I woke up around 11 that morning with Asher's body curled around and entangled with mine. I hadn't even felt him crawl into bed. He must've come back to the room *very* shortly before sunrise. His body was sticky with various fluids and substances. He was usually more fastidious than that when turning in for the day. I managed to disengage my legs from his and slip out of bed. I grimaced as my gown dropped into place and brushed my thighs. It was damp from where he'd snuggled up against me. A cursory inspection of the bed linens only revealed a couple of small spots that would be dry by afternoon. I left them pulled back from his body for the moment. I stripped off the soiled gown and snagged clean clothes from my suitcase...a pair of jeans and a sweatshirt...the green one with seashells printed on it. Then I went into the bathroom for a quick shower and to get dressed. The sweater from last night hung over the shower rod, still damp. I pulled it down and draped it on the towel rack, folding the towel on top of the clean clothes on the toilet seat lid. At least the blood stains from Asher's crying had rinsed out good. I got the water running at a comfortable temperature, pinned up my hair, and stepped into the shower. A washcloth made quick work of the sticky patches where the gown had soaked through or ridden up. I dressed, brushed my teeth, then combed the tangles out of my hair and secured it back in a loose braid. I took a fresh washcloth and towel into the bedroom and cleaned Asher up before tucking him back in. Brushing a strand of silken hair from his face, I kissed his cold cheek. "Rest well, mon cher. I'll be back here when you rise," I whispered, even though I knew he couldn't hear me. Then I went off in search of Kimmy and coffee. Kimmy and Tim were already in the hall headed my way. Tim had a mug of coffee and a book he was carrying for Kimmy. She had her hands full with her own cup and a second one, which she handed to me when I reached them. "Thought you might like a cinnamon spice espresso," she smiled. "Thanks! You read my mind," I grinned back, taking the mug from her. It was one of my favorite flavors. "What're *you* up to?" I asked. She took the book from Tim and held it up. It was "A Wish for Wings That Work" by Berke breathed. "Well, I've heard that people in comas can still *hear* you when you talk to them. And Anita likes penguins...so I thought I'd read her a story about Opus. Maybe it'll help her," she explained. "It's worth a shot anyway," I said. "Anita's room is this way." As we passed Kylie's door, I saw a note tacked to it. It said that Kylie and Jason had gone up to the roof for some sun and coffee. It also gave directions to the roof access. "You two go on," I motioned to my friend and her bear. "I need to talk to Ms. Everett about last night. I'll be on the roof if you need me." I handed her the note so she could find her way up if needs be then headed off to find the stairs. My coffee was empty before I was halfway up the spiral stairwell. This was worse than climbing Ponce Inlet Lighthouse...no windows and no landings to rest at...and well over the two hundred plus stairs the lighthouse sported. Well, correct that. There *was* one landing...only one...with a locked door that I assumed was at ground level. It was still the equivalent of about three stories further to the roof. The aboveground portion of the Circus had to be large enough to accommodate the big top and midway after all. Finally stepping out onto the roof, I had to close my eyes against the sudden brightness. Wish I'd thought to bring some sunglasses with me, but I hadn't anticipated being outside much during the day on this trip. I gradually opened my eyes and let them adjust. I was impressed with the well manicured garden before me. I heard crashes in the bushes off to one side, then a squeal and low voices. I stepped around a hedge just in time to see Ms. Everett and Jason wrassling like a couple of pups. She had just shoved her hands down his pants. He bucked her off, and she rolled to the side in the grass as she landed, laughing fit to burst. "Damn girl. You got cold hands," he complained, eyes wide with shock. I had to smile. It was funny to see someone turn the tables on the little smart aleck. I cleared my throat, drawing their attention. "Um, am I interrupting something? I can come back later," I offered. "That's OK," Kylie said as her laugh eased back to light giggles, "I think you're the Belle I'm being saved by." Jason howled at the bad pun. I grinned. She picked herself up, brushing off a few blades of grass, and grasped Jason's wrist to help lever him up. "I saw the note and figured I'd come on up," I said. "I was gonna just bug Kimmy for some coffee, but I *did* want to talk to you today...without interruptions from a certain someone." I didn't want to say Asher's name. I wasn't sure if it would upset her or not. "Oh...I see," she replied and shot Jason a look. "Well, I figured this would be an ideal time since he's down for the day and probably won't rise until mid afternoon at the earliest," I explained. "For what it's worth, I'm sorry that he handled things the way he did. It was inexcusable behavior. I was gonna ream his ass about that last night, but I kinda got beaten to it." I glanced down, rubbing the back of my neck. I raised my eyes back up to her hesitantly. "Jules kind of scared me with her performance," I admitted. "That makes two of us," Kylie stated. That was a surprise. "Oh?" my eyebrows raised. Jason looked a little uncomfortable all of a sudden. "Um, maybe I should leave you two alone," he said. She smiled and nodded at him. He brushed her cheek with a quick kiss before heading for the stairs. "He didn't have to leave on account of me," I apologized. Still gazing after the departing werewolf, Kylie said, "It's OK...he probably smells a girl talk coming on." Men...go figure. Pointing at my empty cup, she grinned, "Need a refill?" I returned it with a lopsided smile of my own. "Sure, thanks." "So...you weren't expecting that either?" I asked, following her as she walked towards a central table. There was a coffee maker on a nearby serving cart. A bench held a closed laptop and computer bag. "No," she answered back over her shoulder. "It was a complete surprise to me too." I nodded to myself, filing that away. So Jules apparently wasn't in constant communication with her host. That had to be scary to be carrying around something that could just take you over like that. I flashed back on Asher "holding" me during that incident in Savannah and gave a slight shudder. It hadn't been a pleasant experience. "Gotta admit," I stated, "she was pretty impressive. Made me think of an avenging goddess or some such...terrible to behold and all that." I cringed mentally at the nervous note in my voice. Kylie nodded and poured us each a cup of coffee. "Um, are you gonna be all right?" I asked, sipping at my coffee and sitting on an open bench. She sat down next to the laptop on the other bench not saying anything. I continued gently, "I caught the echo of how much that hurt Asher...I *know* it couldn't have been too pleasant for you either." "No...it wasn't," was her soft, terse reply. She focused on some point in the gravel, her statement pained. "If you'd rather not talk about it...," I backed off. I didn't want to push her. After a short awkward silence, she glanced back up at me. "Um...was there something you needed?" she began. "You said you didn't want Asher to know you were here?" She seemed puzzled. I took a breath before explaining, hoping that I didn't piss her off with what I was about to say. "No I don't," my voice came out sounding firm. "Because right now he'd probably have me begging Jules to forgive him and accept him back...I hate coming across as jealous or selfish, but I have to agree with Ramses on this...painful as it was, it NEEDED to be done. Asher is a greedy thing and rather selfish. And I know from personal experience that he doesn't always consider the consequences his actions will have on others until it's too late." Sometimes I wondered if men *ever* grew up. I felt a little better after airing a bit of my irritation with my master. Kylie seemed to accept the explanation. She pursed her lips, "So why are you here then if it's not on his behalf?" I wasn't sure if she was getting irritated at me or not. I was definitely feeling awkward. "Well, part of it was to kind of test the waters," I told her. "I wanted to find out if our presence here was going to be too uncomfortable, if maybe I should try to get Asher to remove to other accommodations or something. He did pack his travel coffin, but it's still on his plane." I waited to see what she would do with the offer. She thought about it for a bit before shaking her head, "No...he needs to stay...things are still precarious with JC...if push comes to shove...he may need to take JC's place." I sat there stunned for a moment. Asher replace Jean-Claude as Master of St. Louis? I didn't think he'd like to hear *that*. Plus all the troubles that would come of it. How could he hold both St. Louis AND Orlando? You simply don't spread yourself that thin and expect to survive for long. Plus, I'd have to stay with Asher to back him up. And Derik still couldn't leave Florida. This was *not* good at all. "I pray it doesn't come to that," I said. "He'd need me to stay here with him, and that really wouldn't sit well with Derik. *That* would impair my ability to help him when and where he'd need it." Kylie didn't look too happy with the possibility either. "Yeah...well I hope it doesn't come to that either." She seemed distracted or lost in thought. I made a guess as to what was bothering her. "You're worried about Anita aren't you?" She nodded, confirming my guess, "Yeah...." I sighed. I hated to bring up unpleasant memories, but if she thought of the events of the night before last the same way I did...what I *knew* of them anyway...then I might be able to offer her some understanding and maybe even comfort. "That's another thing I wanted to talk to you about," I started. "What all was going on that night? I saw what Richard did to your top. Do you want to talk about what happened? I know I sound nosy, but I've got a good reason for asking you this." Kylie clutched at her chest at the mention of Richard's name. I don't think she realized she had. Already she was confirming my suspicions that she viewed it as something akin to rape. "Well," she began, then hesitated before continuing. "We were trying to invoke the Triumverate's power to release her using me as a substitute...Jean- Claude seemed to think if we could break down her shields, she'd be free...now we know it was more involved than that." 'I'll just *bet*,' I thought. I nodded encouragingly and took another sip of coffee. I had to let this flow from her at her pace. If I tried to push, she might just dam it up inside herself. I knew, from talking with Asher, a little bit about how the St. Louis Triumverate worked...basically, sex, anger and blood were needed for the power to be it's most potent. I was starting to get a clearer picture of what Kylie must've found herself trapped into doing, and I bet Jean-Claude hadn't warned her beforehand. He always *had* been sneaky like that. Kylie chose to pursue Anita's problem rather than discuss the details of the attempt to bring her back. "She has a...a 'rip' in her psyche," she struggled for the right words to describe whatever it was that was holding Anita under, "that is slowly absorbing her entire presence. If we don't find a cure soon...well...you see the effect it's having in JC." My own hand went to the now vanished wound at my throat before I realized it. I didn't know if she caught the motion or not. "Can it be mended?" I asked. "Well,...something Ash said to me once made me think maybe...but the way things are going now...," she trailed off. I wondered briefly *when* and under what circumstances Asher had spoken with her about this. I shoved aside the twinge of jealousy and suspicion. Had to stick to business. The other could wait. "What did he tell you?" I prodded. "We're running out of time," she stated. "It wasn't so much something he said...as something I saw." My curiosity peaked, "What?" Kylie looked me right in the eye, like she knew what she was about to say might hurt me. "I saw a 'rip' in him too," she told me. "But it had been mended by people in his life...people who genuinely *care* for him." "These 'rips'," I asked, "any idea of what caused them?" Bluntly, she stated, "Trauma. For Ash...Julianna's death." 'Dear God! What must last night have done to him when she cut him off like that...or to *her* for that matter?' I thought in horror. "And for Anita?" I inquired. "Richard trying to tear away from the Tri," she answered. I was puzzled. "The only way for him to do that would be to...." Then realization hit. "He tried to *kill* himself? Is *that* it?" Kylie nodded. "Tried to protect her by raising shields," she explained. "But he was caught in the act by Dr. Onslow." "Is that the 'Carrie' that he mentioned checking on and that Jean- Claude identified as his girlfriend?" I tried to find a connection for the unfamiliar name. "Yes," Kylie replied. "Anyway Anita tried to stop him by using the Triumverate magic and he apparently threw it back at her...causing massive psychic trauma," she continued her narrative. "She can be mended by people who care about her...and there are plenty around...the catch is...how to reach her?" I was getting perturbed with Dick all over again. "That is one sick puppy," I muttered under my breath. "And he had the *gall* to look at me like I was some whore for giving in to Asher's advances...after resisting him for *months*.," I glared into the distance. Kylie reached across the table and took my hand. "It doesn't have anything to do with piousness," she soothed. "He just sees another person being dragged down into the hell he lives in...with no way out." 'Hell?' I thought, 'man, Richard really *is* messed up.' I raised my eyebrows. "Granted it's not exactly a bed of roses...there seem to be more thorns...but I wouldn't go so far as to call it 'hell.' Was that his justification for trying what he did?" I stood and went to the serving cart to refill my cup. I held the pot out to Kylie questioningly, but she shook her head no. I set it back on the warmer and sat back down. "Don't know about you, but I consider suicide the coward's way out," I offered my opinion. "Not to mention, it's like saying God doesn't know what He's doing, and that you don't trust Him to give you the tools you need to see you through things." I added a spoon of sugar to my coffee and stirred it. "You know...I mentioned that to him last night, and he gave me this look like he's never even thought of that before," Kylie commented. "He's so used to seeing this lifestyle as a 'hell' that it hasn't dawned on him that God just might have a purpose for him being here. Now mind you, I don't know if he's actually going to *do* anything about that, but at least he looked like he might ponder it for a while." "Well, that's a start at least," I sighed. "Maybe there's hope for the boy yet." Kylie quirked an eyebrow at the "boy" comment, but I figured, hey, I've got nearly a decade on the Ulfric...I could call him a boy if I wanted to. I sipped my coffee then moved on to another problem. "I may still see about getting Kimmy to get a hotel room instead of staying here at the Circus. I'd feel better if she'd agree to go back to Florida, but I know she won't. She's completely infatuated with Jean-Claude. The bad thing is, she won't be safe anywhere in St. Louis if he can't pull it together. She's served as his Pomme de Sang before when he's visited Orlando. He could call her at any time and she'd be powerless to resist him even if she wanted to. You *saw* how she was last night," I grimaced. I really was worried for her safety. Kylie nodded. "Yes, I saw," she said. "It's actually all the more reason she stay close to Asher. Ultimately, she is *his* responsibility while she is here...and she actually *can* help with the ardeur if she doesn't mind Asher being present while she sustains JC." I wondered what Kimmy would make of *that* suggestion. Kylie gazed off into the distance thinking. "Oddly enough, the sustenance JC got from Asher last night seemed to help Anita too. Micah said she seemed to improve a bit last night, almost like she was gonna come out of it...but then sank back down just as quickly." She chewed on her fingernail. "Happened the night before too...but why?" she muttered. 'Feeding Jean-Claude's ardeur helped Anita too? I wonder..,' I thought to myself. Out loud, I said, "I *may* have an idea about that, but I'll need to check on something first...." Suddenly, an electronic rendition of Beethoven's "Fur Elise" started emanating from the vicinity of my waist. It was my cell phone. "Hold on a minute," I told her as I unclipped the gadget from my waistband. "Hello?...Hey baby!...Yeah, I've been up for around an hour...what's up?...Uh huh...Oh yeah? What did he say?...OK, I'll pass that along. Thanks for letting me know. You be careful, I don't trust him...I will be...I love you too, small bear. Talk to you later." I hung up the phone. "Shitshitshit!" I was pissed at Asher. "He *said* he was gonna get word to him that we had to leave on an emergency! The *last* thing Asher needs is for him to show up *here*...especially with what all's been going on! Damn!" I ranted. Kylie looked at me with eyebrows raised in befuddlement, "Who?" "That was my husband, Derik on the phone," I explained. "Seems they had a visitor looking for Asher last night. A vamp Derik and I ran into in Georgia on a visit to family. His name's Vladimir. One of Belle's 'boys'...claims to be a Council rep. Seems Belle's taken an interest in the fact that Asher's taken a new servant. We knew he was going to be paying us a visit, but not this soon. And Ash said he'd get word to him that we'd been called away to tend to something unavoidable and postpone the meeting. Vlad's not a master vamp, either, according to Asher...just one of Belle's errand boys." I didn't mention that Asher had killed Vlad's brother Gunthor while rescuing me from him. Gunthor *had* been a master, challenging Asher for Orlando...against Council edict of no duels in the States...although *he'd* been of the Queen of Nightmare's line rather than Belle's, like Vlad was. "Does he know that you and Ash are here?" Kylie sounded worried. She had a look on her face that said "what *else* can go wrong." I knew I must've had a similar statement on *my* face. "He does NOW," I answered, standing and beginning to pace. "It wouldn't have been a very wise move for Derik to have tried lying to him. As far as we know he really *is* a Council rep. Not someone you'd want pissed at ya. I *would* have to find out about this when Asher's out of it. Vlad could be here as early as tonight." Kylie was downright exasperated," Oh, well that's just FABULOUS! Musette due to arrive any day now. Tinkler roaming around somewhere wreaking havoc. JC and Anita down for the count. Let's just add another obstacle to the mix." She leaned on her elbows on the table, holding her forehead. "Who's Tinkler?" I asked, sitting back down. If we were in deep shit, might as well get all the details I could. She lifted her head from her hands and scrutinized me closely, as if she wasn't sure if she could trust me. Finally, she said, "The case Ramses and I have been working on are homicides. Two of them so far. And Ramses believes that the clues of the crime scenes coupled with evidence he picked up off an incoming ship connect 'Tinkler' with the murders. Tinkler is apparently also a vampire of distinctive reputation from the Council's court. A Draconian by nature. A very cunning, very nasty one. Ramses seems to think Dr. Onslow's preserve is the perfect place to hide for such a creature ." She looked away. "We're going on the hunt tonight," she added softly. "Sounds like fun," I said sarcastically. "You taking any back up?" I hoped to God they weren't planning on inviting the *human* authorities in on this hunt...especially if the dragon or vampire or whatever it was turned out to be as nasty as they thought. Kylie gave me a saccharine smile. "Glad you think so, because doubtless Ash will want to help 'protect' JC's interests," she smirked. "Oh joy," I oozed. "Indeed," she commiserated. My body stiffened in shock at an unexpected presence in my mind. My surprise must have shown on my face. "You OK?" Kylie asked perplexedly. "Asher?" I puzzled. She raised an eyebrow at that. Quickly, I raised my shields so he wouldn't see who I was with. I looked at her, stunned. "He's *never* risen this early before!" I exclaimed. "I've got to go before he blasts my shields trying to find me. He's in a panic over something!" Kylie stood, a look of worry on her face. "Uh oh...I think we'd better go see why," she said as she drew her gun. From the stairwell we heard a voice shouting, "Tamara! Ma rose d'acier! Where are you?!" Kylie's eyes widened as she squeaked, "He can't come *up* here...he'll be fried...is he crazy?" I ran to the stairs, stepped inside and started down the stairs, Kylie close on my heels. "I'm coming Asher!" I called back, both aloud and through the marks. "Stay where you are! It's still daylight!" Kylie followed down a few steps, then stopped motioning me onward. Guess she didn't want Asher to see her. Again his voice boomed up the stairwell piteously urgent, "TAMARA! Where *are* you?!" I reached him at the ground floor landing, slightly out of breath. "I'm right here, mon cher. I'm right here. What's wrong?" He crushed me to him as I finished lowering my shields. I could sense horror and relief warring in him. "Oh ma rose d'acier, when I woke and you were not there...I thought you had abandoned me," he sobbed. "Please don't ever frighten me like that again." The bloody *idiot*! "Asher ease up, please," I wheezed. "I can't *breathe*." The pressure eased, and I no longer felt like I was losing a wrestling match to a boa constrictor. "You know I won't leave you, mon cher," I soothed him, hugging him back and resting my cheek on his chest. "I honestly didn't expect you to be up this early. It's barely NOON for crying out loud!" "Where were you?" he asked peevishly. "I was up on the roof having some coffee and enjoying the garden," I answered. Asher nuzzled my hair, then grew still, as only the dead can. "I *thought* I smelled this last night when I returned to our room," his voice came cool and deadly soft. "You smell of the magi.... Why?" Uh oh. "I stopped by Kylie's room to try to talk to her last night while you were with Jean-Claude," I replied. "Ramses was guarding the door and wouldn't allow her to be disturbed." There...the truth...just not the *whole* truth. Unfortunately, I wasn't going to be able to get away with that. Asher held me at arms length, looking hard at me. "Non, it is more than that," he said. "Unless you physically wrestled past him, you shouldn't smell that strongly of him." I looked back at him with a blank face and said, "Nothing happened." He narrowed his eyes. "Do not lie to me ma rose d'acier," he warned. "It was only a kiss," I muttered, unable to face my master. "*What*?" he asked as if he couldn't have heard me correctly. *That* pissed me off. "He KISSED ME!" I hissed at him. "Are you happy now?" From the top of the stairs I heard Kylie's voice ring out, "He WHAT?" The sound of rapid footfalls came as she descended towards us.