Whats in an Age?
I'm 20 turning 34
and I feel so out of place
like and odd piece in a puzzle
I don't really fit in anywhere
I spent so long
trying to be something I wasn't
I gave it all up
to be myself again
but now I don't know what that is
and though I've learned to breath again
I feel locked up
in a cage the I created
dangling over those waters
that treaten to drown me again
and I feel lost
I'm frightened
I don't know whats right anymore
I'm spinning circles
in a crowded room
I want to be single
flying fancy free
yet I can't get used to this-
this stone heavely loneliness
hanging around my neck
somedays I can carry it
like it's not even there
but I can only hide it for so long
and when I'm all alone
I don't even have the strength to try
I told myself
"Your free to act your own age again!"
but how do you do that
when you've spent the past two years
living 10 years older?
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