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...this is my place to record some of my random, stupid thoughts that noone but me really cares about, but if you're really interested in knowing a little more about me, feel free to read on...
february 24, 2003:i went and saw chris this weekend, and i put 300 miles on my mustang, but it was totally worth it, even though driving away from him was one of the hardest things i've ever had to do. tonight he told me one of the sweetest things i've ever heard, and i had to put it in here: february 9, 2003:chris (my awesome though very far away boyfriend) came down this weekend, and now i'm trying to occupy myself to keep from thinking about him (a lot of good that is doing me). he's probably not even back to his house yet, and i'm already trying to figure out a way to see him again. this long-distance thing really bites, but i guess it's my fault for falling for a guy who lives 3 hours away.
january 26, 2003:i spent a weekend at camp capers, and it was amazing. i met this awesome guy, but now i'm wondering how it's possible to miss someone so much when i just saw him a couple hours ago. i think a little religion really cleared up my world for a little while (whatever that's supposed to mean).
january 21, 2003: have you ever wondered why we are here? not just why you or i are here, but why people came into existence at all? there just doesn't seem to be any reason why life should ever have come about. was it for some higher being's "entertainment"? was it spontaneous life or just a big random mistake?
january 13, 2003: today was my birthday, and i won't say that it wasn't great, because i had an awesome pizza party during lunch and everyone was nice to me all day, but something just didn't seem right. i have no idea what it was, but it doesn't really matter. maybe i've just had enough birthdays over the years that it just doesn't matter that much to me anymore, but i'm only 17! more later if i think of it.
"when i think about how far you live from me.... i feel like a passenger on the jet that i was telling you about earlier, how it is so pathetically sad, yet it means the world to somebody and i realize what a great gift God has given me when i talk to you, and spend time with you and hold you in my arms while i am in yours"
