12-9-98

The cops were at our door again today
I guess this time it was the school across the street that was broken into. They asked Joe if he had seen anything and he said no , that he worked 3rd shift and hadn't seen a thing ,,but they still took his name and birth date and information. I guess I don't care i am sure that was just routiene but I just hate living like this . When our car was broken into for the second time and the two squad cars full of cops just happened to be outside when joe noticed it ..One of the first things I heard them ask him is if he had any enimies in the neighborhood . We don't know anyone here . we keep to ourselves you know... well it is a bad place sometimes. We have mice again i think. I hear them at night but I havn't seen anything . It sounds like they are in our walls... but until I take some responsibility for myself I don't have the right to complain about anything.

On a positive note we got Cell and Freeza in the mail today and they are going to fill out our collection nicely.I love Dragon Ball... that makes me think I miss Veg (an old chat buddie) I miss alot of the fun from the old days on chat.. Pete, veg, Tweaked... :) there were alot of good times . I still keep in contact with Sixguns and sin hehe even though i call sin Mary more times than not now...but I don't even chat with them all that often ... but we keep in touch. I have known Mary the longest and I have only beautiful things to say about her and her little growing family ... HI marco and chibi marc :) hehe I feel like she is an old friend I have know for years , our friendship has grown into it's own casual comfort , if that makes any sense.

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...God I feel like i have something to say that you whoever you are reading this might care about inside me .....some thing we all share in common some way to relate even an observation on my feelings that might be useful ...but I can't seem to find a way to bring it out. can I call it writers block if I talk myself in circles ? I feel kind of sad right now but it isn't a devistating sad just a calm sorrow that makes me feel like nothing that takes any ambition on my part is ever going to be possible . I have all these wonderful Ideas about having my own show or submitting to a poetry magazine , or finding a new job or visiting Mary in NewYork ... I have more failed plans than anything else in my life right now and i am kind of sick of that ....
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