Trapped inside
A smile on my lips with a polite hello.
Life as usual, all’s a go.
A hug here and a peck on the cheek.
All the while im dying inside.
Holding back the tears and choking back the sobs.
Don’t give in, I tell myself.
They
will not understand.
They do not need to know.
So the smile remains.
As I am screaming inside.
Hide the pain. Hide it all.
Killing myself slowly from within.
Disattached, and disinterested is how I seem
To those who really know me.
They know something is wrong,
But I cant bring myself to say.
Im dying inside, and theres nothing you can do.
I cannot wake from this daze
That has consumed me
Eating me alive, taking away my days.
Invading my nights.
I am alone, even when I am not.
Trapped inside.
M. Swanson
© 2003