My Immortal
i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
because your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
but now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
and though you're still with me
i've been alone all along

is that wedding bells ringing?
...ok, I wish. But I did scope my Aunt's and my Grandmother's wedding dresses today. I love my Grandmother's dress. I think it's spectacular. Too much lace for it to hold up enough for me to wear it. But I'd love to get one like it. It has this wonderful lace coat that goes over it.

*sigh*

I'm so single.

Attention Fuq
Just read the below blog as "Reasons to Move Back to Texas," because we all love you and miss you.

Yeehaw


So, I?m feeling guilty about the blog below this one. I wasn't beating up on Texas. I love Texas. Anyone who knows me knows that I?m like the number one Texas chick who is always telling people how wonderful it is. (Though there was a brief period of time when I was going to move so I could go to school in Oklahoma?but I?m past that phase.)

Anyway, here are some reasons I think Texas Kicks Ass!

1. The wildflowers are stunning in the Spring.
2. You can camp here year round.
3. If you want to taste what BBQ was like before the fall of man, head to Luling, Texas. Best BBQ in the world!
4. The ?He needed killing? defense.
5. Cowboys.
6. Cowboy butts. *girn*
7. State Pride.
8. No state income tax.
9. Our state flag is awesome.
10. Thanksgiving means the Aggies vs. the Longhorns.
11. Owning wire cutters is still illegal.
12. Bonfire banned at Texas A&M so students protest by having it anyway?this time, totally unsupervised.
13. Guns
14. Lonestar Beer.
15. Shiner Bock.
16. Road trips rock?and you don?t ever have to leave the state.
17. It?s God?s Country.
18. Our cops wear cowboy hats.
19. Entertaining news stories.
20. Lots of Military men stationed here. (Woohoo, Men in uniform.)
21. Spitting in public places is acceptable.
22. Country Music bars.
23. Western Music bars.
24. It?s socially known that ?country? & ?western? are two different types of music.
25. We know how good Mexican food tastes.
26. People here know that ?all y?all? is the proper plural form of ?y?all?.
27. You have to be going more than 8 miles over the speed limit before a cop is going to pull you over.
28. Having boobs generally gets you out of tickets from State Troopers.
29. Texas swang.
30. Robert Earl Keen.
31. Most people know all the words to ?Up Against the Wall Redneck Mother? by the time they graduate from high school.
32. Until recent Supreme Court decision, sodomy was still illegal!
33. Blue Bell Ice Cream

Texas women are crazy
So, tonight, since I was home alone, I decided the best thing I could do was watch a creepy Dateline about a girl in East Texas disappearing. Thankfully, my parental units arrived home shortly after I finished the program. But, all in all, the program got me thinking. There must be something in the water here. Here are five examples of crazy Texas cases that have gained national attention inthe last two years. And yes, four of these were in Houston?

Clara Harris: Texas dentist was sentenced to 20 years in prison in for killing her husband, David Harris, an orthodontist. In July 2002, Clara ran over David with her Mercedes-Benz after she discovered he was continuing an affair with his receptionist despite his promises to end it. She then parked the car on his chest as she got out and begged for him to ?keep breathing?. (Might have been a little easier without a Mercedes Benz parked on his chest.)

Andrea Pia Yates: Texas mother, was convicted in March of capital murder in the 2001 deaths of three of her five children, Noah, 7, John, 5, and Mary, 6 months. (She was not on trial for the deaths of Luke, 3, and Paul, 2). Yates reportedly suffered from postpartum depression. She was convicted of methodically drowning the children in the family's bathtub, and sentenced to life in prison.

Chante Mallard: Texas nurse, convicted of murder for hitting a man with her car and leaving him impaled in her windshield to die. (She drove with him in the windshield.) Mallard then, had sex with her boyfriend before they decided that should dispose of the body. She buried him in a park and?got caught.

Susan Wright: Texas woman, former topless dancer, who killed husband, Jeffrey Wright, 34, in self-defense after suffering years of spousal abuse. Wright stabbed her tied-up husband 193 times. She seductively tied his ankles and wrists to their bed before stabbing him, burying his body in a shallow hole he had dug to install a fountain in their back yard, and cleaning and painting the bedroom to cover up the crime.

Waynetta Nolan: Houston woman who ran down a McDonald?s restaurant manager in a hit-and-run because her request for mayo on her cheeseburger was initially refused. Nolan received 10 years in prison for the crime. Nolan, 37, has said she didn't mean to run over Sherry Jenkins, who was dragged across the burger chain's parking lot during the incident and broke her pelvis. After ordering at the drive-thru April 23, Nolan became angry when she was told the restaurant's cheeseburgers didn't come with mayonnaise. Witnesses said she threw the burger back through the drive-thru window. She also testified she thought she'd just rolled over "a bump."

Well, that's all I have off the top of my head. No wonder Mike and Kristen are moving!

text message
Last night I got this text message after talking on the phone for an hour before I went to bed. It said...

"B 4 We got off the phone U said U already gave me an hour. Can I have 500,000 more? U do the math. Nite."

*sigh*

That's so sweet. I feel bad for letting him go so early now! (I was asleep by 11 last night. It was crazy!)

Oh, and I did do the math...

That's 20,834 days of talking.

or

Just over 57 years of talking, non-stop.

today
sucked

problem?
Is anyone else having this problem?

BTW...whenever I click on "comments" it closes my browser windows. When I re-open your blog and click on "comments" again, it works. Just thought I'd let you know.

I can't believe I'm asking because it's not like I even have enough knowledge to fix it...but I feel like it's my duty to make your blog reading experience pleasurable. So, if you are having blog issues, please let me know!

sorry Fuq
I'm eating your jellybeans. I'm working today and needed a good sugar fix. ;-) Looks like you will just have to wait until next Easter to get jellybeans from me.

my dream date
I think that this is something important that I should blog. I need to put down on paper?err?screen my dream date. Every girl has one. So, I?m going to give you guys mine.

Movies are a bad date option. Guys, don?t do this unless you are going to go out afterward. Taking a girl to a movie doesn?t allow you to talk and get to know her. Unless you are just trying to get into her pants, or you already know her very well, don?t go there.

My dream date would be lying under the stars and talking. Sound corny? Maybe so. Let me paint you a better picture. So the guy I?m dating would pick me up in his truck. (Of course?Trucks are sexy!) We?d drive out of town a bit until we go someplace that you could actually see the stars on a nice clear night. He would have packed pillows and a blanket for us to lie on. You know nothing too forward. Just so we were comfortable. We?d lie in the bed of his truck and just talk about life as we looked at the stars. If you wanted to make it a dinner date you could have packed some soup and fresh bread. This would be especially a good option on a cool night. Hot chocolate would be ok too. (The east way to do this is to get la Madeleine takeout. Tomato Basil Soup with a side of fresh fruit. Yum!)

We would sit and talk about life all night. There *might* be some nice, sweet, gentle, soft kisses in the truck before we pack up and he takes me home. I just think it'd be the coolest date ever. It is my dream date. Romantic, creative, sexy and enjoyable. Now all I have to do is date a guy who reads my blog? Forget that! I just need to find a hopeless romantic (like myself) to date. Yeah, that will work. Anyone know a hopeless romantic they can hook me up with?