WHAT’S
ORTHODOXY, ANYWAY?
(OR, MY JOURNEY TO ORTHODOXY)
“I’m
an Orthodox Christian.” It’s an easy thing for me to say, but harder
to explain. Most people don’t know what Orthodox Christianity is, or
they think they know but they have some false notions. Until I met my
husband, I was only vaguely aware of Orthodoxy and I figured the Orthodox
were sort of like the Amish – old fashioned, out-of-it.
For
information about Orthodox Christianity, download
our church's Q&A booklet (PDF).
This web page is a place for me to share my feelings and
observations about the faith I’ve chosen. (I expect that it will change
from time to time, as my own understandings grow and develop.)
Usually,
the first question people have about Orthodox Christianity is, “What IS
it?” It’s a good question because Orthodoxy is very different from the
other two families of Christianity, Roman Catholicism and Protestantism.
As a former Protestant (I was raised Methodist and became Lutheran in high
school), I felt like I had discovered a well-kept secret when I started
learning about Orthodoxy. Lots of Protestants have felt that way.
The
second question is, “Why did you decide to become Orthodox?” The
answers to that are dynamic, growing in number each day.
To
over-simplify, I chose to become Orthodox when I discovered my Protestant
faith could not provide the spiritual depth I had been seeking all of my
life. (I say this for me, only; one’s personal faith is between only him
and God, and I’m not saying that Protestantism isn’t right for other
people.) By the time I was in my early 30s I had attended Methodist,
Lutheran, Presbyterian, Catholic, UCC, and Quaker churches, read a ton of
books, and even become “born again,” but I felt as if I hadn’t
gotten any closer what I was looking for (and I wasn’t even sure what
that was).
When
I met John-Brian, who later became my husband, and learned he was
Orthodox, I didn’t really know what that meant. When he took me to a
service at one of the churches where we live, I was overwhelmed (as are
most Protestants their first time) by the incense, the candles, the
chanting, and the icons. I was intrigued, but I didn’t think that
Orthodoxy was “for me.” Frankly,
it seemed out of my grasp.
Meanwhile
I was explaining to my friends that the man I was dating wasn’t Jewish,
and didn’t belong to some new cult. I didn’t blame them for asking
questions. I was (and still am) more than a little suspicious of people
who are overtly religious, because I’ve learned from experience that
just because someone claims to be “religious” doesn’t mean they’re
good, nice, or honest! Unfortunately, it’s hard to trust the veracity of
a religion by the people who say they believe – although it would be
easier if this were the case.
A LONG JOURNEY
In
addition, I had a lot of questions about Christianity that had never been
answered. Was God really still so angry about Adam and Eve and an apple
that He was still sending
people to hell thousands of years later?
Were we really all born under the curse of Original Sin? Why did
God need the sacrifice of His son in order to forgive people? What about
people of other faiths? How could so many churches all claim to “Follow
the Bible” and yet be so different from each other? And could I believe
in scientific evidence that the earth and mankind had developed over
millions of years and still be a Christian?
It seemed to me that
liberal Christianity answered these questions by suggesting that Jesus was
a wonderful teacher but not much more than that, and that conservative
Christianity answered them by pointing out that we are sinners and should
not even be asking the questions at all! I was uncomfortable with both
approaches, so for a long time, I didn’t attend any church. I did not
find myself drawn to Unitarianism (too mushy, I thought) or to other
religions. I just gave up for a while.
My
journey to Orthodox Christianity took a while (it always does; Orthodoxy
does not supply black-and-white or simplistic answers and so it’s not
a religion that expects split-second conversion). I did a lot of
reading, especially The Orthodox Way by Bishop Kallistos Ware
(this book has probably resulted in more conversions to Orthodoxy than
any other book). Houston Smith explains in The Religions of Man,
“Eastern (Orthodoxy) considers the issues on which unanimity is needed
to be far fewer in number than does the Roman (Catholic) Church,” so
there is a range of opinion and expression within Orthodoxy (so there
are no “official Orthodox stances” on issues in science, politics,
etc.). I liked some of what I read, and disliked some of it, but I
definitely discovered a “different” Christianity than I’d known
before. At that point, I would say, it wasn’t so much that I chose the
faith, but that the faith chose me.
A GAME OF "PASSWORD"
I had long thought of
Christian theology as sort of a game of “Password,” where each person
whispers something to the next, and by the end (2000 years later) it
sounds completely different. Because every church seemed to have different
answers, I wanted to find out what early Christianity was like. Like a lot
of Protestants, I had thought that the Evangelical or “free” churches
represented a return to the earliest Christianity. In reality, their
theology and their manner of worship are relatively new (not that there is
anything wrong with it – many people find great sustenance in these
churches – but it isn’t how the earliest Christians worshipped).
The
first Christians worshipped liturgically, like the Jews (because for the
most part, they were Jews). They celebrated the sacraments, and
used incense and candles. Most importantly, they followed - and passed on
- oral tradition. The Bible as we know it did not exist until the Fourth
or Fifth Century, and even then, it was not widely available until the
printing press was invented. Therefore oral tradition was extremely
important to early Christians – just as important as the Bible is today.
The Orthodox Church still follows this oral tradition, and its priests are
ordained by a laying-on of hands that began with the Apostles. I had found
the original source of my game of “Password!”
I
found out that many of the issues that had bothered me were the result of
ideas that had developed after a few hundred years of the “game.” For
example, the Church had always believed mankind was fallen (imperfect),
but it wasn’t until the Fourth Century that Augustine developed the
dogma of “Original Sin,” or inherited guilt, that essentially
maintains that all people are damned from birth. I discovered that the
Orthodox believe that mankind does suffer due to sin, but that their
overall view of mankind and of God’s creation is still
positive. Once I learned this, other things started falling into place for
me.
I
had not been satisfied with a faith that focused on “getting saved.”
To me, a living Christian faith had to be about so much more than that. In
Orthodoxy, salvation is a journey, a lifelong process, rather than a
one-time event. While in this life, Orthodox believers don’t claim they
are already saved – but on the other side of the coin, they don’t
believe that they can say who is not saved. In other words, as many
Orthodox say, “We know where the Holy Spirit is, but not where it is
not.” As an Orthodox Christian, I accept that Jesus Christ is the savior
of all humanity, not just of those with a belief system just like my own.
I cannot say that people of other faiths cannot be saved, because God is
infinite. It is me who has limitations, not God.
Since
so many people have asked me, “Do Orthodox use the Bible?” I have to
answer, “Well, we wrote it!” The
Orthodox understand the Bible as the Word of God, but we base our
interpretations on the understanding of the Church (the collective and
mystical body of worshippers). We are comfortable with paradox and mystery
in a way many other faiths are not. For example, the Orthodox don’t
spend a lot of time debating between Creationism and Evolution because to
us, they don’t need to be mutually exclusive. The Bible is interpreted
historically, allegorically, and metaphysically. God is big enough.
A DEEPER FAITH
And
what about Jesus’ death on the Cross? What did it mean? In Orthodoxy I
discovered that to say simply that God had to sacrifice his son in order
to forgive mankind is an oversimplification. If we truly believe that
Christ was – and is – God (as it says in the Nicene Creed), then we
realize that it was God Himself who suffered on the Cross. And for
the Orthodox, that suffering isn’t so much a payment or an appeasement
(God would be appeasing God, if that were true), but rather an astounding
connection between humanity and divinity. Orthodox say that “God became
man so that man could become (like) God.”
Bishop
Ware says, “Hell is not a point in space but in the soul. It is the
place where God is not (and yet God is everywhere!) If Christ truly
‘descended into hell’ (as it says in the Creed), that means he
descended into the depths of the absence of God. Totally, unreservedly, he
identified himself with all man’s anguish and alienation. He assumed it
into himself, and by assuming it he healed it. There was no other way he
could heal it, except by making it his own…At the same time, we should
not say that Christ has suffered ‘instead of us,’ but rather than he
has suffered on our behalf. The Son off God suffered ‘unto
death,’ not that we might be exempt from suffering, but that our
suffering might be like his. Christ offers us, not a way round suffering,
but a way through it; not substitution, but saving
companionship.”
CHRIST IS RISEN!
As
I write this, we are preparing for the Great Fast. For six weeks, from now
until Easter, we Orthodox will eat neither meat nor dairy of any kind.
It’s a reminder that “Orthodoxy ain’t for wimps.”
When I was Methodist or Lutheran it was easy to forget it was Lent;
now, I remember every minute. But the Great Fast isn’t about legalism
– I could eat a cheeseburger if I wanted to (but I don’t want to). The
Great Fast, like everything else in Orthodoxy, is about ever growing
closer to God.
On Easter morning, just
after midnight after a week of long services, we will sing, “Christ is
Risen! He is risen indeed!” We
will be thankful for what God did on our behalf, and we’ll remember that
He defeated death for us. There will still be a place for bunny rabbits
and chocolate eggs, but our celebration will be about something deeper. It
will be about something deeper than just knowing that we’re saved, or
that we have the “right” faith and people of other faiths are
“wrong.” It will be
deeper than a church service that is enjoyable but doesn’t bear any
resemblance to the worship of antiquity. For us it will be about
connecting to the Source of all, the One who came so that we might live,
the One who gave us not only the words but the traditions, and the One who
showed us the Way.
©Teresa
Peneguy Paprock
2 March 2003
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