Previously on Grey
Lines:
In the middle of the research party, Spike
approaches Giles and the two walk into the training room. Buffy attempts to
follow them but a questioning Dawn stops her. During the night, Spike and Buffy
talk and end up kissing ;), but Dawn interrupts them. The next morning, Giles
and Spike arrive back at the Magic Box, bringing Clem with them. The old man
says they have found a way to cure Anya, revealing Spike has a soul.
As
Spike finished speaking, the only thing defying the terrible silence that
filled the room was a strange tapping sound. Everyone turned to see Clem
nervously patter his nails on the counter. Realising he was the focus of an
extremely negatively charged attention, the demon instantly retracted his hand,
dropping his shamed gaze to the floor.
“Sorry!” he squeaked.
And silence took over
once more. Everyone tried to look busy, not knowing how to react to the news.
Willow slowly melted back into her seat as she saw the familiar combination of
anger and surprise in the Slayer’s eyes. She really didn’t want to be the target
of that dagger-tossing gaze. Xander was left picking up his jaw off the floor,
while Dawn just looked lost in the midst of everything.
Finally, Buffy swallowed
hard before speaking in a barely audible voice: “You’ve had a soul for four
months?”
“Give or take a few
days… yeah.” Spike tried to seem cool and nonchalant about it, but failed
miserably at it. His gaze frenetically jumped off the walls, onto the ceiling,
down to the wooden floor and then back up the walls; it fell over everything
but her.
“And you’re willing to
give it up for Anya?” Xander dared to interrupt.
Spike didn’t answer
verbally, merely nodded.
“Why?” was the young
man’s next question.
The vampire seemed to
ponder the answer for a split second and then spoke in the most cool and laid-back
way he could muster: “Never got fond of it. Didn’t stick.” He shrugged
“Plus the whole guilt trip is no fun ride.”
“How can you say that?”
Dawn asked incredulous.
Spike looked at her, but
quickly turned away. He couldn’t look at the young girl without feeling his
stomach tie up in knots.
Noticing the rising
tension in the room, Giles decided to intervene:
“Maybe we should all go
home. Take a break…”
“No.” Xander immediately
spoke out. “I want to know how we are going to do this. When?”
“The next time… Clem
gets called we will follow him and…” Giles trailed off, lowering his head and
gaze to the floor as the silence took over the room once more.
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Buffy walked home,
nervously fidgeting with the edge of her blouse.
“Are you ok?” Dawn asked
unsure if it was the right time to speak.
The Slayer was so
wrapped up in her thoughts that she didn’t hear her sister’s question. Her mind
wandered unknowingly through a storm when she felt Willow’s strong hand
gripping her arm.
“Wha’?”
“Buffy, Dawn was talking
to you.” The ex-witch said with a frown.
Buffy shook her head and
gave her sister a ghost of a smile as she spoke: “I’m sorry Dawn. What were you
saying?”
“Are you ok?” the young
girl repeated the question.
“Yeah…” the Slayer
sighed, rubbing her temples as her eyes drifted shut for a second. “I was just
caught by surprise. That’s all.”
“You can say that again.
Spike; with a soul. How weird is that?” Dawn pondered as she opened the door to
her house and walked into the living room.
Buffy dragged her feet
into the kitchen and leaned on the fridge for a while. Willow followed her in
silence, observing her friend shaking her head against the cold white metal
door. The ex-witch knew her well enough to know it was best to let the Slayer
make the first attempt of starting a conversation, so she took a seat next to
the counter and patiently waited. Soon the blond girl turned to face the
redhead. She paused and took a deep breath before speaking:
“How did I notice?”
“Notice what?” Willow
knew what she was talking about, but needed to make her say it.
“He has a soul. He’s had
a soul ever since he came back and I didn’t even notice.” Buffy moved towards
the sink and leaned on its edged, her back turned to her best friend.
“None of us did. How
were we supposed to know?”
“Wasn’t he supposed to
change, because of it?” Willow saw the deep frown over the Slayer’s forehead as
she turned to face her.
“Change to what?”
“I don’t know. Be good?”
“What do you mean good?
Not biting anyone?”
Buffy nodded.
“Not wanting to destroy
the world and instead helping you save it?” Another nod. “Caring about others…
like Dawn?” Nod. “Looking out for her? Watching over her?” Nod. “Buffy, he
already used to do that even before he got the soul. Remember?”
Buffy stared blankly at
the ex-witch before closing her eyes shut and sighed audibly.
“Then what difference
does it make if he has a soul or not?” the Slayer finally said it.
“I don’t know. You tell
me.” Willow asked in a low voice.
“Willow, you’re not
helping.” Buffy exhaled sharply as her fingers came to rest on the bridge of
her nose. “You’re suppose to tell me that if you have a soul your good and if
not… you’re bad. Things would be a lot easier that way.”
Willow paused for a
while before revealing what had been on her mind for along time now:
“I don’t think things
are that simple anymore. Not since…”
The look of pain that
swam in the ex-witch’s eyes was enough to let Buffy know what her friend was
referring to. She nodded, silently forgiving her.
“Having a soul doesn’t
mean automatically mean you’ll be good.” Willow pointed.
“I know, but-“
“Well, maybe the other
way around is true too. Clem doesn’t have a soul. He’s a demon and he’s one of
the sweetest creatures I know. He wouldn’t hurt a fly.”
“Yeah, but Spike’s a
vampire, which equals evil, bloodsucking demon, not cute, floppy skinned
demon.” Buffy argued, crossing her arms over her chest.
“Maybe things aren’t all
black and white, like you’d like them to be.” Willow replied.
“But…”
“Why can’t you accept
that Spike can be a good person… er… vampire without a soul?” Willow finally
asked.
The two stood in silence
as Buffy pondered what to say.
“If Spike…” God this
is hard. She thought to herself. “If he could be good… without a soul…”
Willow gave her friend a nod as an incentive to continue. “Why wasn’t Angelus?”
she finally said it. “Why didn’t Angel love me when he lost his soul?”
There was a hint of
nostalgia in her eyes as she spoke, but the most visible emotion hovering
around her was uncertainty and doubt as her glassy eyes gazed into infinity.
She was snapped out of her thoughts by Dawn’s approaching voice as the teenager
walked into the room.
“What are we having for
lunch?” she asked taking a seat next to the redheaded woman.
“I don’t know. Do you
wanna order something?” the Slayer’s tone was cool and calm as she forced her
heartbeat to slow down to an acceptable rhythm.
“Sure.” Dawn immediately
agreed, standing up and making her way towards the phone. “Chinese or pizza.”
Buffy looked at Willow
and the two answered in unison: “Pizza.”
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“Will you ever learn how
to eat with your bloody hole shut?” Spike protested as he flipped the channels
on the TV.
“Sowy!” Seeing the frown
over the vampire’s eyebrows, the demon swallowed the gigantic slice of pizza
and repeated more intelligible: “Sorry!”
Silence settled in
between them once more, but it didn’t take long before Clem’s incessant tongue
broke it.
“Whatcha watching?”
before Spike could answer the demon continued: “Oh! I love this commercial.
Look at all those cute little kittens.” He ran a floppy hand over his tummy and
added: “I’m kinda hungry.”
“You just ate two whole
pizzas and you’re hungry?” the vampire asked in disbelief.
Clem was about to answer
when a knock on the door echoed through the murky walls of the crypt.
Soon after, the doorknob was turned and a familiar face peeked into the room.
“Can I come in?” Buffy
asked with uneasiness.
“Sure!” Clem welcomed
the young girl with his trademark smile.
Spike looked anxiously
at the figure that now stood in front of him, nervously fumbling with the hem
of her shirt. They eyed each other suspiciously, both wondering what the other
was thinking, both ignoring Clem’s extreme discomfort at the alarming silence
settling around them. Finally, she spoke:
“Clem…”
“Yes!” the demon
immediately answered relieved that someone had broken the silence.
“Could you…” she paused,
slightly tilting her head towards the lower level of the crypt, but the demon
was completely oblivious to her intentions. He stared wide-eyed as the Slayer’s
movements became more apparent, in a disastrous attempt to enlighten Clem in
the fine art of subtlety.
“Spare your neck
muscles, Slayer, cause subtlety… not his strongest trait. “ Spike finally
intervened.
“Guess not.” She mumbled
rolling her eyed slightly as she ran her fingers over her now sore neck.
“What?” the demon was at
a complete loss.
“Leave.” Was Spike’s
short, straight to the point statement. “Me and the Slayer here need to suss
out a few things.”
“Oh!” the demon exhaled,
making his way to the front door.
“Clem!” the vampire
called monotonically making the demon stop and turn to face him. “Downstairs.
You can’t go out alone, remember? Calling and all?”
“Oh, right!” Clem
lightly tapped his hand over his forehead. Midway to the stairs, by work of
magic, the pieces finally seemed to fit in his head and he turned to look at the
Slayer. “Ah! That’s why you were…” he tilted his head just like Buffy had done
a few moments before. “Now I get it.” And he continued trotting his way
downstairs while Spike slurred between clenched teeth:
“Eureka…”
As Clem disappeared into
the lower level of the crypt, Buffy restarted her nervous fidgeting with her
shirt, while Spike suddenly became extremely interested in the cracks that
decorated the room’s ceiling
“So, what brings you to
my humble home.” He finally spoke, waving his arms around.
For some reason, that
simple question made her blood boil in her veins.
“You know very well what
I came here for.” She hissed taking a step towards him.
He shrugged in the most
nonchalant way possible, but there was something clearly mechanical in the way
his shoulders moved, testifying to his discomfort with the whole situation.
“Why are you helping?”
she decided to avoid the real subject.
“What do you mean?” the
vampire asked, frowning in a pathetic attempt to seem confused.
“Why are you helping
us?” she repeated.
“Don’t I usually do
that?”
Touché. She thought.
“Yeah, but this time
it’s different. You’ll loose your soul.” She tried to argue.
“Look, I like the
unfiltered babbling of that crazed vengeance demon, believe it or not. She’s a
good person. We…” his eyes immediately shot up the walls as he drew near the
delicate subject. “She helped me… and by doing that she screw up what she had
with the whelp. I owe her.” He could see her eyes becoming watery and bloodshot
as he spoke, but that didn’t stop him. “She doesn’t-“
“Are you in love with
her?” Buffy suddenly blurted out.
“What?” was his
immediate reaction, his eyes wide; his mouth open in surprise.
“It’s a simple question:
are you in love…” she was forced to swallow hard before she continued: “with
her.”
“What?” he was still in
some kind of shock. After all he had done for her, after all that had happen
between them, how could she still doubt his feelings for her. How could she
think he was in love with… Anya.
“Come on, don’t play
dumb with me. I know you. You would never sacrifice yourself like this if it
wasn’t for someone you love.” Her voice gradually grew in intensity as the rage
crept up her throat and into her words. “I saw the way looked at her.”
“What? When?” the
vampire was still lost. “What are you talking about?”
“I’m talking about you
making googly eyes at each other when you first came to the Magic Box and the
way you were all psycho when she wouldn’t wake up, pushing me out of the way.
And-and now you’re all heroic, all ‘oh I’ll give up my soul for her.’ ”
suddenly it seemed to dawn on her. “She knew you were back, didn’t she? She’s
known all along.”
“WHAT? You’ve lost
you’re wits for good. I guess all that dye just seeped into your brain and
turned it into mush.”
“Did she know you were
here before I did?” the Slayer walked towards the vampire with an accusing
finger pointing at him.
“No!” he shouted. There
was something in his answer that seemed truthful to her, so she decided to
believe him.
“Are you in love with
her?” she now stood inches from him; her face flushed with anger, her eyes
glassy and red with anxiety. When he didn’t answer, she snapped. “I knew it!”
she exhaled sharply, turning around and pacing the room, waving her arms around
as she shouted. “You say you’re in love and you’ve changed and you’ll do
anything for me… and the moment something goes wrong you just jump right into
the next warm bed. Don’t you? Just like you did with Druscilla.”
Spike followed her
around the crypt with his surprised gaze as she frenetically danced from one
side to the other, completely entrenched in her own rambling.
“It’s love…” she mocked.
“It’s forever… Oh, no wait… not forever, that would be too long. It’s only
temporary, until I find another ho!”
“I find? You dumped me,
remember?” he sighed frustrated as his finger waved between her and himself.
“Right and it hurt you
soooo much that you decided to hump the closet warm body.” Her voice was
dripping with sarcasm.
“As far as I know, the moment
you broke up with me who or what I hump cessed to be any of your bloody
business.” He hissed.
Buffy held her breath as
she struggled to find something to say.
“What? No smart come
back.” He mocked, folding his arms over his chest.
She paused for a second,
took a deep breath and asked in a low tone: “Do you love her?”
“Whether I love her or
not is none of you business.”
“I guess not.” She
swallowed hard and began to turn on her heels, preparing to walk away, but
stopped in mid stride, facing him.
“What?” he looked at her
haughtily, leaning on the sarcophagus with his arms crossed over his chest.
Without warning she
flung herself at him, snaking her arms around his neck, smashing her lips
against his.