I love flash back Fridays ...At 25 I really worry about myself already being nostalgic. Usually at this time of night I am listening to Art Belle..but tonight I feel like being a bit perkier...I have enough Mountain Dew in me to kill a horse and since I work tomorrow I want to stay awake even if I have to push it a little just so I don't feel like time is draining away from me ...
WKTI is a big time pop station so I have to sit through alot of crap (you could argue that the songs I like are crap too but...) but it is Flashback Friday so they play all the 80's crap that I use to think I was cool lip-sincing to when I was preparing my act for putting on the hits :)
OK perfect example Starship is on with thier big hit from Manequin...I watched that movie over and over ... not because it was so good but because it was on HBO alot and this songs just brings back so many sappy pubesent feelings ... It brings back a time where I could keep myself awake for hours stringing myself from song to song just thinking about the wonderful possibilities of Romance ..
I would play this game with myself with the radio where I would switch from station to station and predict my love life with the next song that came on the radio... I would concentrate just before a song would start and ask the gods of the radio worlld to send me a message that came straight from the heart of my latest crush... Oh I was sad ...was? hehe I still have retro nights when I can't put myself to sleep because I listen to the radio hoping Joe is sending me his love rays :) I know better now of course ...and I am sure I did then too... but there are always moments when you can make yourself believe almost anything is real...
I am a real SAP ...
I had quiet a few days off this week and yet ... the house was not cleaned ... I realized how irresponsible that was of me about 3 hours ago and so I cleaned out the refrigerator ... Oh, it was a pathetic attempt on my part to show that I was making an effort ...and that I had actually done some work ... but I don't think I fooled anyone ... I know I didn't fool Joe ... he hasn't mentioned anything yet but I think he had hoped for a little better progress...and I know I am on borrowed time right now ...and he will mention my laziness to me soon...........and I can't say a damn thing because I deserve it... I really do if you saw this place you would be appauled.... I did some drawings at least though... hehe I suck I really do ....The drawings wern't even that interesting ...just more of the tired old amy series ... hmmm The Amy Series ...
I don't know if I mentioned this but Amy dosn't exist...there is a story behind Amy ... and her closet ...
Joe and I were sitting on the couch one night goofing around and I started to pretend I was talking to someone sitting on the floor next to me ... and I just kept acting like this invisible person and I were having a conversation about him... well jump a few steps forward ..what happened is joe and I invented this girl that lived in our closet named Amy.... we even made her her own website and e-mail address ... I started a series of drawings and a choose your own adventure story featuring amy ... At the same time with my friends she became a running gag of sorts and formed into a submissive closet slave ..and I would lend her out to people for a week or two and they would tell me about her adventures ... She bacame so tangible it was weird and I remember at times it would annoy me slightly when other people had her and would write that she did things that seemed out of character to me ... Ok I am not dilusional here hehe but I did some serious pieces with the closet in mind and some of my writing took paths that I liked ......I had a sweep where through submission our poor little amy learned to find her own power and dominance ... ok right now you think I am a freak ...
So any time you see one of my drawings and you see (even if it is vague ) a collar ... you are seeing an AMY.
I am gonna go try to clean ... Maybe I will drag Amy out and have her help me ... last week she cleaned my kitchen floor with her tounge ... but she missed a few spots so she should be punished ... LOL ...THAT WAS A JOKE BY THE WAY ..... :) good night ...