Why is it that every time I talk to my ex-boyfriend he makes me cry and feel like I?m in the wrong? He is the one who dumped me. He is the one who decided I wasn?t a girl he wanted in his life. He is the one who didn?t even want me to come and visit him as a friend.
Yet, he gets mad when we sit on the phone in silence for twenty minutes and then I suggest letting him go. He gives me this, ?You don?t want to talk to me?? thing.
Of course I want to talk to him. Does he not ignore the fact that I never stopped loving him? Why does he act like that? Plus, ever since he found out that I had a guy ask me out he?s been quizzing me on it. I just think it?s odd to share every detail of my love life (or lack thereof) with my ex. Isn?t it?
He had this big church conference last weekend and he?s yet to talk to me about it. I know he?s upset that I didn?t call him that night and ask him about it. But, how am I supposed to know when it?s ok to talk to him about things in his life and when it?s not? He is the one that walked away from me. So, I assumed that if he decided to all of a sudden tell me about something, he would. Am I supposed to just ?know? when to ask him something? I?m just trying not to call him about everything. I don?t want to be perceived as ?clingy? or ?too girlfriend like?.
And why is everyone in my life upset with me for not wanting to date this guy who asked me out? I just don?t want to date anyone. My heart is elsewhere right now. I would feel wrong going out with him. And frankly, I?m just not interested. I just don?t feel like going out. I know he?s a splendid gent! I just need some friends right now. Not another guy to break my heart and make me feel like crap.
from the mouth of Jen
at 12:15 AM CDT
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