Superstar: Enter
the Darkness
by: Columbina
Chapter 5 – Revelation
I awoke alone in the white hospital room, my head still throbbing,
but slightly less than it had been. I felt a lot better than I had when
I last awoke. Adam, however, wasn’t with me. I wanted him to know that
I needed him, that I loved him for sitting outside my room until he knew
I was alright.
I looked over at the bright flowers again, this time noticing a card.
I reached up and plucked it from where it was nestled within the blooms.
She walks in beauty, like the night,
Of cloudless climes and starry skies;
And all that’s best of dark and bright
Meet in her aspect and her eyes:
Thus mellowed to that tender light
Which heaven to gaudy day denies.
GG,LB.
I love you.
Adam.
The handwriting was sharp, violent, but the words were soft and
gentle. And the last words. I knew they were true, more than if they had
come from his mouth. I placed the card on the beside table next to the
vase of flowers, turning over and curling up in bed. I felt very alone,
as the words held so much passion yet I needed to feel their warmth. And
he wasn’t with me.
Later, again I was alone. Stephanie and Andrew had come to visit, and
I had asked them about Adam. They hadn’t heard from him since he left after
I woke up. I was worried, but I put my worries aside, knowing he would
be okay. Stephanie promised me she would ring me if and when he contacted
her.
It was evening, and I was watching the RAW tape Stephanie had brought
me. Vince had already begun my angle, in preparation for my debut in a
couple of weeks. Stephanie explained the angle to me in some detail. It
began with Rocky and Val Venis having a contest, after Val Venis bragged
he could get any woman he wanted. The Rock got in on it, betting any woman
would pick him over Val Venis. They make a deal to have a match at the
next Pay-per-View, a Ladies’ Man match, in which the winner gets the girl,
me. I’m introduced as myself, but also as X-Pac’s sister. X-Pac owes a
debt of gratitude to The Rock for a few weeks back when the Rock helped
him and Road Dogg fight off Billy Gunn, Chyna and Triple H, so he helps
the Rock win. Then I become The Rock’s valet, also appearing with X-Pac
occasionally. After that is established, they will begin the angle where
I own a quarter of the company.
I was watching a match between the newcomer, Chris Jericho, and my
soon to be companion, Rock, when the doctor knocked on the door.
“Come in,” I told him, turning the tape off.
“Kat Martin?”
“Um, yes, that’s me,” I hadn’t gotten used to being undercover, although
I didn’t look much like myself at the moment.
“I’m just coming in to give you the results of your blood tests, and
to tell you that you can go home tomorrow,” he smiled warmly. Then he opened
the clipboard he was carrying, and scanned the page.
“Mm, yes, everything looks fine…ah. I do have some news for you however.
These results indicate that you are pregnant,” he said. Everything stopped.
This was the final blow. He had taken my strength, my health, my pride,
and now this. I was carrying his child? I held my head in my hands, too
shocked to even cry. “I see this isn’t good news. I rather suspected this
when you were brought in. It was more than an attack, was it not, Miss
Martin?”
I nodded. “I was raped.” I had finally said it.
“Well under the circumstances, there are things we can do. I can arranged
for the foetus to be terminated, if you so wish,” he told me. “But I can
see you’re upset. I’ll leave you to think about it. I’ll be back in the
morning to get an answer, and give you a last check up.”
What was I going to do? My first thought was to get rid of it, get
rid of all reminders of him. But although I believed in a woman’s right
to choose, I always knew that if this ever did happen to me, I wouldn’t
be able to kill something growing inside of me. I also believed that life
begins at conception. And it was already a part of me, whether I liked
it or not.
I spent the rest of the night sleepless, tossing and turning, weighing
up the pros and cons in my head. I couldn’t kill it. But there was no way
I could raise his child. Just giving birth to it would be hard enough.
Should I tell Adam? I couldn’t tell Stephanie, could I? But I’d have to.
And Vince would have to know. Shane would find out. If I were going to
abort I’d have to do it before anyone found out. But no, I couldn’t kill
a part of me, anymore than I could cut off my own arm or leg.
I decided to keep it. What else could I do? I would keep it, and raise
it to take over the part of the company Vince had given to me. I knew Shane
would never earn it back, or deserve it for that matter. My child would
be the future of WWF.
As I decided that, and started to finally doze off, the phone rang.
I looked over at the clock on the wall. It read one am. Who would call
at this hour?
“Hello,” I said sleepily. There was silence. “Hello? Is anyone there?
I’m hanging up now!” How dare someone call this late and not say anything!
I thought, annoyed.
“No, Camille, don’t hang up,” that familiar, now so hated voice said.
I couldn’t speak, but I couldn’t hang up. I was frozen.
“Camille, I’m sorry. I’m so so sorry. I don’t know what happened to
me. I just snapped. I love you so much, it just hurts me that you don’t
feel the same way. Camille? Talk to me, please.”
I couldn’t. How did he get this number? Why was he doing this to me?
“Camille. Listen to me. I’m sorry. Please, I’m not asking you to forgive
me, I know that couldn’t happen. But talk to me at least. Yell at me. Tell
me how much you hate me. You have to know that would hurt me more than
I ever hurt you,” he continued. That last comment awoke me from my trance.
“Nothing could hurt you more than you hurt me. Never. I hate you Shane,
don’t speak to me. Ever again,” I whispered in an icy cold voice. With
that I hung up. But there was no way I was going to sleep tonight. Not
when he knew where I was. I brought my legs up and hugged them to my chest,
shivering. He was out there, and he knew where I was.
continued in:
Chapter
6 – Loss and Gain