Today's the big day. I think I'm gonna be sick.

Don't get me wrong, today will be an amazing day. At the end of it I'll be married to the woman I know I'll be spending the rest of my life with. It'll be one of the happiest days of my life. I just have to get over the nerves I've been having all morning.

It's taken a few months but everything has been planned out just how Faith and I want it. We rented a private beach and got everything we need to have both the ceremony and the reception there. It took a lot calls and decisions but we managed to get it all set up with minimal help from others. I'm really proud of that.

I look outside and the weather's perfect. It's like someone knew that today needed to be sunny with no wind and zero chance of rain. There isn't even a cloud in the sky this morning and I hope it stays that way.

The gang flew in from Cleveland three days ago so it's been nonstop talking to people and parties and our Cleveland family getting to know our Miami friends. I'm exhausted just thinking about it but it's been fun. Faith knows how to get a party together, or knows just who to call anyway, so everyone's been having a good time.

She's a little mad at me right now though. Even though nothing about our relationship is traditional I told her a couple months ago that I didn't want us to spend the night before our wedding together. Faith thought I was joking but she wasn't laughing when I made her reserve an extra room at the hotel everyone's staying at for her. She told me there'd better be a damn good reason for it.

Of course, I told her the sex would be hotter on our wedding night and that shut her up. I have no idea if it's true or not but I heard somewhere it's good luck to be separate the night before and I'm not taking any chances with this wedding.

I kind of regret that decision a little in that it's hard to sleep without Faith next to me and it was harder to explain to the boys why she was leaving for the night. Nick just turned one a few weeks ago so he wasn't too bad but Tyler was having done of it because she was leaving before story time, something we try to do together. We finally calmed him down enough for her to leave but he ended up in my room at two in the morning anyway. It was okay though. I missed her, too.

"Buffy, are you ready to go to the beach?" Willow asks me as she walks into my room. "Dawn has the boys dressed and I think we have everything in the car."

I look myself over quick in the mirror. Faith stressed casual with the wedding so I only have on a simple sundress and the cutest sandals to go with them. Faith doesn't know what I'm wearing and I don't know what she is. As long as it's not shorts and a tank top I'll be okay. That's a little too casual for me.

"I think so."

"Nervous?"

I look at her with both a smile and raised eyebrow. "What do you think?"

"I think I never imagined I'd ever be at yours and Faith's wedding," she says, laughing. "I don't think you have any reason to be nervous though. Faith loves you."

I nod. "I know but it's still putting me on edge. I want everything perfect."

"Then you better stop Tyler from trying to roll around on the driveway," Dawn says as she walks in. "I hope you have about five chances of clothes for him for the day."

I do have an extra change of clothes for him, and one for Nick, but I sure didn't pack five. "Okay, I'm coming. We should go anyway."

Once we get to the beach, I see that everyone's there, including Faith. The photographer's there, too, and already taking some pictures but he really starts once the rest of us arrive.

I finally get to see what Faith has decided to wear and I love it. She has on loose fitting white slacks and a very light, purple pastel button-down shirt. I don't know how she did it but she matches my sundress perfectly. And even though some people would think loose-fitting clothing isn't sexy as hell, they would be wrong. If we didn't have an audience, I'd seriously jump her right now.

We pose for dozens of pictures, with different backgrounds, with family and friends and with just the two of us. The best are the ones we take with our two boys. They're all smiles as we hold them for the pictures and I hope those ones turn out the best.

After the pictures everything is kind of a blur until we're in front of everyone and it's time for our vows. My eyes meet Faith's and I wanna cry. She looks so nervous and happy at the same time.

"B, ever since we first met I've wanted to be near you, be your friend, anything. Even when we fought I still wanted that and when I left everyone all those years ago I thought that it'd never happen. I didn't even think we'd ever be friends or that I'd ever see you again."

She pauses and it looks like she's trying to remember exactly what she memorized. "When you were suddenly in my life again and I saw you weren't shutting me out, I knew I had to take a chance and it's been the best decision of my life. You've given me everything, Buffy. With you and Ty and Nicky I feel like I finally have everything I've ever wanted and it's because of you. I love you so much and I'll never stop proving that to you."

I'm pretty sure I'm crying a little but I'm managing to keep it together because I'm up now. The pastor looks to me because he knows I wasn't listening to him and gives me a little nod. "I could never understand why we couldn't be friends, why we fought so much as teenagers. It took me a few years for me to realize it was because we were never honest with each other about how we felt. When you showed up at headquarters after not seeing you for five years I thought we could finally at least be friends.

"When I started seeing how you were with Tyler, how much you'd grown, I could feel how strong my feelings were and I knew you were it for me. You said that I've given you so much but you've done the same for me, Faith. I have the family I was always told I'd never get to have. What we have means everything to me and I will spend the rest of my life showing you how much I love you."

Faith is getting a little misty-eyed now, too, and I'll have to decide later whether or not to tease her about that. She told me a couple weeks ago she would be the one that would keep her cool during the ceremony and I'd be a blubbering mess.

The pastor starts speaking again but I can't hear him. I'm only looking into Faith's eyes and the next thing I know he's saying we can kiss and we don't need to be told twice. We try our best to keep it light and Faith pulls away after only a few seconds.

She puts an arm around me as everyone claps and cheers. "I guess you can't get rid of me now."

"I wouldn't have it any other way."

I swear sometimes Faith thinks of everything.

She said after the ceremony and reception we shouldn't have to think of a thing so while I tried to take charge of the wedding, she decided to handle the honeymoon. I think she got off easy since we agreed we'd only take a few days to ourselves even though we really could go for a couple weeks. There's too much we'd miss.

I had to pack a couple days ago because Faith made sure our bags would be waiting for us in the honeymoon suite at the hotel once we got back from the reception. We'll spend the night there and then it's off to some island in the Caribbean but I don't think we'll be doing much sight-seeing. Faith made sure to tell me to pack light a few times.

We're already a little drunk by the end of the reception when we say goodbye to the kids and everyone else and get in the limo. I don't exactly trust the pervy driver we have so there's not a whole lot of fooling around on the drive to the hotel but I tell Faith it can wait. We've got plenty of time.

My mouth drops permanently once we get to the hotel. Faith arranged it so everything is ready and waiting for us. There's no checking in and of course, our bags are already in the room so instead the manager escorts us to our suite. What's funny is since I'm sure Faith is spending a lot of money to arrange everything just so, the manager is seriously kissing her ass.

Once we get to the room, I'm pretty much speechless. It's more like a mini apartment than a hotel suite. I walk around and look it over almost in a daze as I hear Faith politely say we wouldn't need a tour and that we'll want breakfast at 10:00 am. The manager thanks her and tells us to enjoy our stay before leaving.

"Alone at last," Faith says as she wraps her arms around me from behind.

"Do I even wanna know how much this costs?" I ask.

"Don't worry about it, babe." She kisses my shoulder. "I'm pretty sure you can show me how much you love all this later."

She takes my hand and we start to explore our suite, which has a huge bedroom, a bathroom I wish I could take home with me, an amazing view and even a hot tub. That's right, a hot tub in the comfort of our own room and it looks like the staff got it all ready for us. Our luggage is already in the bedroom and there's complimentary champagne and other goodies on the coffee table in the main room. I wonder if the hotel thought we'd actually be hungry after the massive amount of food we had at the reception.

"I wonder if we can take some of this with us," Faith says and laughs when I raise an eyebrow. "I mean the food. I didn't arrange for food on the plane, just booze."

"And here I thought you thought of everything."

Faith picks me up quickly, causing me to let out a very unattractive yelp, and kisses me. "So . . . did you get me a wedding present or do I just get to unwrap you?"

I smile because I did get her something and it's something she's wanted for years. The last two times I went to Cleveland I snuck off by myself and went to see one of the lawyers on the new Council's payroll.

Ever since I overheard Faith tell Tyler she wished she was his mom, too, I always thought about making it happen. We even talked about it once or twice, especially when I was pregnant with Nick, but we never actually did anything about it. I decided this would be a perfect time to change that.

It's not official or anything yet but I have the initial paperwork in my suitcase to show Faith. Once we get everything signed, Tyler will officially be hers, too. Both Ty and I will even have Lehane as our last name now. I know Faith's not big on her last name to begin with since it reminds her of less than happy times but Nick already has it and I know she likes that.

"I have no problem with the unwrapping part," I respond. "The costumes can just wait until later."

Faith waggles her eyebrows. "Costumes, huh? We're definitely gonna have a lot of fun the next few days."

Tonight has not been much about sexy lingerie or stripping for each other or anything like that but we've never had sex in a hot tub before so it's been an adventurous night. I don't even think Faith had planned on that even though she made sure it was usable but once we jumped in there naked it was bound to happen. I can't resist her.

After that we wrapped each other in robes and retreated to the bedroom with the champagne and some of the chocolates but well, the only thing we ate was each other. The robes came off and we made love for who knows how long, ending now with me between her legs doing my best to show her how much I love her. She has an iron grip on my head the entire time but I barely feel it. I'm too busy concentrating on how incredible she tastes and making her sees stars.

"B," Faith moans out after I've just made her come hard twice, "I need a break, baby."

I kiss my way back up her body then relax against her as she wraps her arms around her. That's all we do as we catch our breath before we can continue. Our skin is covered in sweat and I think the next place we might have sex is the shower. It does look like it's built for two.

Once Faith's breathing starts to slow she moves away from me, causing me to sit up. She pops the cork on the champagne and pours us each a glass, giving one to me.

"So far this has been the best night," she says. "I love you so much, Buffy."

"I love you, too," I say and we clink glasses and take a sip.

This suddenly feels like a really good time to give her the gift I got. We need at least a few minutes before we start up again since we've been going at it hot and heavy for a few hours. I lean in and kiss her before setting my glass down on the bedside table and get up.

"Where you going to, babe?"

"I just wanna walk around naked for you," I say, a smirk on my face. "I'm getting the gift I got you."

"I was joking when I mentioned gifts." Faith's eyes look me up and down as look at her while I look through my bag, making me smile. "I really didn't get you anything."

"I think finding this place is a good gift," I say as I grab the papers and sit back on the bed with her. "This is something I've wanted for a long time and us getting married made me feel like it was time to do it."

"Do what?" Faith asks as she sets her glass down and takes the papers from me.

I watch her as she carefully reads the papers, one set which is for Faith to adopt Tyler and the other which shows I plan to change my name to add hers to mine. Mine's more of the accounts I have to change my name on for the Council but Tyler's are for her to look through. Those are the important ones and tears start to roll down her eyes as she reads them.

"He's gonna be mine for real?" she asks as she looks at me. "He's actually gonna be my kid, too?"

I reach up and wipe away some of her tears. "He's always been yours, too, Faith, but I thought it was time to make everything official. We can be the Lehanes now."

She kisses me then pulls me into a hug. "You really have given me everything. I won't let you down, B. I'll do anything for you."

"I know, baby." I kiss her ear lightly as I keep my arms around her. "I love you."

Faith pulls away from me and wipes her eyes. She gets up and places the papers gently on a table across the room before filling both our glasses to the top and giving mine back to me.

"I think this is definitely something we should toast," she says.

We clink our glasses together and drink before kissing again. I take our empty glasses and set them on the table before looking at her up and down. Faith is just the hottest person I've ever seen naked and I can't believe she's all mine. I must have done something right in this life to deserve her.

"I think it's time we test out the shower."