Dedication
I have become too complacent...I don't give my art work
the attention it needs and I know I am heading the
wrong direction with my life I can feel it. As I have
mentioned before I work at Office Dept, and I enjoy the
work there... With the exception of the Museum (which was
an internship) this has been my favorite job ... but
I am getting to old. I need to be choosing my paths
carefully...when I took the job I knew it was a dead end,
I have to stop using the excuse that I took the job
just to pay the rent... because even though that is true
, We don't really need the money we just need to grow
up and start budjeting. And if I were getting a job just
for the money ... well I could find a job that would pay
more. I think I am holding on to this type of lifestyle
because nothing is forcing me to grow up .... I do my
work on and off when it pleases me and although I am
happy with some of the directions I have gone with it
, when I look at it on the whole I can see the lack of
commitment. For the longest time I was happy I was doing
anything at all. but I think I need to aim a little
higher now. because it is ridiclous that I devote more
time energy and thought to a job I took simply so I
could support myself as an artist. I am addicted to the
copy machines now though .
It isn't anyones fault but my own , even though I would
like to try and blame someone else , Even with the
time I spend at work I have plenty of time to get in the
studio. but I will watch tv or pretend I am cleaning or
zone out half asleep for an hour or two because I am
oh so depressed.... When I was in Grade school they would
always put on my report card needs to learn to use
time wisely. I think I am ready to listen now.
I have thought of an idea for a series that I want to
run with... let me run it past you ...
I enjoy drawing the figure and the Amy series that i
am wrapping up now has let me get back to that
but I think it has hit an end for awhile . I am
starting to use the closet and the collare as
automatics and I don't think I am doing anything too
terribly origonal with that anymore. (there will be
some more work from that series posted here soon I
sent it to Mary to be scanned ) It isn't done yet but
I think I need a breather for awhile.. and for me
that means either sitching gears and working 3-d for
awhile or moving on to something fresh .... So this
is what i am thinking of I want to Run with my
patterns.... have my pieces be about them entirely ... I
can't avoid the human form because it draws me to
it... but I want to indulge my pieces , and not stop
even when I think I am finished ...layers and layers to
the point it dosn't even matter anymore ... precise and
sharp and small ....I think it is the kind of thing
i need to losen me up. Kind of like drawing with my
left hand :) ( thanks Harrold) I have made a few pieces
but I think I need to push myself and do at least 10
a week or set some goal .... well thats all I have so
far ut when I get more I will let you know .
Email: chobek@webtv.net