hey, i'm bored, so i'm just gonna start writing stuff now. so i've been thinking that everything in life happens for a reason. it may not seem like it at the time, but everything that happens is supposed to. you may never know why, but every little thing you experience you have is what makes you you. it's pointless to look back and ask "i wonder what would of happened if i..." cause everything that is supposed to happen does. i know, that is an existenilistic attidude, but that's just how i feel. so anyways, i was also thinking that life is mainly time recovering from one bad experience only to be hurt by another bad experience. so, if you just try to avoid being hurt, your life should be good, right? not quite. if you are afraid to be hurt, you'll never really live, you'll just get by, and that's not the point of life. what makes life special is the triumphs and mistakes. the ups and downs. if your life is just one steady pattern, it's gonna get boring fast. another thing, why do people fear death? it's just something that happens. when it happens, it happens. live for today, and then when you do die, you won't have to worry, cause you'll know you did your best, and there's nothing more you can do. i'm repeating my self, but if you are afraid of dying your whole life, you'll never really live. and anyway, when you die, that is what was supposed to happen, so there's nothing you can do about it. this is just how i feel about things, if you don't agree, it's your righ to. i won't say you are wrong for feeling the way you do, i'm just putting this up, cause it helps to see other view points. well, enough rambling for today. peace yo