The Puppy Poem
Can’t they see, I don’t want to choose,
I’ve nothing to gain, and my whole life to lose.
My family and friends may both think I’m ‘Queer,’
But will they still see I’m the same person here.
Will I lose all the friends that I’ve had,
My parents, I know, will surely go mad.
“What did we do?” – That’s what they’ll say,
“It’s not in our genes, your sister’s OK!”
They’d try to find reasons, someone to blame,
I’d be an outcast, I’d put them to shame.
I don’t want to hurt them, I must live this lie,
But if I don’t say something, I think I may die.
I’m sick of these feelings, unsure and confused,
When I think of the boys…was I just used?
I laid on my back, let them get on with it,
To tell you the truth, I didn’t give a shit.
Lovemaking’s meant to be cherished, enjoyed,
A woman may show me love, unlike those boys.
So what if this makes me seem different or strange?
I’m still the same person, my soul is unchanged.
I may lose my friends, or my family’s respect,
But then, if I don’t, then my life is still wrecked.
I still don’t quite know all these feelings I find,
But one thing I do know is I have my own mind.
It’s telling me ‘Hey Baby, don’t decide yet,
You may make decisions you’ll shortly regret.’
But I need to sort out these thoughts that I’ve had,
‘Cause if I don’t then I’ll surely go mad.
I feel so confused and I don’t know the way,
But there’s one thing I need to know...
“What If I’m GAY?”
