I'm just here...
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: Fish Tank sound too early for anything else

You Are a Dreaming Soul

Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you away from this world So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all... But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you. Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses. Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others. Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life. Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul

Just wanted to share that with you all today! I see my councellor today so I'm happy about that. Though it seems like I see her every week, though it's every other week.

Tomorrow I see that vocation director. I've decided to reflect on the paper she's given me and not to actually write anything down about it. I'll see how that approach goes. It's different than when I did it the first time with the vocation director of the SNDdeN.

I've got to locate cheap plane tickets sometime this week so that I have my service trip to Cleveland taken care of. Why is it that you have to fly to Chicago or Detroit to get somewhere else within your own state??? EEP! Though, I've done it before. Pray that I find cheap tickets. What's with these 300 something dollar tickets? It's not like I'm flying to California or Florida...sheesh.

Time is Ticking Away
Now Playing: Mr. Roboto -- Styx
My middle name is PROCRASTINATE. I've got so much to do and so little time...and guess what I'm doing? Yeah...writing this blog entry... I've made a promise to myself that I will give myself an hour online to do my chatting, blogging, grouping, IMing, etc to get it out of my system before I really cramp down and get my work done.

What do I have to do? I spend alot of time struggling with the first two chapters of the book that the vocation director gave me to read and reflect on. She wants me to be able to talk it over with her. It was one of the more challenging books to read (and I've only read the first two chapters...what will the rest be like?) I spent so much time reading this book and trying to reflect on it, and taking time off to recover from this experience, that I've pushed aside the reflection paper that she gave me to talk about my personal history. I only have today and tomorrow to do it and there's a whole ton of questions on it. EEP!

The second thing that I'd like to get done is a painting for the priest who usually does the Tuesday night mass that I go to at the Mercy Center. His birthday is this week and I'd really love to give him a nice painting. I just don't know what I'd like to paint for him yet. Hopefully God will inspire me in this perspective.

I think I should give the painting first priority since I have to give it to him tomorrow night. I guess if I don't get the paper thing done, I could ask for more time on it.

So there! I'm done with this task, now onto chatting...tee hee.
Peace!

Just Chillin'
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: The Locomotion
The lead teacher in my classroom asked me today if I've ever thought of being a nun. It just came out of the blue. I'd never breathed a word to anyone that I work with that I was thinking about Religious Life. Is this God speaking or what? Is this the neon flashing sign that I keep praying for? This lady isn't even Catholic. I work in a Lutheran School.

Tonight I get to go to Bible study! Woohooo! It's storming here...I hope it doesn't get cancelled. I wonder if I can convince the Sisters to continue our Bible Study past the Lenten season. That would be awesome.

I found something interesting on someone else's blog that I thought I'd post here. Take a look at it and see if it fools you or not. It lists all of the colors, but the color is not written in the color that it says. Here's where I found it. Peace out!

Jobs?
Mood:  d'oh
Now Playing: Cleveland Shuffle
I've been entertaining the idea of looking for another job. I'm currently working with preschoolers and I think that I do better with infants and toddlers. I think that my calling is to work with infants and toddlers.

I've had several people say they'd look into things for me, I even have a phone number...but I haven't done anything about it but talk. Where I work has really good insurance, and I think that maybe I should just put up with the minor things because of that.

Tomorrow we color eggs. It'll be interesting to see how that goes down. Last time I dyed anything, my hands looked like I had bruised them for a week (purple and blue coloring)...LOL! I hope that none of the parents object to having color on their children.

Time Flies
Mood:  spacey
Now Playing: Listening to the sound of my fish tank because if I play music this early in the morning, my landlady would kill me
Hi everyone!

Wow! Another month has gone by. Time is definitely flying. I have to work Easter week, but I think I get Good Friday off, so I am soooo looking forward to the break. I wonder if Good Friday is a paid holiday.

I am now in search of a book called the Little Office of the Blessed Virgin Mary. Does anyone have a copy that they wouldn't mind parting with? I think this book is similar to the Divine Office that many Religious communities pray and I just want to try it out and see if it's for me. If you have a copy that you can spare, e-mail me and let me know or better yet, reply to this post.

I ordered a book off EBay last night called "Marie Rose Julie of Picardy" and I am soooo looking forward to its arrival. It's a book that tells the story of Saint Julie Billiart. I don't think I could ever tire of hearing/reading/learning about her life. I love to tell her story to the kids that I work with (they're preschoolers). The book is paperback and has about 171 or so pages, so it's a longer read, but not as long as some other books that I've read. This is a good thing so that I don't breeze through the book too fast. I usually have any books that I order sent to my parents' house because the mail is kind of iffy down here where I live. At least I know that it won't get taken at my parents' place or it won't get delivered to the wrong address.

Whoops! Had to stop typing for a nosebleed. When the weather changes, I start getting nosebleeds. They're fairly common in my family. It happens to both my mother and father at the change of seasons as well.

I have a prayer request. I saw a friend at mass last night who is a Benedictine Sister, and she told me that they are having their elections the week after Easter. Pray for them.

Speaking of the Benedictines, I guess I am not that informed on their way of life (and why should I be?). I know that they take an additional vow, that of stability, but I am not quite sure of what that really entails. I thought it meant that the Sisters had to stay in one place, but I guess I've got that wrong. I am lucky that I know alot of the vocation directors of different communities. I guess I'd better direct any further questions about that way of life to that particular vocation director.

Today is Wednesday, so that means that I get to go to the Children's Home to see the kids there. I purposely picked hump day to spend time with them because it makes my week seem to go so much faster. I love those kids and maybe some day I will get to be a "Big Sister" to one of them. That would be neat.

Well, I'd better close for now. It's nearly time for me to go to work.

Peace out y'all!

Odds and Ends
Now Playing: We Are Family -- Sister Sledge
Almost time to go to Bible study! This week, we're looking at Martha and Mary in the Bible. I don't have much to say today, I've been kinda bored lately.

I got a new cabbage patch doll the other day (I collect them), and I named her after the two foundresses of the Religious Community that I am discerning with. Her name's Hilligonde Elisabeth.

I also started messing around with Yahoo! Answers. Here's my answers...though I claim not to be the expert on anything. You might enjoy reading what I've been answering.

Just Thinking
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: Listening to the sound of my fish tank's buzzing because it's too early in the morning to play music
Hello everyone!

I get up in the morning bright and early each day so that I can be at work at 6:30 am. It defies all logic, but that's when I start work. Anyways, I didn't have any point to saying that, I just felt like doing so...tee hee.

I just got an e-mail from my sister that says I have to get measured for the bridesmaid dress that I am going to wear in her wedding. EEP! Guess what I'm going to be doing over the weekend... I hope at least that she picked a color that will look reletively ok on me. But that's not the point, I know. I'm supposed to wear whatever because it would make my sister happy on her day...ok, I can do that...even if the dress is like a hundred something bucks and I'm only going to wear it that one time. Now, anyone who knows me will know that that goes against anything I've ever thought of, but no one asked my opinion (I gave it anyways).

I guess since I'm not the one getting married, I'd better just hold my tongue. I had suggested that she rent her wedding gown and all of the other dresses that she'd need. But who am I to suggest? LOL. Oh well.

Wooohoooo! It's almost Friday! I get to go to Bible Study that day with my friend Rhonda, so I'm on cloud nine.

Well, gotta let you go. Take care!

Quickie
Mood:  rushed
Now Playing: I'm the Only One -- Melissa Etheridge
This is gonna be a quickie because I'm in a rush to get out of here so I can set up for mass at the Mercy Center.

My week's started out stressed, but I got a note today from a friend in snail mail and I am sooooo happy that she wrote me! She says that she's not good at snail mailing people, so I feel lucky to get a message from her. Thanks Sandy!

Also got a little note from the vocation director wishing me a week that is stress free. Maybe that will rub off on me and I will be able to relax for the rest of the week. We'll see.

Take care!

This Sister Skates!
Mood:  party time!
Now Playing: listening to the sound that the fish tank at my friend Renee's dorm makes
I'm writing this entry from my friend Renee's dorm room at Thomas More College in Kentucky. I'm staying the night with Renee and we're going to go roller skating in a little while. I have my skates on and have been rolling around the room in anticipation. Renee tells me that I'm going to skate circles around her. I don't think so.

Earlier we went to Blessed Sacrament church near the school and attended the 4:00 pm mass there. It was nice. The church building is HUGE. I wonder if it was ever a cathedral. I noticed that the cross on the first station of the cross is a little crooked though...it doesn't matter. There was so much to look at there. I love big churches that have lots of things to look at. They even had a Pieta statue (Mother of Sorrows). I love Our Lady of Sorrows, she's the Mother I can relate to the most.

The vocation director had given me some homework to do. I'll eventually get around to it, it involves alot of reading and some writing. I'm in no big rush to get it over though. My middle name is Procrastinate.

Well, I'll sign off now. I sooooo can't wait to skate! Will tell you all about it later!

Puppy Blues
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: Listening in to the conversation between my dad and my sister's fiance
My sister, her fiance, and my puppy niece are in town. My sister and her fiance went out to plan things for their wedding last night so my dad and I were home watching Daphne, my sister's Shih Tzu puppy. We watched the dog through the night and into the morning.

This little puppy is the cutest thing, but it makes messes alot. Especially when there are new people around. Whenever there's someone new, the puppy empties its bladder in excitement. Anyways, I'm trying to catch the dog and put her in her cage while this nurse came over to give my dad a shot (my dad has Multiple Sclerosis and gets daily shots). Well, too late. She peed on my shirt, pants, and shoes since I happened to be holding her at the time she saw the nurse.

Today Daphne missed the paper when she went to the bathroom and I had to clean up after that too. Guess it all comes with having a pet. I'm glad I have a fish.

I'm usually super excited to see Daphne (and my sister)...not necessarily in that order. Daphne is really fun to play with, she likes to play tug of war with her little rope toys.

I am looking forward to Bible study on Friday. We'll be reading about Tabitha of Joppa, a woman that Saint Peter raised from the dead. (It's in Acts of the Apostles). I have yet to read the passage in the book. I'll probably do that later today or sometime this week. I've got several books that I am reading, or need to read. My grandma sent me a book belatedly for my birthday (which was in Feb). It's about Mother Angelica (the nun who founded Eternal Word Television Network--EWTN). It's a really interesting book so far, I'm about half way through it. I didn't know that her life had so many trials...but then again, we all have trials.

I also have the book that the vocation director gave me to read and discuss with her chapter by chapter. It's a book about prayer. I left it at the apartment because I didn't feel like getting into it right away. She told me that she'd like to teach me how to pray Liturgy of the Hours...or the Divine Office...now, are those the same thing? I guess I can Google it to find the answer. I've observed the Benedictine Sisters praying this and have tried to do it along with them, but the way that the Benedictines did it didn't appeal to me. Several Sisters in different communities said that they do it differently...we'll have to see. I'm eager to learn how differently this community does it.

Sister also said that she'd like to pray the rosary with me every now and then. This is something that I'm looking forward to. I pray the rosary every now and then, but I don't know all of the prayers and definitely don't know all of the mysteries.