"Get your ass up and get into the goddamn house, you fuckin' ingrate! NOW!!" He kicks me swifly in the ribs to get his point across and I struggle to find my feet, wincing from the pain shooting through my side. My head spins as I take the first step, and collapse back down into the grass. Dawn sighs loudly and storms into the house ahead of us, as I attempt to try again.
He's getting angrier by the minute, but my body just won't respond. Sure, I had wanted to die today, but not like this. This pain was too much, and all too familiar. I wanted to escape this pain forever and never look back, but nothing was going according to plan. Not this day. Well, maybe the neighbors will hear all this and call the cops on his ass. That would be nice...
Colors start to fade around me as I lay there, unable to move. I feel myself being dragged into the house, the screen door slamming loudly behind us.
He's yelling again now, but I can't make out the words. Pain erupts through my head and face as he hits me and throws me into a wall. I'm barely clinging to consciousness now, but I can still feel the overwhelming pain over my entire body. I hear glass shattering around me as a tremendous pain shoots down my leg. At long last, the world disappears into sweet and utter darkness.
I open my eyes to the same darkness that delivered me from his wrath. I don't know how much time has passed, but damnit I'm still alive. In a daze, I try to sit up. An enormous wave of dizziness and nausea washes over me, willing me to lie back down. It soon passes and I struggle to my feet, staggering in the dark to find the bathroom. I barely notice the shards of stray glass cutting into my feet as I go.
I reach for the lightswitch and lean heavily on the counter to keep from falling over. I look like hell. Just how I feel. How did my life end up like this? I can't stop the tears from flowing, and it pisses me off that I'm crying again. What a fucking loser.
I turn off the light and make my way, unsteadily, to the back door, trying my best not to let the screen door slam shut in the night. I'm finding it hard to think about much of anything through all the dizziness and pain. I'm not quite sure where I'm going at this point, but somehow I keep myself moving.
The sun begins to rise as I walk through the gates of the cemetary, still limping and unsteady. I can't see through the fucking tears, but I know my way well enough now. I stop at her headstone and carefully sit down next to her, avoiding putting too much weight on my throbbing leg.
I want so much to have her here right now, to tell me everything will be alright. To take me away from this hellhole forever. But she's not here, and nothing will ever change that. I don't believe we're all reunited after death in some utopian society. I wish I did. Still, I know I'm letting her down by what I'm about to do, but I see no other way out. There's nothing left for me now.
"I'm sorry, Mom." I get up and leave the cemetary behind, the pain is dull and more widespread now. I round the bend and there's the bridge. There's no turning back now. I can't take this life anymore, this is the only way. As I look over the edge, the water rushes and bubbles over the rocks as it always does. Inviting me to join it's dark abyss. With much effort from my weakened body, I climb over the railing to the edge. I look down into the waters and begin to loosen my grip.
"Teddy! NO!!" The sudden outburst startles me and my foot slips. I grab the railing on instinct and look up into two frightened pink eyes. My vision is still blurred, but is that...Sweetheart? What is she doing here? What does she want?
Sweetheart reaches over and grabs my hoof, holding on tightly. "Please! Come back over. Teddy...please?" Her eyes are pleading with me. Why does she care what I do? A reject like me who no one likes? Is she trying for her Good Sumaritan badge or something? I don't know what's going on, but I can't think of anything else to do besides listen to her desperate pleas.
She helps me back over the railing and I wince as I land on the ground next to her. My ribs and leg are on fire. And now, she's crying? What's up with this chic? Why is she giving me the time of day all of the sudden? She moves in to hug me tightly. Oh fuck, that hurts.
"Teddy! What were you doing out there? What happened to you? Are you alright?"
"What's it to you?" I ask through clenched teeth. She pulls away (also painful) and just stares back at me. She starts to say something, but can't seem to find the words. My body starts to feel heavy and my mind goes fuzzy. I think I'm going to pass out, will she just say something already??
"Teddy, I love you!" She blurts out all of the sudden. "I always have, ever since you first moved here. I could never tell you before, I was just too shy. But I can't imagine my life without you." I waver, nearly falling to the ground, but she catches me by my arm. What did she just say?
"Teddy, did you hear me?" My mind tries to register the words as we ease down to the ground. She's holding me, and somehow I feel safe in her arms.
"Why?" I ask weakly as I look up into her eyes, barely hanging on to consciousness once again.
She lightly brushes the dirt and dried tears from my face with her hoof. "Because. You're my soulmate, Teddy." The last thing I see before passing out for the third time today is her beautiful smile, and the light radiating from around her. I have no idea what she was doing here at this hour, but I'm glad she scared the shit out of me when she did.
Her soulmate. How did I ever get so lucky?
The End!
