Stabbing Westward Lyrics
Shame
I only see myself reflected in your eyes
So all that I believe I am essentially are lies
And everything I've hoped to be or ever thought I was
Died with your belief in me, so who the hell am I?
I'm wandering 'round confused
Wondering why I try
The more that you deny my pain
The more it intensifies...
I need someone to ache for me the way I ache for you...
If you ignore that I'm alive
I've nothing to cling to
I stare into this mirror
So tired of this life
If only you would speak to me or care if I'm alive
Once I swore I would die for you
But I never meant like this
I don't know if I'm real without you
What is left of me without you?
I don't know what's real without you
How can I exist without you?
What Do I Have to Do?
You make it hard to breathe
It's as if I'm suffocating
And when you're next to me
I can feel your heartbeat through my skin
It makes me sad to think
This could all be for nothing
I wish there was a way
For you to see inside me
I've never felt this way
About anyone or anything
Tell me
What do I have to do to make you happy?
What do I have to do to make you understand?
What do I have to do to make you want me?
And, if I can't make you want me
What do I have to do?
I know exactly what you're thinking
But I swear this time I will not let you down
I'm not as selfish as I used to be
That was a part of me that never made me proud
Right now I think I would try anything
Anything at all to keep you satisfied
God I hope you see what losing you would do to me
All I want is one more chance
So tell me...
What do I have to make you love me?
What do I have to do to forget about you?
Inside You
I feel your lips
I taste your skin
I need to know
I need to feel you from within
As your blood burns through my skin
I feel complete
I breathe you in
It's where you end and I begin
If only I could stay here...forever
So much to tell you
So much to show you
So much to confide
Now that I'm inside you
We are flesh
We are one
So why do I feel so much guilt
For what I've done?
As your blood burns through my skin
I feel release
I breathe you in
It's where you end and I begin
If I could only stay here...forever
So much to tell you
So much to give you
So much to confide
Now that I'm inside you
Waking up Beside You
I've been so alone for so long
Forgotten by the world, forgotten to myself
Your effervescent eyes have awakened me
And brushed the dust away...
But I knew you'd never stay
So I memorized the color of your eyes
As I lost myself inside you
And I memorized the way our legs entwined
As I drifted off beside you
I miss
God I miss waking up beside you...
At night I cling to you I'm so afraid
Afraid the day will come
And I'll wake and find you gone
But you promise that you'd not abandon me
And kissed my fears away...
But I woke up to that day...
But I had memorized the way our eyes would meet
Reflected in the bathroom mirror
And I memorized your naked silhouette
As you slowly brushed your hair...
I miss
God I miss waking up beside you
I've been so alone for so long...
I forgot how much it hurts
To wake up so alone...
But I'd memorized how warm your body felt
As you lay half-asleep beside me
And I'd memorized the way the sunlight filled the room
And played upon your body...
I miss
God I miss waking up beside you