I had in my mind an image that would not go away. The night before I was with my sister and my nephews (who are the world to me) Zak, who is two years old, was pretending to fight, making karate imitations and fighting sounds. At the time, my sister and I sat watching him, and laughed because he is our baby, the innocent one, and was trying to be like his brother Alex. Alex is four and the image of him that was haunting me was when that same night, he told me that a ball was a bomb and when he threw it by me and counted, it would blow up and kill me. Fun game, huh?At the time I was just irritated that he was throwing things at me, not caring at all what he was saying.
I was sick to my stomach at the level of hypocrisy I had allowed in my space and cried all the way home. Hearing Zaki’s baby voice say who he was going to kill. My mind was swimming. How dare I ask for world peace and harmony and then put Star Wars on for the kids who I say I love and want to protect and "hope" will become nurturing loving people. How many times had I thought of wanting to hurt other people physically and violently, thinking my thoughts were not hurting anyone.
A Course in Miracles has the idea that “there are no neutral thoughts.” That everything we do, say, and think is creating that action, word, or thought on some level. Many religions also have the idea that “the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree. I have heard a quote, though I cannot recall who originally said it “Our thoughts are merely actions in rehearsal.”
Another example of this, that is more about my personal issues, came up for me during an “Impact Training.” A realization of how I stuff all my feelings inside, hold the worlds problems on my shoulders and literally within me, eat to validate feelings and sooth anxiety, and then wonder why I carry extra weight. As Hans Berger, a very spiritual and honest man shared, how dare I pray and “hope” for perfect health and then act in such a way. If my actions were in alignment with what I say I want, the only prayer that would ever be needed is “Thank You.”
I have the power to create health, disease, violence, peace, love, and fear. What ever comes into my space, based on results, is what I have created. This is the Universal Truth of Creation. I am not a victim of others actions, or blindly stumbling through life. Everything in my space without exception is there because I created it.
