Aspirations
Now that I've been assigned night shifts for a week I've had time to put some thought into what i want to do with all my free time. Over the years there have been any number of things I wanted to do/learn/experience, and for the most part I've had no luck with any of them. My friend Lisa is afraid of growing older because she thinks it will mean she will slow down, and stop having any fun. I too fear getting older, but for a different reason. There are a great many things I've always dreamed of, and the older I get the less likely it is that I will actually acheive these goals. The following are just a few of the things I've aspired to (in deliberately random order).
- Learn to draw Anime
- Learn to play a musical instrument
- Write a best selling fantasy novel
- The whole family thing (no rush on this one)
- Learn to speak Japanese
- Visit Ireland
- Live with a friend
- Live on my own
- Get my MCSE
- Get my A+ Certification
- Get Novell Certification
- Learn to program computer game graphics
- Get over my stage fright
- Become generally less introverted
- Go to a club alone, and actually have fun
- Go somewhere that nobody knows me, and behave increadibly wild so I can get it out of my system
- Tell Girl A, that she is Girl A
- Buy a house
- Put a library in my house
- Collect Anime stuff
- Throttle Pasquel (one of my supervisors)
- Get into a real fight, one where I may actually be hurt. I've always wondered how I'd do.
- Become a hacker
- Learn to sing again, puberty did nasty things to my voice ;)
- Obtain a black belt in Kung Fu
- Obtain a black belt in Judo
- Obtain a black belt in Tae Kwon Do
- Learn that Japanese martial art with the sword
- Learn that martial art I heard about where they never punch or kick back, only redirect.
- Get in shape
- Finish swimming lessons (one badge to go before I can become a life guard).
- Retire from the workforce as soon as possible.
- Invest money.
These are not such mighty goals, but they do add up to quite a bit when placed together. That is the true terror of old age for me, someday I will get to a point where acheiving some, or likely all, of these goals will become impossible. What a horrible thought, to get to a time in your life where you know you've failed.
I'm with Peter Pan, I never want to grow up.