Love + Hate = Life
J. Miller

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I'm new to this site. I'm smack in the middle of what I call my second "meltdown". I don't want to be here-I don't want to do this anymore-I'm tired of the nightmares. I'm starting group therapy on Tuesday. Anger. Not how to control it-but how to let it out. And I'm scared to death.

The few things in life that keep me going-What I am Thankful For...

My husband-My Rock, who has shown me what true unconditional love really is. I wouldn't be able to handle this crap without him. Heart-Mind-Body and Soul-FORVER.

My boss and my job, he is completely supportive and understanding. His words to me are "I know you are doing your best-do this in your own time and your own ways-we'll all be here to support you." #1 Boss and job.

My Sister-Aunt, She's my biological Aunt, but we've been sister close ever since I can remember. Her love and support through phone calls and email have helped me push on. She's also going through something similar-I miss you Kat.

My kids-Who are the main reason I am trying to "fix" myself. We're a blended family so everyone is a little mixed up about a lot of issues. We'll get there.

My Mom-To whom I love so very much and feel such sadness for. She is still living with "him", because she is scared to recreate herself and her life on her own.

My Counselor-who pushes, but not too hard, when I need it. She's always there when I need her.

And "him"-who I will not call my dad or father ever again-You sick twisted little shell of a man, I'm thankful that I started this journey of healing and that he will never see me or my kids EVER again-ROT IN HELL !!!
And that's what I'm thankful for...thank you for letting me air my gratitude.
J.Miller

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