~*~Lonely Hearts~*~
~@~@CH 6@~@~
Sly holds her as they watch the next movie. About half way through she starts to wiggle around under him.
"Am I too heavy?" He asks innocently enough.
"No I'm just tired of watching movies."
"And what would you like to do?" Sly grins at her. Sitting up.
"Well I think I could entertain you." Lynne says as she leans into him and starts to slide her hand down his chest.
Sly could tell where her hand was going and stopped it. "Can I ask you something?"
"Sure."
"Do I have 'all I want is sex' tattoo'd on my forhead or something?"
"No Why?"
"Because thats all that you are going for. Lynne....I dont' want sex. I want love and if you won't let me get close to you emotionally - I don't want to get close physically either."
Lynne looks at him completely confused. A guy that doesn't want sex. "Sly I don't do feelings. MY last relationship ended bad."
"Well Lucky kinda told me a little Lynne. I know he hit you."
"Yeah - once. But Sly caring about someone will be very far off in the future."
"Well then Lynne. I'll see ya around. I've had sexual relationships. I don't want that I want love...I'm tired of being used for gratification. I want a woman who will be a lady on my arm. I want the type of relationship where just looking at that person sends me to places I can't describe. I want the kind of love that holding hands brings me happiness." Sly couldn't believ e he just told her that. All his time he's spent alone recently really helped him define what it was he was waiting for.
"Wait - you dont' want sex?" Lynne was really confused - a man not wanting sex.
"NO- Lynne sex with someone with no feelings involved is like having sex with your hand...sorry not interested." Sly couldn't believe how cold she was to the idea of a relationship. "I'll hold you tonight but thats it. Its up to you." Sly had so much love to give but she wouldn't accept it. Why couldn't he find a woman to love? He got up silently and went into his bedroom. He left the door open slightly - she could come in if she wanted to.
~@~@~@~
Lynne sat quietly on the couch for a few minutes comtemplating if Sly was for real or not. She decides he's at least worth a look at in his pj's.
She gets up and quietly walks over to Slys bedroom. She sees him doing pushups. Without a shirt on. "Mind if I come in?"
He stops what he's doing and gets up. She notices his defined muscles in his arms and chest. "Not at all...but I'm only holding you tonight."
"Ok Sly...I dont' get it but ok."
Sly takes her hand. Gently led her to the bed. Sitting down next to her holding her hand.
"Lynne, tell me why I shock you so much. Why does a man that respects a woman shock you?"
"Because Sly, my experiance with men obviously has not been one of respect. I've never been kissed but not expected to do more. Sly I've grown to like sex. But you stopping us makes me feel like there is something wrong with me."
"Oh no baby. You are wonderful. Its just I dont' know you. Baby, sex for sex doesn't turn me on. Like I told you theres no feelings. I'm past the stage of only wanting to get happy for a few minutes. I want what Lucky and Liz have. I want love. I think you do too but you are too scared to let yourself. I understand that, especially after your last relationship. Come here. Let me hold you." Sly gets in the bed and lets her crawl in next to him. He turns the light off and puts his arm around her. Fixing to go to sleep.
"Sly?" Lynne asks quietly.
"Yes."
"Can I at least kiss you?"
"Oh yeah...anytime."
With that Lynne and Sly start to kiss, they control the kiss, not letting it turn into anything further. They finally fall asleep in each others arms.
~@~@~CH 7~@~@~
Thoughout the next few weeks, Lucky and Liz happen to make all their outings a foursome. Sly and Lynne are thrown together, much to their approval. Lucky and Liz think they are playing matchmaker not knowing that Sly and Lynne would see each other with or without their help.
The funny thing about their relationship is the typical roles are reversed. Lynne wants more of a sexual relationship, because risking her heart again is something she's not willing to do. Sly wants a love like no other and he's not willing to just give his body for gratification. They play a game with one another that no one else notices. Sly gives in a little physically for everything Lynne gives emotionally. If Lynne holds his hand in public, showing others that they are together. That night he lets the kissing last a little longer, and get a little hotter. If Lynne tells him something like "I Iike you Sly." Then that night, when they are kissing, he'll let his hands wander to satisfy her a little more. This was never a spoken game, no words are exchanged on the rules, it just happens and little by little they are both starting to get the relationship they want, one they can both handle. However its taking time.
About 2 months into the relationship they are finally getting to a point where Lynne trusts him a little. Liz keeps telling her that she has to open up to Sly or she'll lose him.
"Jo honey I know you are scared but I also know Sly. He wont' hurt you. He wants so much for someone to let him love them. You could be that girl sweetie you just have to give him a chance. I promise you Jo if he hurts you - I'll kill him."
"Lizzie what if I get hurt again?"
"JO- you can't live your life on what ifs. Trust me - there are not many men in PC anyway but Sly...he's a keeper. JO he wants to love you - but you have to let him."
"I"m scared Lizzie." Jo cries on her friends shoulder.
"I know you are Jo. Tell me what would make you not scared? I've known Sly for a while now - like 6 months and Lucky's known him all his life...he would never ever hit you."
"I'm not scared of that...Sly is the gentlest guy I've ever met. Its just that he wants my heart and I want to know why- I'm scared he wants it just to break it."
"I bet you he wants your heart so he can give you his. Jo I really think if you let him love you - you won't be sorry."
~%~%Meanwhile - across town at the apt~%~%
"Sly you have to give her what she needs. She is leary of giving her heart away she has to know she can trust you with it. For her to know that she has to know that she can trust you and she's basing that trust on if her needs are met or not. Am I making myself clear Sly. You've got to give to get....you can't expect her to give you her heart if you won't even give her your body."
"Are you trying to tell me to let her use me physically?" Sly is shocked by Lucky's comments.
"Sly all I'm telling you is to give something of yourself to get closer to her. You take that at whatever you want but thats my take of things."
"So you are trying to tell me - tonight when she comes over and crawls in my bed, I shouldn't be a gentleman - I should let her have her way with me?" Sly laughed at how ridiculous that sounded.
"Basically cous...man if we all had the problems you do." Lucky laughed and they went to Eli's to get the ribs for dinner. When they got back to the apartment Liz and Jo were already there. Liz let them in.
That evening was another movie night, Lynne and Sly on the couch, sitting with his arm around her, and Lucky and Liz on the chair, and into the bedroom shortly thereafter. Sly was about ready to start something physical with her, to please her when she surprised him. "Sly - can we go into your room?"
"Sure baby. Come on." He was silently reminding himself what Lucky said (you have to give something of yourself to get closer to her) and he held her hand as they walked into the bedroom. Lynne closed the door and walked with Sly over to the bed. Sly kissed her thinking thats what she wanted.
"No Sly. I want to give you what you want tonight. I want to give you what you need from me." Lynne said hesitantly remember ing what Liz told her ( he wants to love you - but you have to let him).
'Ok Sly...I need to talk to you -I need you to listen to me ok - listen to everything I have to say ok - without interrupting otherwise I'll chicken out. "
"Ok baby - what is it?" Sly asks holding her one hand and rubbing it gently with his other hand."
JL took a deep breath and looked at Sly. She lost herself in his deep eyes. She willed this not to happen but it was, and fast.
"Our relationship is weird." She said and then bit her lip. "Ok wrong way to start. Um...you've done nothing but try and love me and I'm grateful for that. I just...I'm so scared to love you back Sly. I am so scared to love. I've been hurt, time and time again. You can say that you love me and that you'll never leave but these are all words that I've heard before." She brushed her hand against her tearing eyes. "God, I wanna care about you, I wanna show you how much I care about you but I'm scared...I'm scared that your going to promise me forever and walk away. All little girls dream of forever, waiting for their price to come. I've never had that. I never believed in forever. That's so sad...its like I don't have any dreams. Then you walk into my life and you just....make me feel things that are so wonderful. I smile and I laugh and I give a damn about you. I wanna love you...I want you to love me. I want the forever that I never believed in." She took another breath as her voice started to tremble.
"I'm giving you a chance. I'm going to let myself love you....but I'm begging you please, please dont' break my heart. I don't know what I would do."
Sly slowly took her face in his hands. He gently covered her lips with his in a kiss of love not of passion. "Baby I'm not going to make you promises I can't keep. I dont' beleive in that. I know that life can change in the blink of an eye. I've had it happen to many times in my life. I promise you one thing though baby. I will never make a promise to you that I can't keep. I've seen people die in front of my face baby and I know life is fragile, but even more fragile than life is the human heart. I wont' lie to you, I wont' ever, ever, ever hit you. I won't ever try to break your heart. Lynne, I've loved and lost before I know what love is and I want it back. I want to be with you - I dont' ever want to hurt you. So you have my word that I will never intentionally do something to hurt you. I'm starting to fall for you and I like this feeling- I don't ever want to lose it."
Lynne, looks at him and kisses him. Laying down in his arms. He holds her so tight, so happy for what she just gave him, her trust. He vowed to himself to never make her regret that move. Pulling her just a little bit closer, they both drifted off to sleep.
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