Wish I could take it all back.

She was as headstrong and arrogant as me, but she was braver. She was better. I never really got the chance to tell her how much I truly came to respect her; not only that, but how I really felt.

Kat got under my skin, and she never knew exactly why. Maybe she felt it on some level, understood why I kept pushing her; pushing her away. But I dunno if she knew at all, and now I wish I could just look into her eyes and tell her.

I didn't know how to deal with it back then. Didn't know how she'd react. I'd do anything to have that chance now.

If I had the chance again, I'd tell her. I was dumb, wrong, I let us both down. . .but I know how I feel about her now. I know that I cared. I wanted her. I wanted to be close to her. For the first time in my life I wanted more than what I had. I wanted more than the flying, the fighting, the rush of being out there in the black sky. . .just me and the Viper. I was forever being Starbuck and never being Kara.

I know now that I wanted to be Kara for her. I wanted to be different and it scared me. And now it's too late. Far too late.

She's long gone.

We're so close to Earth I can smell it; just a jump away. . .and all I wanna do is share it with her. I wanna share it all. I wanna give her my heart so she can take away the hardness and the pain. All I have left of her is a picture, and a head full of regret that my heart can't handle.

I wish I could do it all again. Live it all again and get it right.

We shoulda been so much more than what we were. She should be stood by me now - not just a picture on the wall.