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June 15th - First new entry on the new diary page!! WHOOOOOO!! Also, today is Trev and I's one month anniversary. He makes me very happy, you guys dont even know. LOVE YOU TREV!! I sent him a lil e-card, and he wrote me this lil poem thing, it was soo sweet!! Summer has barely started....lets see how much trouble i can get into by the end of it. Oh yeah! i might be getting two of the three piercings i want this summer. Lip and nose pierced, its gonna be awesome!!! i cant wait! Ok, that is all for now kids. BUHBYE!!!!
June 18th - Hey kids. Not much been happenin since 3 days ago. Yesterday was alright, Johnie came by with some bomb ass chronic and we got stoned. The only downside to that whole thing was, he spent almost the whole fucking day on the pc....the pc is mine god damnit! Well, it should be, im always on it. Yeah thats right im a fucking internet hermit, suck a cock. It is actually cloudy outside today, i hope it rains, then i can go dance in it like a crazed lunatic. Im very bored right now....bah. I cant think of anything else to type. Until next time....
June 20th - Hmmm....i think i am slowly slipping into either insanity...or i am about to kill someone. Same difference right? Anyways, i have figured out that my mother is not really my mom. She is an authority figure. I have also realized she doesnt enforce rules very well either. Johnie and Ryan are supposed to be kicked out right? Well, fuckers come over every single day, pretty much still living here, just not sleeping here. I swear i am going to be the only child in the house who actually moves far far away and not come back for a while. I want to leave this shit hole as it is. But i am not quite old enough to be out on my own. I'm in kind of a pissy mood today, and its all because i didnt sleep well. So, to make things a lil easier, i just listen to lots of loud music to curb the anger. If i had some marijuana i would be happier, but fuck it. not a big thing. Man, i so wish that i could just stay here at my house all day long and not have to deal with people sometimes. I need to be away with like one other person(Trevor preferrably.) and just chill out. oh well. This is all for now.
June 23rd - Hello kids! well, i cant really say i have been up to much lately. Sleeping, being on the computer all damn day long, i am such a hermit...ah well. Anyways only about a week until i get my hair dye!! WOOT!! Oh yeah, I suggest you all listen to American Head Charge, a band that some one recommended to me, they rule. Hmm...also..i have a camping trip coming up...FAMILY camping trip..with alot of my reletives oh joy!! yeah right. But atleast i get to see the ocean again, i love it there. If any of you from washington want to find a good place to camp, try Kanana Campgrounds in Grayland, over by ocean shores, good place. I seriously seriously need help with my site..i need to make a new page or something. I need something interesting!!! if anyone has any ideas puhleeeeeze!! contact me, im desperate!! thats is all for now.
July 3rd - IM LEAVING CAMPING TODAY!!!!!! Its like 7am right now....i have only had like 3 hours of sleep, but im OK!!!!! This is gonna be so much fucking fun....im going to be oozing fun for like days afterward, its that fun....hahahaha Anyways, wont be back til the 6th, love all of you guys!!!
July 10th - Camping ruled!! I hung out with johnie most of the time and smoked out, it was great. We even busted a mission for seashells. I ended up having to whack a dude in the face with a maglite. He threw a lil girl into some chairs and shit...so i almost broke his jaw, pretty funny stuff i think. 5 more days til me and trev's 2 month anniversary hehe. Sometimes i wonder if he really knows how much i love him....i dont he does yet....well, hasnt been acting like it lately. Oh well...anyways, thats all for now kids.
July 25th - Damn its been a while....Anyways, i just got back last night from staying with stasha for like 9 days. It was great, was like old times again. We stayed up late and talked about all the shit we used to do back in the day, making up stupid stories and smokin cigs....good vacation. Anyhow, when my parents came to pick me up, we went to the mall...and i got my hair dye!!!! Its bleached right now....damn i look insane as a blonde, there is a pic of me blonde on the last pic page, i will take a pic of it dyed tomorrow probably. I guess Mr. Hardesty, our principal has left, so we get a new principal, and that makes me REALLY REALLY REALLY FUCKING HAPPY!!! he was a fucking dickhead and didnt deserve the job. Thats all for now tho, cya later kids.
July 30th - Its 12:39 am, and im awake ahahahaha!! Im always up around this time, im a nightcrawler. Anyhow, i got the new Bif Naked and Three Days Grace cd's, thanks to my sweety Trevor :). They both rule, and if u havent heard of either of those bands, u should check them out!!! ASAP!!! I'm looking forward to school starting, our principal from last year supposedly moved, which would be good if its true, cuz everyone hates his stupid ass anyways. Plus, i miss alot of my school buddies, like Sabrina, Dean, Albert, Tom and some others too. OH YEA! i made it to the honor roll! i saw it in the newspaper today w00t! for me :D :D :D Hopefully i can keep up the good work. Well, thats all for now kids. BUHBYE!
August 2nd - 27 days til mah b-day WOOHOO!! I'll be 17, i cant wait!! Anyways, yesterday was a lot of fun. I went uptown with my mom to go shoppin and stuff, saw a whole bunch of my friends. Caught up with Sabrina about our summers and stuff while we were at the dollar store messin around. OMG! She has been smokin weed and she took shrooms for the first time a while ago, and she doesnt do drugs. I'm happy in a way lol. I guess we are gettin a girl principal, and she is worse than hardesty O.O!!!! Thats pretty bad, hardesty was a power hungry mofo....Oh well, another chick we can get to quit within the first year...muahahaha!!! Anyways, thats all for now.
August 4th - WHOOOOO only 25 more days. Hehe, im countin down til my b-day. Damn, i still need to plan mah party. Im having a sleepover, bbq and a pool party muahaha! its gonna be hella cool. Bah, i still need more ideas for my site. Trev came up with a good one, havin a page for jokes people can put up and stuff. Im prolly gonna do that, i just need to figure out how im gonna set it up. Any more ideas people, im not satisfied yet!!!! Buhbye for now.
August 12th - God damn, i really need to stop forgetting to update this damn thing. Anyways, my brother ryan gets out of rehab tomorrow!! That means only one thing, STONER PARTY! Anyways, i got my stuff from hot topic yesterday, its hella cool. This is the week of our family reunion.....its all my mom's side of the family n such. Old people....lots...of old people...I'm sure i will make it through. My grandma visited us today too. My b-day is in...*thinks* 17 days :D and i will be 17 isnt that neato?! My friend deana is leaving me to go camping :( ima miss her!! Thats ok tho, im sure i will manage somehow *sighs*. My page has been kinda fucked up the past couple days, cuz angelfire sucks my ass....but...i'll fix it. Anyways, thats all i cant think of for the moment. BUHBYE!
August 18th - 9 more days til school starts, and 11 more days til my birthday wheeeeeee!!! Ima be 17, geez, im gettin old, just thinking about my 18th b-day being a year away is really scary. I suggest u all listen to Billy Talent, the band rocks. Kinda reminds me of a new age sex pistols kinda...but i could be wrong, dont yell at me please. You all really really need to put up some jokes for my fuckin joke page, i mean seriously, i have one joke, thats not cool. Anyways, i went to grant county fair on friday, was pretty much the normal shit, seen old friends and such. We went into the pig display....and this pig was freaking out, i thought it was going to break out of the pen and eat me...my mom told me a story about her uncle or something, that got eaten by a pig...all that was left were his boots and hat O.O!!!! See, pigs are bad animals...good for bacon and sausage tho. but not alive. Well, thats all i can think of for now, bye children.
Sept. 12th - HOLY SHIT! Its been like a month since i wrote in this shit. Anyways, my b-day ruled, even tho only 2 of my friends showed up, thats ok tho, more weed for me. Anyways, i got a spongebob alarm clock, incense, sunglasses, clothes, body spray stuff, a rainbow brite sweater, a new bag for school, care bear shoe laces and hello kitty pajamas! School started 2 days before my birthday. The new Alternative school is alright, a lil bigger, looks like a juvenile hall, but thats ok. The principal sucks, as always. 3 days til mine and trevs anniversary again YAY!!! ^_^ The reason why i havent updated in a while is cuz our internet has been shut off, but its back on again. My stepdad is getting laid off from work so he can go back to school D:< So i have to get a job which isnt that bad, cuz i really want one, and the only reason i have to get one is to pay for my own cigs and stuff like that. My green and purple hair is fading!!! It will be prolly dark red by next month, and then in about a year im dying it fuschia! and cutting it too, i dont care what anyone says, im cutting it and thats that! Well, i cant think of anything else to really say except that u should check out the music page and the people i know page, cuz im updating those too. BUHBYE!! ^_^
Sept. 15th - HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO ME AND TREV!!! This is our 4th month anniversary, i'm so happy ^_^. I thought u all would be glad to know i have A's in all my classes and and and and AND!!!!! I might be going to an AFI concert on Oct. 19th with Feish :D :D :D omg, i will be so fuckin happy if i go. Anyways, not really been up to much, been doing the school thing, homework, working on this website, and smoking weed, wtf else do i do?! Well, later kids. BUHBYE!
Sept. 25th - I started working on the haunted house today :D :D :D I love working there. We are having a whole bunch of new sets this year. Nothing much has really happened since the last entry. School is taking its toll on me, i have been so fuckin tired the past weeks its not even funny, and on the weekends i cant catch up on sleep cuz im always staying up hella late on the weekends! I'm gonna be Hello Kitty for halloween hehe ^_^ a gothed out Hello Kitty i guess. Hopefully around the first of October i will be getting my lip pierced and my own pc!!! Hope n pray for me guys, cuz i really really really want both of those things!!! OOOH! And i got spongebob stickers today, yes i am easy to please, so fuckin what?!?! I dont care, spongebob is the pimpest shit. I think the tiredness is creeping in...only 30 mins til i go to bed i think i can last. Well, thats all for now, later kids!
Sept. 28th - @.@ i am lost in my own world as of today. Its hard to explain. I think it might be stress. Hmm...haven't been doing much. Just the normal routine: school, home, weed, eat, sleep, repeat. Pretty cool routine huh? Works for me. For some strange reason, i cannot sleep past noon anymore. Stupid school, fucked everything all up. I cant stay up past 2 either or else i will just pass out from lack of sleep lol. I cant wait til the first :) i am hopefully getting my own pc and my lip pierced...oh yeah...i told u guys that already, oh well, keep praying for me. ha ha ha. Thats all for now.
Oct. 2nd - Last night i got most of the stuff for my hello kitty costume. White kitty ears, some face paint, the usual shit. My costume is gonna be badass. The haunted house is coming together nicely this year. Thanks to my new friend Alyssa Bishop's dad, we have 10 gallons of black paint to paint the walls. We might have a live web broadcast of the house this year while we are working, so all you people out there need to watch if i leave a link damnit!! On a more sad note....i broke up with trev last night. Thats all any of you need to know, i dont feel the need to explain. A lot of things about me are changing....damn adolescence...its really fucked up...ok thats all for today.
Oct 5th - Ugh....sunday....i truly hate sundays. Last night was cool and sucked at the same time. The cool part first. Ryan had me come over to his friends house and we smoked a whole bunch of weed and got really really ripped. That was pretty fun. The bad part. Ryan got kicked out of my uncles house, and he stayed here tonight. I hope my parents dont let him back in here, that would be gay, but i mean i understand if they let him back in cuz he has nowhere to stay, but if he knows whats good for him he will find a place to go. I decided that i am completely not going to work at the haunted house this year. I got too much shit to do already, and i dont really feel like doing it this year. Maybe next year when i can a car and stuff like that i will go work.Well, thats all for now kids. buhbye!!
Oct. 7th - I'm getting straight A's in schoool!!!! And people always said potheads wouldnt amount to anything, shit, im a functioning addict, AND WHAT! Anyways, today was the Alternative high schools first home game ever. We played Pulse High School and beat their ass of course, we're STATE CHAMPIONS!! We had Rob Zombie as our pep rally music lol. My friend Michelle was talking shit to this stupid bitch Priscilla on our volleyball team when she was playing. Priscilla is a stupid skanky hoe anyways. Moving on, today was pretty much all around a good day. I got stoned at lunch with deana, that was cool and we got even more stoned when we got out of school. After we did that, we had to take her lil cousins around so they could sell some stuff for school, oh man i was laughing my ass off, those kids are hilarious. To sum up the recent few days, life is good. but tomorrow it might just be bad again, who knows? oh well. buhbye ^_^
Oct 19th - Ugh...tired. My weekend was good. Spent friday and almost all of saturday at Deanas. Friday was like the best sober day i have had in a long time lol. We had so much fun! Deana's ex Leo came over and we beat his ass, well...mostly Deana did. She knee'd him in the chest really hard and he was being a pussy about it and then he got all butthurt and left. There was this other guy there too, and he was all hittin on me....ugh, he was like 24...and he just got out of prison...yeah...no. But besides that, it was fun. Fuck...i got an essay to finish today...oooh joy. This next week is the last full week of school and then next week we have no school friday, thank the fuckin lord. I seriously hate school so much. Especially with the new principal Mrs. Patterson, she is a stupid bitch. Well, i dont want to go on and on about school so im just gonna stop there. :) buhbye kids.
Nov. 24th - Thank god! my internet is back! I have been having withdrawls cuz i refuse to go back to dial up internet. Anyways. last week was the best. Was stoned most of the time. There is this new guy i know at my school. His name is Cody. He is really cool. We smoked out at lunch on friday, but there wasnt much to smoke so we didnt get that stoned. Deana is gonna start her own website now :D i get to help her with it. ALSO! She will have pictures up, i know all of you guys are dying to see what she looks like hehehehe. I will put some pictures of her up on my site too as well. I might have to spend t-day with my stepdad's parents........thats not good. not good at all, his parents are really odd. It has snowed here already...i hate snow intensely. Its cold and wet and disturbing. I wish it was summer again already. Thats all for now.
Nov. 29th - I am feeling weird lately. I think it might just be that im getting old or whatever, but im off in my own little creative world and i think there is like a whole bigger picture ya know? It might just be the weed, but its got me thinking a lot about how things work. I am on a path of enlightenment! WHOOO!! lol. I'm making huge changes over this winter kids. Lots of change. I dont want to speak of it because i dont want stupid people to foil my plans, muahahahaha!!! But its gonna be a good change, and i promise you all that i will still be the same old niki! in a sense. hehehe. I keep saying this over and over and why dont i ever consider my own damn advice?! cuz im really dumb, thats why. Guys are idiots!!!! I dont know if its just all men around here or if all of them are like that, but damn....just...really stupid...RAR! Makes me disgruntled and dont like that. Johnie is moving back in with us!!! IM SO HAPPY!!! My smokin' buddy is back!!! I love my brother johnie, he is so fuckin cool! We got ripped last night before he got kicked out....:( thats ok tho! Me and him can kick now. DEANA!!! YOU GET TO SMOKE WITH JOHNIE NOW! hehe thats all for now.
Dec. 4th - Ok, flashback to last night. I'm walking home from Deana's house down the street, there are these two guys in a white car. Karod and Keith Micheal. they drive by slowly and im like,
Dec. 8th - Whoo. Monday. Was a slow ass fuckin day for me kids. I was hella tired and i didn't feel good for most of the day. Men are really strange. Either that or i am just not wise in the ways of them yet. They make me mad. Especially when i like them, and they make all these plans with me, and im pretty sure they know i like them, but refuse to tell me what they think on the whole situation. Thats what makes me the maddest!!! I like it when someone is straight forward about things. If i tell you i like you, i expect a fuckin answer! its a simple yes, or no. No damn details and shit like that! Just say it!! I'm not gonna get all emo on you n shit...fuck. Other than that lil tidbit, my weekend fuckin rawked! I was with Deana alllllll weekend except for early friday. Early friday me and Cody Clark skipped 5th and 6th period and went to my house to get stoned. We smoked weed til like 8pm, then he left walking with his ex. (:@) Then, i stayed the night at deanas, got stoned. Went to Michelles wedding the next day, came back, got stoned with her dad and stepmom at their house, and stayed the night there. And last night, i stayed with Deana at her house and got stoned...and went to sleep then i woke up and blah blah blah here i am. Johnie is due home in about 3 hours...and guess what? I'm probably gonna get stoned. Fuckin josh was supposed to come over earlier and smoke a bowl, but noooooo i bet his bitch was tellin him some shit.....stupid whore... Ok Well thats all for now kids. BUHBYE!

Dec. 11th - Wow, tomorrow is friday, and i couldnt be more happy for it to come. This week has been kinda stressful. Lots of shit going down at deana's house. Linda Hindman is gonna get her ass beat though for spreading rumors!!! OoOOHOHOHO! i fuckin hate her. I hope she gets the shit beat out of her. Guess what?!?!?! I'm stoned. Shanna's b/f's lil niece was over at their house today, and she just like clung to me the whole time i was there. It was so cute!! I'm on an incubus, andrew w.k. and nin fetish mode right now. been downloading a lot of older music lately. Stuff that i remember from the past. I live too much in the past i think. I just realized the other night, that a certain someone keeps popping back into my head over and over again. Jonathan Lucas...i swear to god, no matter how hard i try the memory of him is still there, its been fuckin 3 years!!! Ugh, i need resolution i think. Oh well. Thats all for now.
Jan. 17th - Damn..i need to quit letting this shit slip man! Marijuana memory is a bitch. Anyhow...lots of shit has been goin on since the last entry. I've been on a downward spiral since school started back on earlier this month. I'm feeling a lot better as of late. Well, for starters. Deana and Linda Hindman got into a fight. Deana won technically. But Linda got her once in the face, but it wasnt bad at all cuz it didnt even leave a mark. Deana and her cousin both have restraining orders on them. I'm gonna be the one to end this shit. Linda has fucked up for the last time. She wont know when or where or even how this shit is going down, but its going down. But lets not ruin my good mood with that stupid skank. My dog bear had to be put down the other day, it was very sad, but she was in pain and she has gone to doggie heaven where she can go chill. First semester is over!! im pretty sure i got all my credits except for speech which it doesnt matter. School has been fuckin stressing me out, life stresses me out. I need a change of scenery. I need to find some way to get the fuck out of moses for spring break. Hopefully i can go to stasha's cuz i miss her!!! I haven't seen her since last summer. I have picked the next funky colors for my hair to be. Dark blue with light blue tips and light blue bangs. The same way it was when it was green and purple. Oh yeah one more thing. GUYS ARE FUCKING MORONS I FUCKING HATE ALL OF YOU!!! YOU ARE ALL FUCKING IMMATURE AND SUPERFICIAL AND I WANT YOU TO LICK THE DOG SHIT OFF MY BOOT!!! This note was only for Moses Lake males. Thank You.
Jan. 24th - Whooooooooooooooooosa....We played Wapato for basketball on friday. We lost. It sucked, but for the most part the trip was really fun. I have been really hyper a lot lately, thats a good thing i guess cuz i have been kinda down and feeling lazy. Hmm...what else...pretty much the usual shit. Sleep, stoned, school, repeat. Its kinda funny how when ur totally into someone and u let them subtly know you are, and they pay no attention, but when you quit...they fuckin bug the hell out of you. *laughs* thats all for now.
Feb. 18th - Holy fuck....lack of sleep really does fuck you up. i have been getting about 5 and a half hours of sleep the past few nights, its pretty cool. Although i almost passed out in 3rd period today. Thank god Isabel gave me some chocolate gave me a lil energy. >_< im so fucking stressed out, i hate being stressed out. It basically comes from one general thought, but we wont go into what it is, doesnt matter. Everytime i think about it I can feel my heart beating in the palms of my hands and feet, what kind of fucking feeling is that?! thats just really creepy and i feel all weird inside...i am on the verge of freaking out. But thats ok!!! Maybe something new and interesting will happen and then i will get depressed and write poetry about it...yessss, that would be good. A happy ending would be more preferred though.
Feb. 26th - This week is going by too slow!!! ahhh!! I stayed home today cuz im sick. Yeah, i still get to go to the college and watch movies with Seth as long as i am feeling ok. Weed seems to always make it my stomach not hurt anymore...strange. We are watching Wonderland and Pi tonight, both movies i have never seen before, but they should be interesting. Tomorrow is FRIDAY!!! Deana might stay the night and we will kick it and play twister and smoke out and it will rule. Thats all for now though. BUHBYE.
Mar. 1st - *sighs* Man, it seems like i dont know what to do with myself anymore. I feel so much like nothing, but at the same time everything. I don't know myself anymore. I am a prisioner of my own god damn fucked up mind. Maybe this is just another teenage phase, but i wish it would fucking go away!!! All it is doing is causing me pain. I really need to get away from my house, away from everything i have ever known as my life. I need to be reborn, as you could put it i guess. But, i still don't know what i should do...and i can't ask anyone for help because i feel like this is something i should do on my own...but i wish someone could help me.
Mar. 7th - This was probably one of the best weekend i have had in a while. It has went by slowly which is good. Keeps my mind off school for a little while. Friday night i stayed with Jon and Bambi and learned some more about Magic: The Gathering. Pretty cool shit. If anyone reading this is interested in the game, i am putting upa link to his site and you can find out more information on it. Last night I didnt do much just kicked it. And tonight i hung out with my next door neighbors almost all day and smoked out and played GTA:3 and watched Anger Management. I think Deana is mad at me, but i don't care....It seems like i have more fun when the world i know is thrown into chaos...its great. Among all of this there is still confusion. There are still many variables that have been introduced into my life that i have been thinking a lot about lately, but it doesnt have anything to do with my life as of right now so i dont know why i am wasting prescious time thinking about it. Well, tomorrow is monday and the start of another week of lack of sleep and bullshit drama *sighs*. Maybe something much like a miracle will happy to lighten my spirit this week....who knows...
Mar. 11th - Early Release today from school YAY!!!! This week has gone by so fast...tomorrow it will be friday again YES! I don't know what i am going to do this weekend, maybe stay home for once and just be alone, that sounds like a good plan. I am making a pinata for my spanish class and its going to be of Navi, from Zelda: Ocarina of Time. Its gonna be badass. I even put christmas lights on it. I will try to have some pictures up on the site of it. Well, thats all for now. bye kids!
Mar. 23rd - Only this week and next week then i have spring vacation!!!! Anycrap, summer is slowly arriving and i can feel it. I'm going to have a garden this year, its going to be outside the window of this room that i am typing this from. Its gonna be cool. When did i start worrying so much about the future? I don't like to but it seems lately i have been doing that a lot. I need to focus on other things to keep my mind off of it. Other than that, im doing as good as good can be. :D
Mar. 28th - It is almost midnight and i just got home. Damn, life is good. But, it seems to me that nothing good can happen to me without some sort of bad thing happening also. I wonder if thats how life evens things out. I am still in awe of the way i have began to change lately and how everything else is changing and all that i feel inside. I am barely coming to grips with it. I have no regrets for what i have been doing, whatever makes you feel good do it, right? What i do, makes me feel more than good, it makes me feel great and i dont care what anyone thinks of me for it, they can go to hell. I have to not worry about what others think...i just want this happiness to last as long as it can. Fuck everyone else...they wouldnt even be able to understand even the slightest bit of how i feel..(with the exception of others involved.) they would just blow it out of proportion and tell how stupid i am for believing it...and i know it. Maybe if those people took some time to FULLY understand what was going on...maybe...just MAYBE..they could let me be..but it would be futile to even bother telling them, they're eyes would be closed to it all....
Apr. 17th - *yawn* By normal standards of how i sleep, i shouldnt even be up this early in the damn morning(10:35a.m.). But, the night before last, i was out til about 2am....thats probably the latest i have ever been out on a school night ever. But it was spent mostly talking which was fun ^_^. I started working on my little garden space out back yesterday and we managed to get the spaced organized and everything planted in a few short hours. Now, its just the maintainence work that needs to be done. Watering, weeding, you know how that is. What im planting is cantaloupe, forget-me-nots, morning glories, lavendar, camomile, and moon and sun flowers. I think the with the way it has been organized its going to look really pretty when everything starts growing. I never thought i would actually say this, but i am so fuckin happy that there is state testing for the next 2 weeks. I dont have to go to school til 11:15 every day except on monday...for 2 weeks!!! YES!!! i can finally catch up on all the sleep i have been missing lately. I might also be getting a job too. I might be working at the Lakeshore Motel as a maid. that would kick so much ass!!! Man, i am drawing a blank as to what content should go into my Stoner's Corner webpage....i know there are stoners who read this shit, even if u arent a stoner u should get me some insight as to what would be good in that section. Well, thats all for now kids. :D
Apr. 26th - *yawn* I'm glad this monday is already half over. I dont have to be at school for the rest of the week until 11:15. So i get to sleep in....yes! This weekend was cool, i babysat for bambi cuz jonathan went to SakuraCon in seattle. Jayden is so funny, hyper lil thing too! Made money, but that money went into marijuana...gotta support my own habit right? My mom was mad because i didnt use any of the money to buy cigarettes, and then continued with comparing me to my older brother Ryan...that pissed me off so fuckin bad. If you knew ryan, you would understand. I have finally got in contact with my dad not too long ago. Apparently, he has got in contact with my older brother Mark, and he lives just in East Wenatchee so my dad is coming to visit in june and then i am supposed to go up there this summer for a Jones family reunion. Hell yeah, i need to get as far away from moses lake as possible for a while again. I'll be going to Barstow, California :D But, i guess my dad has met another women and they have a son together, his name is Jayden...same as bambi's kid, which i found extremely weird. So now, my sibling count is up to five brothers. I have no sisters....strange. I went and looked at my garden today, there are little tiny plant sprouts starting to pop up so im all excited now ^_^!! Oh yeah, even better good news.....I finally got my lip pierced!!!!!!!!!!! My grandpa's savings bonds got here wednesday and i went and got it done right after i got them cashed, it looks pretty badass. I'll make sure and take some pictures and show it off muahahahaha!!
May 13th - Life is weird. Everything is all spun around and upside and every which way it could be for me. I may have a personality disorder....muahahaha but i believe its more of myself manifesting the traits of someone who has a personality disorder...cuz i believe i am crazy. Anyways, the school year is quickly coming to an end, i have to have a meeting with the damn vice principal about my credits. I dont see the big deal, im passing every class so i should get the credits back right? If only i had my way all the time. He better give me them back..or else i will be pissed. Oh yeah! My stepdad might get a job in Las Vegas. I am happy for him yes, but...that leaves me to make up a decision, do i stay or go? Its been eating away at me for a few days now..I guess i will know when it comes right down to it. Evil forces are working against me i think...and i think that maybe moving to Las Vegas would be a good idea, getting away from everything i have ever known, starting over meeting new people...it all sounds like fun. But, i want to graduate here, i will miss my friends because there is so much i wanted to do before i left here. I dunno, i should stop worrying about it i guess. On a more primal note, i feel like bashing someones skull in. Not sure why, could be all the metal i have been listening to, its unleashing my inner demons hahahahahahah!!! NO, but it would be nice to just smash someone in the face...Dont be appalled by my anger, for it is mine and mine alone. And no one can change it. Blah...babbling, too emotional right now for writing, i will write more later possibly.
May 16th - Ahh...prom was last night. Me and Deana went as a couple(lol) even though they wouldnt sell us couple tickets. There weren't many people there and most of the people we dont like were there, but they didnt ruin our good time. Me and Deana and Rachel Garibay and some other girls were dancing almost the whole time we were there. Our friend Joe Reindl, he had a date, but she wasnt dancing and being a stuck up bitch, so deana slow danced with him which i thought was really nice of her. Our counselor Kathi was even dancing with us, shes the coolest! A lot of people were surprised that me and Deana were there and in dresses hahahahaha!!! I was glad i went, i just danced and forgot about everything that stresses me out and just danced and had fun. I wasnt even worried about what people at school thought, i just danced. We were even trying to rally people to come out and dance with us, but a lot of them were being wallflowers, and i didnt even see the point of them coming if they werent going to dance. Life is spinning out of control other than my magnificent night....so indecisive....AHH!!! ok yeah, thats all for now.
May 23rd - I decided im staying here in moses lake instead of going to Las Vegas with my parents. I'm gonna stay with Bambi and Jonathan ^_^ it will be hella cool. I just noticed that there are weed crumbs in my keyboard, damn johnie...Anyways, things seem kinda damp spirited at the moment, but im sure everything will be cool once this all blows over. Millencolin is a kick ass band. I suggest you all listen to them if you like punk music n such. School is out June 11th!! not much longer to go man...oh it will be so great when school is over...i wont know what to do then!! so much freedom i might go insane.
June 1st - Ahh....today has been a good day. School was tolerable, hook-ups finally re-uped ;) been stoned all day since school was out. Jonathan and Bambi came by and matched johnie so im like @.@ right now....My parents decided that they are leaving for vegas next month..and im staying here, so im gonna go out job hunting tomorrow and do all this stuff, plus school is almost out!!!! I dont even know what is going on really right now...i just hope everything will be alright.
June 7th - YES!!! Thursday is my last day of school. Friday i start babysitting and moving into Jonathan and Bambi's. Whooosh! everything is going by so fast, i didnt think my parents would be so antsy to leave to vegas so soon. They decided to sell everything they own and move down there because my stepdad is guaranteed a job once he gets there so they wont be hurting for money or anything. I'm so happy only one more year of school left!!!!! My dad is coming down to visit me and my older brother here in a couple of weeks HOORAY!! I havent seen my dad in almost 4 years so im really excited about it. I will be 18 in about 2 months!!! I'm so excited! Although, i havent figured out what im going to do for my birthday yet, but im sure it will be something kewl. I will be able to sign myself out of school muahahahaha!! thats the best part about being 18 i think lol. Anyways, thats all for now kids, buhbye!!