Distrust
On an unrelated topic We are bombing Baghdad at this
moment. They have live shots running on Tv with
constant commintary.and they are beginning the debates
for empeachment tomorrow.... These events are both
overwhelming and distant to me. I have my opinions of
course but I don't think they are well formed yet.The
whole thing feels a bit numb and serious to me now
... and as embarassed as I am to say this I feel
like I am faking my concern for the world at this
moment, I realize on some level that these are
important events that will effect our society
,possibly culture?, but I think I know I should be
upset and concerned more then I am in any genuine way.I
am thinking more about where I want to go to lunch with
Joe today then anything else. They just hit the
confrence center.
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Back to the topic.
DISTRUST
I have been confronted with an specific world wide attiude recently , Maybe it has always been there but i am just becomming aware of it now.. It is a
large scale cynisism and distrust for all things and these feelings go hand in hand with a belief of validity or intelligence.It is the consperency theory taken to an everyday level.
I noiced it first in my critiques in college. My Freshman year critiques were pretty sad as i imagine they are everywhere. No one said a thing unless directly confronted and even then honesty was absent because no one wanted to be offensive (step on any toes ) I always wondered if this phenomenon came from a feeling of mutual respect or a lack of confidence in their (our ) own thoughts and feelings.The comment most often heard was "I like it , it is good and nice " hehe ok that was an exaggeration , but positive support cliches were thrown out randomly without thought alot of the time.
Slowly this changed critiques became more cut throat.
This was good ...I remember almost feeling rewarded when a piece of mine was ripped apart at first because I was glad to have a reaction at all and I took this negativity for honesty and perhaps even intelligence. I think by now you see where i am going with this. The negative was as plastic as the positive.
Neither blanket attiude without reason behind it serves much of a funtion at all.
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