You know what the best way to end a night is? The feel of Faith and her tongue.

Our night is kind of celebratory right now but it's still amazing. Right now, all I can do is grip the sheets and bite my lip as Faith's head is between my legs and her tongue is being put to good use.

Today was Valentine's Day, our first together and we spent it in Miami. We flew in with Tyler yesterday and will probably stay for a couple weeks. Faith has some work to do, budgeting and boring stuff like that, and she wants me to check into maybe teaching a self-defense class whenever we're here. There's no shortage of people to watch Ty when we're at the center and I would be able to do something I know.

Faith's really pushing for more time in Miami, especially in the winter, and I'm starting to come around on that. We've got a couple older slayers now that have taken to teaching so unless there's a serious issue I'm not needed as much. Even though I do like being needed, it's nice to be able to leave and have a life.

We couldn't leave until yesterday though because five days ago my little boy turned one and the last weekend everyone wanted to have a party for him. We couldn't say no to that and I wouldn't want to. Everyone at headquarters is like family, or actual family in Dawn's case, so I felt they should be the ones we celebrate with.

Of course, the party was much bigger than it should have been and he got even more toys that we don't have room for but I can deal with that later. All I really want to think about is Valentine's Day.

It's a little funny but both Faith and I are kind of paranoid about leaving Tyler with someone for a night. We leave him with someone for an hour or two at a time when we're in Miami, same when we're at slayer headquarters, but rarely will anyone take him for a night. Dawn and Willow are on the approved list, as is Giles, and Johnny and Angela have watched him once in Miami but that's it. We don't want to hire anyone because Faith wants to run a background check before she's okay with it.

So today we stayed in. During the day we relaxed by the pool and played with Tyler outside. He's starting to walk so we're trying to make sure he knows to be careful around the pool. He's sneaky though so we have to keep a close eye on him.

After an afternoon of that, Faith unleashed a little surprise she had planned. She hired a chef to come in and cook dinner for us. I'm terrible at knowing what's considered good food or anything so all the meal was to me was some sort of steak, vegetables and a potato with a salad to start. The dessert, however, was insanely good. It was probably the best chocolate cake I've ever eaten.

We agreed to no gifts and Faith actually stuck by it. I think that's because I told her that she couldn't give me anything I wanted. I've never been happier. I have the cutest little son and a girlfriend who treats me and Ty like we're the most special pair in the world. There isn't anything I could ask for.

Tyler was with us while we ate but once he went to sleep the fun could really begin. I did buy some sexy lingerie which lasted all of two minutes before Faith ripped it right off. It's something I can never wear again now but it did its job. Faith was definitely turned on.

We been at it for a few hours now and Faith's been making me come again and again. I didn't think I could take much more but here I am, coming hard yet again as my girlfriend holds me against her. It's so hard to keep quiet but since the last thing I want to do is wake our son with my cries of pleasure I manage to only scream internally.

A couple minutes later I'm coming down but Faith is still down there, kissing and licking. I don't think I can take any more. "Faith, baby . . . I think I need a breather."

She takes her time but soon Faith's kissing and licking her way back up my body. It feels so good and I know she wants to work me up again so we can keep going but she's exhausted me. I'm gonna need at least a couple hours of rest before I'm good to go again.

Once she's level with me again she kisses me and I can't help but respond. It's so soft and tender and the perfect way to come down. At the same time her hand slowly moves up my side, gently massaging my skin. It's like she wants me to go on sensory overload again.

"I love you, Buffy," she says quietly as we break away.

"Love you, too, baby," I say. "That was amazing."

"You're pretty fucking amazing, too," she says, grinning, "but we really need to get you some better stamina."

I laugh as I put my arms around her. "You can't tell me you're not tired."

"Baby, when I look at you all naked like this I forget all about being tired."

I can only laugh again as I let Faith move off to my side slightly but I still keep her in my arms. I love how she feels against me, especially after we've made love. I can feel her breathing begin to slow against me and she always keeps a hand moving over my skin. It can be overwhelming if I think about it too much.

After a few minutes, Faith speaks up. "I think that was my first good Valentine's day."

"Just good? I'm a little insulted," I tease.

She chuckles. "Fine, it was all I could ask for today. Ty's gonna be a handful, isn't he? He's barely walking and he's already trying to run everywhere."

"Yeah, he will." I smile as she kisses along by collarbone. "I'm happy he was with us today."

"I'm sure it would've been more romantic for us to have the day together, in the pool or the shower, making the day clothing optional, but having Ty here was exactly what I wanted. I love when we have time together just the three of us."

Faith has become real big on family in the last couple months. I think now that we know this is for real she's trying hard to make it so we have a close little family but it's not like she needs to. I know Tyler's going to start calling her mom or mama or whatever we come up with. He's never going to remember Faith out of his life. She's been in it since he was three months old.

I move so we're on our sides and look into her eyes as she puts an arm around me. "We're gonna be the best parents."

"As long as you think I will," Faith says quietly. "Some days I don't think so."

"You are," I say before I kiss her. "And we should get some sleep before he wakes up or before we continue with our fun."

Faith grins. "As long as you're aware the resting is only temporary."

I laugh and we kiss before I pull the sheets over us. We may be in Florida but it's still February and there's a chill in the air at night so covers are a must. I need more than Faith to keep me warm at night.

Not that I'd ever say that to her. I always want her to feel she's all I need because she is.

I'm awake after a couple hours and I have to admit maybe Faith was kind of right. I'm sure I need better stamina but I knew I only needed a little time to recover. It feels like I'm ready for the next round but Faith on the other hand doesn't seem to be. She's out cold and pressed up against me.

Maybe I'm not the only one needs better stamina.

Faith is so cute when she's sleeping. Just like when she's playing with Ty or any of the kids at the center, she looks young and peaceful. She's also gorgeous but that's something I see at all times.

Whenever I look at her I always wonder how we got together. It seems like we've been together for years and not just under one but it also feels like it took forever for us to get it right. It's worth the wait of course but I kind of wish we'd gotten together years ago.

I suddenly hear Tyler start to cry on the monitor and even though she claims almost nothing can wake her, Faith is awake in an instant. She moves against me slightly and kisses my shoulder before starting to get up.

"You can stay here. I'll go see what the little guy is up to."

We smile at each other as Faith throws on her robe and walks out of our room. I want to tell her that we really should let him get back to sleep on his own but she would ignore me anyway. Not that I lead by example or anything. Most times we just go in there to make sure he's okay but there are times when we pick him up and rock him back to sleep.

I hear Faith on the monitor and it only takes me a second to know she's picking him up. She whispers to him quietly for a moment and even though I know I shouldn't, I listen a little closer to the monitor. I'm curious to know what she's saying.

"It's okay, Ty," she whispers. "Bad nightmare?"

Of course, he's still crying and even though he's saying short words here and there, it's not like he's going to tell Faith what's wrong. She's always asking him questions like that though and I hear some rustling which I know means she's sat down in the chair by his crib.

"You know what, buddy? You're probably the luckiest little boy in the world." She pauses and I think I hear a sigh. "Your mommy is the strongest person in the world and you've got so many people who'll do anything for you, including me."

Tyler's still crying but I think he's starting to calm down. He always does when one of us talks to him.

"I know you're not really my son but I'm always gonna treat you that way. You're always gonna be my number one along with your mommy. I wish we had you together but I guess I got here a little late for that. Doesn't matter though 'cause you're my little guy, right?"

She's never said anything like this to me and I want to respond. I've had that thought once or twice when we're doing things that make us a little family but Faith has never said anything while we're doing them. It doesn't surprise me but I wish she would tell me things like that.

"I'll always be there for you, too. I promise. I'll even try to keep your mommy from embarrassing you when you get older."

I take offense to that. Who says that it won't be me trying to keep Faith from embarrassing him? I can totally see her intentionally trying to when he's trying to impress a girl or look tough in front of his friends. She'll be the one laughing about it. Then again, I'll probably be laughing right along with her.

"Think you're ready to sleep again? Yeah, I bet you are." I can hear her getting up and I bet she's lying him back down. "Try to sleep for a few hours, okay? I think mommy's pretty tired. Love you."

I set the monitor back down on the nightstand and sit up as she walks back into our room. She smiles at me and I decide to let her know I heard her and point to the monitor. The smile's gone then and it looks like she might be nervous. I wish she wouldn't get nervous every time I find out how she feels about something that has to do with our family. She should know I'd never get mad about hearing how much she loves Ty.

"You heard?" she whispers.

I nod. "Yeah."

Faith sits down on the bed next to me and turns to look at me. "And?"

"Why do you look nervous?" I ask quietly. "Faith, you should know by now that whatever you're feeling I'm probably feeling the same way. You know how much I love that you think of Tyler as your son. I think of him as ours."

"I don't know." She shrugs. "I guess it's 'cause we haven't been together that long. My head always goes to the worst possible outcome, has since I was a kid. I think about what would happen if we broke up. I don't know what I'd do if I couldn't see Ty every day. I don't know what I'd do without you."

I wish this was the first time I've heard something like this but it isn't. As much as Faith has gotten her life together in the last few years, she's still very insecure when it comes to situations like this. "Baby, you have to stop thinking like that."

"I try but that's how I've always reacted to situations."

"I know but you need to stop. When you think about Tyler all you should be thinking about is how we're gonna deal with all the trouble he's gonna give us. When you think about us . . . well, you shouldn't be thinking about us breaking up. That doesn't help either of us, Faith."

She moves over and leans against me. "I know, B. It's just hard."

I put my arm around her and think about all the times I couldn't even look at her without us fighting. It seems both like a lifetime ago and just yesterday. I've wished thousands of times that we never had to try and kill each other in order to get to where we are now. I've been told that we needed that in order to be together but I wish didn't have to be that way. Faith's scar is right there for me to see every time I see her naked and it hurts a little to look at.

"You're Tyler's mom, too, Faith. We're his parents. You need to keep thinking that."

Faith nods and kisses my shoulder. "You're amazing."

"I know."

We both laugh quietly at that and any tension that we had from that little conversation is gone now. I really want Faith to think of herself as Tyler's parent without all the self-doubt she seems to feel. That doubt shouldn't be there, not if I think of her that way and I do.

The house is silent and we're both awake now so it's not long before our hands start to wander a little. I'm still naked so I slowly get Faith to shrug off her robe and we get it tossed to the side before sliding down into a more horizontal position.

Faith pulls the covers over us as we cuddle and kiss in the center of the bed. I tighten my hold on her as our kissing deepens and I'm suddenly not that tired anymore. The feel of Faith's skin pressed against mine is not only a turn on but it makes me feel warm and safe. I thought that feeling might lessen the longer we've been together but it's only gotten stronger. Of course, it didn't hurt that I know she would put me and our son before herself.

When we break away I laugh as Faith kisses my forehead. "So, are you tired?"

She laughs. "I don't know, B. Maybe we should get some more sleep. You know, get you fully rested."

I can't believe her. She's probably tired and is trying to get me to claim that I'm the one who needs more rest. I wonder what happened to the whole looking at me naked is all she needs argument. She always wants to look like the tough one, even in the bedroom.

"You are something else," I say. "Just admit you're more tired than me. I promise to keep the teasing to a minimum."

"I know that's not true." Faith's got a little grin on her face that tells me she's joking but I can see she's a little tried, too. "You'd never give up an opportunity like that."

That's true. "I could try."

Faith shakes her head lightly. "Let's just get a little sleep. Maybe you can wake me up in a few hours by feeling me up."

Of course I'll be doing that and I know if she's up first she'd do that to me. It only happens if one of us is up first and not Tyler but it happens enough to where I expect to be woken up by Faith's wandering hands at least once a week.