My Heart
Mood:  on fire
Now Playing: Hit 'Em Up Style -- Blue Cantrell
I just got back not too long ago from my meeting with the vocation director, and I think it went amazingly well. I was still nervous, but that melted away. It's going to take a little time for me to process this, so thank God I have a month to do it! The vocation director gave me a book on prayer to read (chapter by chapter) and discuss with her. I'll read the book. I just hope the writing style is not dry so that I can read it with a little more attention.

She also gave me the first page of the "Grant me a Discerning Heart" process to reflect on. This is what this particular community uses for its formal discernment process. I did this same thing with the former community that I thought I wanted to join (which ended on a sour note to say the least and remain positive with what I say). I was kind of nervous when I first saw this in her hand, but I figure that I'm in a different space now then I was when I completed this a couple of years ago. We'll just see how it goes--this is in God's hands.

On another note, I am finding myself in a relationship that I have to draw to a close. The only thing that sucks is that I still have something of his that he let me borrow that I have to return to him. So I can't just quietly shut the door, I have to slam it. I'll have to see him again to give it back to him. Maybe I should just offer to buy that dang digital camera. I wonder how much it's worth. It's old...it takes a floppy disk.

I'd better close for now. Hope you all are blessed!

Here Comes the Sun
Mood:  down
Now Playing: Down in the River to Pray--Allison Krauss
Why is it that when it's raining all week, I'm aching to get outside and skate, and when it finally does clear up a little, I'm not really feeling up to it? Is that Murphy's Law?

I'm a bit moody today. It must be nearing my time of the month. I've got all kinds of feelings swimming about inside me.

I've got that excited-nervous feeling about meeting with that vocation director tomorrow. I'm trying not to think about that, but it seems the more I try not to think about it, the more nervous I become. Eep! What do I have to be so nervous about?

I've also got this kinda sad feeling because I know that I am not being the best person that I can be. I feel that I've let myself down and others down. That's the feeling that I've been examining lately and what I'll be taking to prayer. My therapist cancelled my appointment today and re-scheduled it for another day but I really wish she could talk today. I'll have to see if I can work through this feeling myself. Please keep me in your prayers.

We (the lead teacher and I) were able to take the kids outside today which was a blessing! They were therefore less hyped up and more easy to work with. We're getting a few new kids in the class.

Our preschool classroom has a guinea pig named Frodo. Little does Frodo know that we have it in for him. Frodo makes a mess of his cage where it has to be cleaned out at least twice a week. I'd rather have a fish--less mess. I'm the one stuck having to clean out the cage most of the time. Not my idea of a nice pet to have. We need a fish. Anyone have a fish supplies to donate? Ha Ha! I have a fish at home named Liza after Liza Minnelli, I hope that the kids would enjoy having a fish around.

My body is all achy from yesterday. I'm not one to take pain pills, but I'm wondering if I should just do so in order to make it easier for me to sit down. It's a struggle just to lower myself into one of the preschooler-sized chairs in the classroom or onto the floor. I'll hope that maybe I can sleep off the aching in a couple of days or so.

Shaking my sillies out
Mood:  silly
Now Playing: Tennessee Homesick Blues -- Dolly Parton
Hi peeps!

Today the kids at work had the biggest case of the wiggles. It was a combination of several things, mainly the weather (it's rained for a week straight so far), the lead teacher had returned after a weeklong absence, and the fact that it's Monday (teachers can relate). So, I put on as many of the moving songs as I could think of and danced along with the children. We shook our sillies out while listening to Raffi, did the Bunny Hop, the Chicken Dance (a favorite of the kids), and Head, Shoulders, Knees and Toes. To say the least, I was exhausted afterwards. I don't know who has more energy--me or my class full of preschoolers! After the fifth time doing some of the songs, the kids seemed pooped, but I kept going ;-)

Yesterday when it cleared up a little, I skated in my driveway. Much to my horror, I found that I'd become the neighbor kids' entertainment...when I looked up, I saw two of them watching me. They were rather young and were probably waiting for me to fall on my bum. I kept skating nevertheless. I didn't fall on my bum, though I came pretty close a couple of times--whew!

I've only got a couple more days until my meeting with the vocation director. I'm super excited, but also super nervous. Ever had that mix of feelings? I don't know whether to celebrate or to hide. I'm sure that the days will go pretty quickly and Wednesday will be here before I know it.

My friend who is a novice in that community sent me some pictures from California where she lives. She's such a great friend! I like the small peeks that she affords me into her experience of community life.

Well, I'll close with a quote from the song that I am listening to (Tennessee Homesick Blues by Dolly Parton)

"Good Lord have mercy on a country girl trying to make a living in a rhinestone world. It's hard to be a diamond in a rhinestone world."

First thing I heard today
Mood:  energetic
Now Playing: Miss New Booty--Bubba Sparks
Today I woke up at 7:30 am so that I can go to mass at the Heightswith the Sisters. I've only been one other time, so I look forward to the time that I can spend in prayer with the Sisters.

Anyways, as the alarm went off (it's tuned to radio), I heard the people talking about a place called One Way Farm. At first glance, it seems similar to the Diocesan Catholic Children's Home (DCCH)where I volunteer.
Both places are looking for volunteers. One Way Farm is in Ohio and DCCH is in Kentucky. Both care for children who were removed from home for some reason or another.

I'm probably preaching to the choir, but if you don't volunteer already, PLEASE DO! God needs each and every last one of you to be His or Her BODY in the world.

Thrifting It!
Mood:  mischievious
Today I hit up one of the local thrift stores with one of my friends who I know from my high school days. She found lots of really nice leather clothing (not something that I'm into), and I found a cute techno-colored (bright green, yellow and white) knit poncho-sweater. I also got myself some roller skates (it's been forever since I've roller skated) and a Madeline children's video (I work with kids).

I can't wait to go roller-skating! I am thinking about skating in my driveway or maybe at recreation time when I am at the Children's Home...I'll have to seriously think about that one though.

The vocation director moved our meeting up a day. I have mixed feelings about that. I'm nervous because I've told her by e-mail that I wanted to start discerning more formally with their community. I hope for a positive reaction. Please pray for me. I'm also excited at the same time because I have a good gut feeling about this community. I'll just have to see where that goes.

Countdown 3 more days until Wednesday when I meet with the vocation director!

You are Mary Magdalene.

Though she was once a
sinner and possessed with many demons, her
faith in Jesus led him to fully restore her
and she became a faithful servant. She was
present at Jesus' cruscifiction, and the
first to see him after his resurrection.She
befriended Jesus even when it wasn't cool.
You may have been a sinner but you love Jesus
and your faith will make you a great leader
and teacher.Mk. 16:1-11; Mt. 28:1; Lk. 24:10;
Jn. 20:11-18; 1 Cor. 15:5-8

Which woman of the bible are you?

Posted by Anne at 5:57 PM EST
Updated: March 12, 2006 1:51 PM EST
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