make for myself a better life
Fuck the agony and strife...
BROKEN ANGEL
A beautiful angel, with a broken wing
A once beautiful voice, can no longer sing
Eyes like jewels to see the space
A rarity in the human race.
Fallen from grace to live on this earth
Her soul and her heart, both beyond worth.
A halo of gold, hair of pure silk
Skin softer and whiter than milk.
A broken angel, a broken life
Existance full of pain and strife.
Now the shroud doth cover her head
Because the angel now forever is dead.
Back to heaven, back to peace
All the suffering has ceased.
Live like you should, however you may
Because with grace forever you'll stay.
LIES, REGRETS AND MEMORIES
All those memories like a terrible dream
Something I hate to remember but can't forget
Everything fell into place like an evil scheme
Knowing you was my biggest regret.
You tore me apart from the inside out
Made me believe in you with all your lies
Like a cancerous cell you plagued me throughout
You tore me down to make your ego rise.
When it all came down you spoke your hate
Deep inside you knew mine too
Just another soul I was to rape
And you wonder why I hate you.
Motherfucker you don't mean shit to me
I'd love to see your demise
I knew I was just being used
I could see it in your eyes.
So now that I've found a better life
And someone who really cares
You're trying to fuck it all up
And you know it isn't fair.
