Mike Owens
I feel lost, incapacitated. Longing to hear your voice. Longing to hold you. I am incomplete without you. But you are not here. I look for you, but you are gone. I hold you tenderly in my thoughts, but my arms remain empty. I taste the sweet wine of your lips, but my lips remain wanting. I smell the intoxicating fragrance of your body, but my breath is stolen from me. You are not here.
Missing you is like missing the air I breath. Missing you is like missing the beating of my heart. My thoughts are continually on you. Molded by you. My dreams are composed of images of you. Mention your name, and my face brightens, my eyes sparkle with a far away look of wonder, and excitement. More and more I am lost in your love. Moored in the quiet, restful harbor of your heart.
In all I do, you are there. Inspiring me, enabling me, igniting a raging fire within me that consumes me. It is you that gives my life reason, purpose, direction. I rise in the morning with thoughts of you beside me. I walk throughout the day incapable of even the smallest chore without you flooding my heart. I go to bed to dream of you, to touch you, to hold you, to taste your love to it's fullest. I am no longer my own, I am yours.
So lonely is my life without you. So empty is my soul without the warmth of your embrace. Since the day I first met you, my love has grown like a rose bud coming to full bloom. Since the day I first met you, desire for you has been my constant friend. Surely I would cease to exist if you were not here with me. Yet you are gone.
Sensual delight invades my soul each time I am with you. Sending me into a deep, warm caccoon that wraps around me. Saving me. Securely shielding me from the trials of this life. Sensual delight, sexual desires, yet these are but shadows of my love for you. Sunshine is to the earth as your love is to my heart. Your love warms my heart. Your love gives life to my heart. Your love nourishes my heart. When you are gone, it is like a day without sunshine.
Yesterday, I was alone, lonely, lost. Yet today I am made whole, today you are with me, if only in my thoughts. Yesterday, I was cold, heartless, unfeeling. Yet today I am warmed by your love, today my feelings reach out to you for meaning, today my heart overflows. Yes, and tomorrow you will be there, to love me as I love you. Yet, you are not here.
Of all that I have, of all that I am, I would willingly give up for one brief moment with you. You are my love, my lover, my life! O the sweet mention of your name. Only the sound of it and I am hopelessly lost in your love. Open wide to me the door of your heart and I will gladly run in to be yours. Open to me, and I will never leave.
Until that day that I can own you completely, and you can own me, I will cling to what I have. Until that day, you will posses my soul, my heart, and my thoughts. Until that day, my life, my love, my desires will be incomplete, and I will miss you.