the firt pathetic attempt
Mood:  lyrical
Now Playing: midnight bliss
indifferent and resent full i tried and failed. I feared and forfited... thats the way things will be, ever involving, revolving, evolving only to fall apart when i need it most... loyalties appear and and it appears that their all for not... one sided... my sided... and even more disabling when taken away... i don't blame her .. i can't blame her... but i want to ... i see her reasons and i hate the fact i could not be everything she desired. i see that I'm am a creature and now crippled and hunched i see that she is this monsters bride, my Mina and Esmeralda.. one sided, i destroy everything else around me, deify all gods and, and sacrifice myself for her over and over... but like Gardner's Grendel i was set up to fail simply because i cant be like everyone else ... never could .... and even when i thought things would work out, and can prove we are the same ... I'm spit on spat at and outcasted because of my family, my tastes, and my apperance... and so like The Wanderer " I[have]wailed my woe." and fallen in the hands of... at the feet of my hunter, so sad and alone ... i sit in shadow losing myself in dark mazes confusing my convictions with no hope for the dawn... no salvation till dawn.