. . . LOVE . . .
love is a very simple word, yet it has a very complex meaning. it occurs at all levels of relationships - from acquaintances to significant others. I love everyone because they are God’s children - even if I strongly disagree with what they are doing.

the phrase it’s better to have loved and lost than not to have loved at all is something we should be aware of at all times. it can be especially difficult when you have a serious altercation with someone you care about. love is what we live for and cannot live without.

I haven’t felt like I’ve had many unconditional sources of love throughout my life. it has strained my relationships with other people. I feel you have to love yourself before you are able to fully love someone else. it is something I struggle with daily. although they say they love me, my parents are very judgmental and critical people. when I’m around them, I never feel like I measure up. it creates frustration, and sometimes I give up too easily. I know I could do more if I try. I am saving up money so I can move out of the house. hopefully that will reduce some of the friction between my parents and I.

in addition, I have never had a good relationship with a male person. don’t get me wrong. I have shared good times, wonderful times with men, but eventually it turns sour. sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever find someone to love and settle down with. I try to keep an open mind about it. he’s somewhere out there. I want to grow as an individual as well as with someone else. I believe that I found my soulmate in kenny. there will always be an intense bond between us, but I am uncertain what the cards hold for the future. hopefully God will help me out on this one.

my friendships have been few and far between as well. I matured slower than other children my age. I believe it was from leading a sheltered, spoiled childhood. I was petty in high school and the beginning of college. I did a lot of gossiping which cost me many friends. I took some relationships and things people did for me for granted. I saw how destructive words can be. I am ashamed of my past, but I strive to change dor the btter. I do pretty well with keeping my mouth shut and being more thankful for things people do for me. most of my close friendships are with people very far away from me. it makes it difficult when you rarely have anyone to hang out with on the weekends. I am thankful for the friends I do have. y’all have helped me through some rough times. I hope to be there for you as well.

remember... love is patient, love is kind
love is not jealous or boastful,
it is not arrogant or rude.
love does not insist on its own way.
it is not irritable or resentful;
it does not rejoice in wrong
but rejoices in the right.
love bears all things, believes
all things, hopes all things
endures all things. love never ends.

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