I was a victim of mental, physical and sexual abuse, starting from age four. I don't know who all they were or how many there were. It happened from many different males over a period of 12 years. Because of this, I always told my girls, to never let anyone touch them in a way they didn't "feel" right about, including relatives, male and female. I never made them kiss Uncle John or Aunt Bertha, even when Uncle John and Aunt Bertha insisted that they did.
I ended my first marriage because I didn't want my girls to think that was the way men treated women. I left with a broken left cheekbone and black eye. I shudder to realize it could have ended up worse. That was the one and only time he ever hit me. I knew, if it was that bad the first time, there would be more times and he would kill me.
I did kinda get revenge before I left. I slipped a few sleeping pills in his coffee. When he was good and asleep, I tied him spread eagled to the bed with pantyhose. I applied duct tape to every hairy part of his body and he used to be very hairy! I applied waterproof makeup to his face and painted his nails bright red. The I sat back and waited for him to begin to wake up. When he started to rouse, I hurried him a bit by ripping off one strip of tape. He woke up really fast after that! With each strip of tape I removed, I asked him if he wanted to hit me again and if he felt like a big man for hitting me in front of his buddies and what would they think if they saw him now. He didn't answer. Probably because his mouth was taped too. But I don't think he really would have said anything.
When I was done, I told him he'd see me next in divorce court and never again after that. I went to my mom's and picked up the kids, filed for divorce and never looked back. I did, however, wonder what his buddies thought when they found him that night......after I called them about 8 hours later.
Connie, Cassy's mom 8/13/1980-11/6/2000
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