::MY TESTIMONY:: I am going to do my best to make this testimony a blessing to you. GOD BLESS YOU When i look back on my younger life,i do not see a happy childhood.You see,my dad was very verbally abusive.(inner scars are alot of times as bad as the outer scars of abuse). So, when i turned 18 i left home:Got married: Had a baby when i was 19:Lost her before she was 3 months old, even before i turned 20: Was divorced by 20: I was so depressed about my divorce i cried a whole month: Until my mom told me to"Get out of that house and Quit Moping:hehe. Ahh that very night i met my second baby's father, and when i told him 2 months later i was pregnant with "My Beauty" HEATHER", You may not believe that but:POOF:GONE:Imagine that.~mhm~.Well NOW he wouldn't take anything for her.But that did hurt me a great deal..just had got a divorce(feeling rejected and got to feel rejected yet again).Well, married again..my second husband really did physically abuse me.He was a heavy drinker and a heavy drug user.Put up with that for 4 years.Heather was 3 when we left that situation.Well, married again..This time to an old high school sweetheart who had been so dupped by his first wife he couldnt trust himself much less no one else.I don't have to tell you came divorce number 3 huh? Now we are up to speed. When we left that third situation Heather and Myself came to live with my mom and her husband.Mom was married to my dad for 25 years,so don't say like mother like daughter..hehe.Anyway, a good friend of my moms husband had been asking about me for 3 years, he even came over while i was seperated from husband number 2 to ask me out:But didn't go.: he was a drinker at that time and everytime i had seen"DOUG" he was drunk, well i just came from a relationship where i dealt with a heavy drinker and i didnt want that at that time. When i came to stay with my mom,Her husband called Doug and handed me the phone so i talked to him and from that night on we were together.We have been together now for 8 years:Only God knows how this will turn out.We had problems for 3 month's. We were back and forth.He kept saying things are working out when he'd stay home 4 nights out of every week.But none of the bills were being paid.My wonderful church helped me keep my lights and phone on.I eventually got a letter of eviction where the rent wasn't being paid and hadn't been in 4 month's.(two month's prior to when we split up).I sent my daughter to stay with her daddy until something is settled to get her away from all of this tension.As i had to find somewhere to stay until i could get something of my own.I had to sell almost everything i own to have funds to live on. Me and my husband got back together on June 28th.We are doing great now.I had to let alot go and forgive alot!As i found out where our problems came from and where his money was being spent.(yes another woman).I am still very hurt and will be for alot of years to come.But at a time when i was at my weakest GOD gave me the strength and endurance and patience to carry on and do what i had to do as he did when my mom had brain cancer and i cared for her in her sickness.God never leaves us.Yes, forgiving someone that has hurt you is a hard thing to do but Jesus forgives us for our sins everyday and if Jesus can forgive me then i can forgive other's because Jesus went through more than i ever will.(UPDATE:My Daughter Decided To Live With Her Real Dad!).Please Pray for Me As I Miss her So Much!! I have been in and out of church all of my life it seems.So,i have been able to be ministered to and got to know the basics of gods word. But on January 1st:New Years Eve, i was baptised with the holy spirit.That is when i started taking God Serious.I have suffered from major depression and been suicidal and God spared my life every stupid time i wanted to end my life. I have to give God all the credit and all the Glory.He is giving me strength,Love and Understanding and Patience in my heart for other's.He has given me the most wonderful Church and Church family anyone could ask for.My Ridgeway Church of God Is The Best!.( of course, im sure you say that about your church and church family also).Well, i hope you do: If You can say That::You Are Blessed! There is a link on my index page to my church:RCOG:PLEASE VISIT WHEN YOU GET A CHANCE: I promice you will enjoy the visit. http://www.swtmelode.com