So Far Away

Written By: Jaden

Forum: Eye 2 Ur Fantasy's

Chapter 1

Sitting here at my computer desk looking at my idol, my inspiration, my everything. I just couldn't stop staring at him through the computer screen. He was so awesome and his lyrics just drove me to the point of tears. They reminded me so much of my life and what I've been though. His songs lift my soul and make me realize how fucked up our world is, but it also reminds me of me and my thoughts. His voice is so smooth and dark, something that very few singers have. His name is Aaron Lewis and he is the lead singer of Staind.

Standing around 5'10' with the most incredible grayish blue eyes I've ever seen and a voice that could melt your heart in an instant, this is who Aaron is. He hides from his fans in the shadows, but we are eternally in his thoughts and are thanked by him for listening to his music. I've been a fan of his for so many years, thanks to my ex, but that is a different story. Now as I sit here, looking at his picture, I realize that he is my one and only someone. I understand him and what he sings about. My thoughts were broken by the slamming of my front door.

"KYRENA!" My sister squealed, making me more confused than ever.

"What the HELL are ya doin' barging in my house like some damn maniac!" I asked her, my head still spinning from the new picture I found of Aaron.

"GIRL you will NOT believe who is going to be playing in town next week!" She shouted louder, making my heart start to race.

No it couldn't be! It just couldn't be!

"Who?" I asked, my voice barely above a whisper.

"STAIND!!" She screamed and my eyes bug out of my head.

"What?" I scream back, totally shocked and happy that my band was going to be in town.

"No shittin ya sis look." She said, shoving something in my face.

I look down and sure enough there were two front row tickets to the Staind concert and two backstage passes! I felt like fainting I was so shocked! I just looked at her with wide eyes, wondering who she was taking with her to this concert.

"Girl don't you dare think that I wouldn't take you with me!" She stated and the tears that threatened to fall started sliding down my cheeks as I realized I was about to see my man live and in person.

'Aaron here I come.' I thought as I took my ticket and backstage pass and went to post the news on my board.

Chapter 2

The night finally arrived and I was so nervous. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't think. Every thought in my mind was on Aaron. No matter what I did or said, nothing could get that man out of my mind! I finally decided that I needed to get ready, considering my sister would be there in about two hours to get me for the concert. I decided on wearing my Staind shirt, which I got on E-bay and on the back it said BREAK THE CYCLE TOUR. Even though I didn't go to any of those concerts I still bought it because it was Staind for Christ sakes! I twisted my long, mid back length, black hair up in a clip and applied some makeup, not a lot, just enough to accent my facial features. I wore my dark blue jeans and twisted my shirt into a knot, which showed off my naval ring I had gotten when I was 17.

I slipped on my black steel toed boots and grabbed my leather jacket when I heard my sister honking outside my apartment to move my ass. I looked one last time in the mirror, hoping satisfy Aaron with my look. I walked out of my apartment and got in the car with my sister, who berated me repeatedly for being late, but I didn't care. All my thoughts were on Aaron and how this night would be a night that I would never forget.

We arrived at the concert an hour later and I was so excited. My sister couldn't help but laugh at the way I was acting and when I heard her laughing I immediately stopped, not wanting to act like a child. My sister patted my hand lightly, letting me know that everything was going to be fine. I just stared out the window, hoping she was right about that.

Aaron was livid! His wife Vanessa just filed for divorce on him and threatened to take his daughter, who was on tour with him, away! No way was he about to let her do this to their family! He thought they were happy! Little Zoe Jane seen her dad upset and walked over to him, lifting his head with her small hand and looked deep in his eyes with her own mirror image eyes of his, seeing all the pain and hurt in them.

"Daddy, are you okay?" She asked, making Aaron lift her up in his arms, his heart breaking at the fact that her mother was being a bitch about this whole band thing.

She had always been on his side so what the hell went wrong? Aaron knew he could live without her, but he refused to live without his baby girl. Mike, the lead guitarist of the group, came over, seeing the tension on Aaron's face. He knew Vanessa was trying to take Zoe away from Aaron, which wouldn't happen. Aaron refused to let her do that to them.

"Hey man you ready?" Mike asked him.

"Ready as I'll ever be." Aaron replied, kissing his daughters forehead and walking out on the stage, not knowing that fate was about to lead him in a completely different direction.

Chapter 3

We finally found our seats, which were right in front to of the stage, and sat down, waiting for Staind to start. My heart was literally pounding in my ears, causing me to get a very bad headache. My sister seen this and took out two Advil's from her purse and handed them to me. I silently thanked her with my eyes as I downed them with my wine cooler I had gotten before we sat down in our seats. All of a sudden I heard the familiar drums and music of Staind and immediately locked eyes on Aaron as the curtain rose. I looked at him and immediately knew that the rumors on the net were true about his divorce with his wife Vanessa. I felt bad for him because he really did love her and all she wanted was his money. I wondered how Zoe was taking all of this or if she even knew. I decided to stay out of their business and closed my eyes, getting lost in his voice.

Aaron, Mike, Johnny, and Jon walked out on the stage to an ear-shattering ovation. They all waved to their fans and took their places as curtain rose. Aaron took his place at the microphone and started singing. He looked around the front row and immediately locked eyes with a raving beauty. She had just taken the clip out of her hair and let it spill down her back and she had the most gorgeous body he'd ever seen. Aaron continued singing, never taking his eyes off of her.

I just got lost in the music, loving his voice, especially in person. I never thought I would be seeing and listening to Staind live and in person. My sister nudged me, making my eyes slowly opened and I locked eyes with Aaron himself! I couldn't breathe or think, not even move as he smiled at me when the song ended. He whispered to Mike and told him to play a different song, which they didn't mind. Aaron then turned to the crowd and decided to say something.

"Even though I hide from you in the shadows, I never stop thinking about you. You are what make us who we are and for that I thank you. My next song is called Fill Me Up and it's from the new soundtrack called 14 Shades of Gray."

I just watched as he sang all the songs, my favorite being So Far Away. That song really hit home because it pin pointed exactly what my life was like when I was young and how I finally forgave myself as well as the people who hurt me. I just listened to the concert, never taking my eyes off of Aaron. Soon the concert was over with and it was time to go backstage. I kept taking deep breaths, trying not to pass out.

"Passes please." The guard demanded and we showed them to him.

He nodded his head and let us by, shocking me to say the least. I suddenly stopped, feeling as though we shouldn't be doing this. My sister looked at me and told me to come on.

"I can't do it sis. I can't." I said, starting to walk away when I heard that all too familiar voice of only one man.

"And why not?" He asked me as I stopped dead in my tracks and turned around, looking into his eyes, wishing I were somewhere else at that precise moment.

Chapter 4

I turned around and locked eyes with the man I had admired for so many years. My heart was thumping in and out of my chest and my breathing was ragged. I had to get control of this situation. I tried walking away, but I couldn't. My feel just wouldn't move. I seen Aaron coming closer and all I could think about was what's going to happen to me. I finally regained my voice by the time he reached me.

"I thought you wanted your privacy." I said, still looking into his eyes.

Aaron was sitting in his dressing room, trying to calm down and regain himself. He couldn't let his daughter see all the intensity in his eyes. Aaron took a couple of deep breaths, but then stopped when he heard someone outside his dressing room.

He heard some women voices and thought 'Oh no not this'.

Aaron was about to go out there and tell them no photos or anything when he seen who it was. It was the same girl that had her eyes on him all night and now she was walking away.

'Oh no you don't.' Aaron thought as he decided to make his presence known.

Aaron just stared at her, amazed at her generosity. He knew had had to get to know her better so he gently took her hand in his and guided her into his dressing room, closing the door behind him. I started moving and didn't realize where I was until I heard a door shut. I seen Aaron coming toward me and I just kind of freaked out. Tears slid down my cheeks as I realized my dream was finally coming true. Aaron sat down in his chair, never taking his eyes off of hers.

"So tell me something about yourself." Aaron stated, breaking the silence between us.

"What do you want to know." I asked, getting a little braver.

"Well for starters, I'd like to know your name." Aaron said with a small curve of his lips.

I thought I was going to faint right then and there.

"Kyrena Jameson." I said, looking down.

"Such a beautiful name for a woman such as yourself." Aaron stated soulfully.

"Thanks." I said, still not making eye contact.

"Look, don't be shy. I'm just a regular guy with a horrible past and I sing about it. You don't have to be nervous Kyrena." Aaron said, coming a little closer to me and sitting down right in front of me, taking my hands in his.

"I can't help it. I've been a big fan of yours since you guys first came out. Everything you sing about applies to my past and life." I said, looking into his eyes.

BIG MISTAKE! I totally melted as soon as I looked in his eyes. Aaron sensed that I was getting comfortable and decided to go in for the kill. He gently caressed my cheek and slowly leaned forward, wanting so bad to feel my lips on his, but we were interrupted by the knock on the door. Aaron looked at me.

"Please don't move. I shall return in a moment." He said and I just nodded, my head spinning out of control.

I couldn't believe that he actually wanted me to stay. I've loved him for so long and to think that he actually wanted to get to know me was amazing and somewhat frightening as far as I was concerned. My thoughts were broken by the little voice in the doorway. It was Zoe Jane.

Chapter 5

"Daddy who is that?" Her sweet little voice filled the room and it literally took my breath away.

She was a mirror image of her father. Beautiful grayish green eyes stared right back at me. I didn't know what color Aaron's hair was because he always left it bald, but if he did have hair it would be dark brown, just like his daughters. She was so precious, like a gem.

I decided to say something, hoping it was alright with Aaron.

"Hi sweetie I'm just a fan of your dad's. My name is Kyrena." I said, making her little eyes sparkle with amusement.

"My name is Zoe Jane." She said and held her little hand out for me to shake.

I thought it was the cutest thing I'd ever seen. I gently shook her hand and she smiled, looking at her dad. I took this as my cue to leave and stood up, confusing Aaron.

"Well it was finally nice meeting my favorite singer, but I think its time for me to go." I said, trying not to sound disappointed.

"Actually I was thinking of taking my daughter out for dinner. Would you join us? I'd like to talk to you more." Aaron asked me, making my heart thump in my chest harder.

"I don't know." I hesitated, not wanting to give Zoe the wrong impression.

"Please come with us Kyrena." Zoe pleaded, wanting to spend more time with this woman.

I mean it's not that I don't want to it's just that..." I trailed off, not able to find the right words.

"Please?" Zoe asked, sticking her cute lip out and pretending to pout.

I thought she was the cutest little girl I'd ever seen in my life. One look in her big, beautiful eyes and I just melted. I couldn't say no to her so I just nodded my head, making Aaron slightly smile and Zoe jump up and down.

"Fine I'll go if it's okay with your dad."

"It's more than fine Kyrena." Aaron stated, making every word he said.

Lord what had I gotten myself into?

Chapter 6

Before we left to go to dinner I had to let my sister know where I was going. I tried finding her, but it turned out that she had a fling with Mike so they left earlier on. I couldn't help but laugh at my sister's antics, but then I realized that I had no way of getting home! I started thinking about how many different ways I wanted to kill my sister when I felt someone's hand on my shoulder. I literally jumped out of my skin when I seen it was Aaron.

"Sorry didn't mean to scare you. Are you ready to go?" He asked and I reluctantly nodded, hoping I was doing the right thing.

Zoe came around her dad's leg and looked up at me with those gorgeous eyes and waved her finger at me to kneel to her height. I did and she said something that totally shocked me.

"Take care of him. He's been through a lot."

I just stared at the little girl as she walked over to Jon, the drummer of the band, who winked at Aaron and carried Zoe away. Suddenly I realized what was happening and I knew I couldn't stay or go out with Aaron. Aaron saw the alarmed look on my face and gently stood in front of me. He lifted my chin ever so slightly and then pressed his lips to mine in a soft kiss.

"Don't be afraid of me Kyrena. I only to make you feel special, cherished, alive." Aaron whispered in my ear, sending shivers down my spine.

"Aaron what about..." I started asking him, but he gently pressed his finger to my lips.

"There is no one in my life right now. I don't know what is happening between us, but I can feel a strong connection to you. I only want one night with you. Will you give me that?" Aaron asked, staring in my eyes.

How the hell could I say no to this man?

"Yes." I replied, making him slightly smile and took my hand in his, walking out to his car and driving to a destination unknown to me.

The whole ride Aaron held my hand, worried that if he let go I would disappear. Something was happening to him, something he never knew could happen and it was a feeling he was not about to ignore.

Chapter 7 *Smut Warning!*

Aaron took us to some far away destination outside of town, which I didn't care. Hell the man could do whatever he wanted to me, as long as it made him happy. I sighed, knowing the girls on my site would never believe this was happening to me. Suddenly the car stopped and Aaron got out, feeling the ground out. I looked around, realizing we were in a cemetery. Aaron nodded his head approvingly and got back in, driving even further into the cemetery, making my eyes widen with wonder. He finally stopped the car and killed the ignition. I looked over at him and locked eyes with his as he leaned over and brushed his lips to mine. He then got out and opened my door for me, taking my hand in his and shutting the door. Suddenly Aaron pulled me in his arms roughly and gave me the most passionate, soul-searing kiss I'd ever experienced in my life. Good Lord this man could kiss! I moaned as I opened my mouth for him, feeling his tongue plunder my mouth. Our tongues dueled, our hearts beating as one. I was in total haven with this man. He was so strong, quiet, and screamed sexuality. When Aaron broke the kiss he looked in my eyes, seeing all the passion and desire coursing through them. He took my hand and we walked farther into the cemetery until we came to a stop. I gasped at what I saw. There was a beautiful water fountain and it was sparkling in the moonlight. Suddenly I realized we weren't in the cemetery any more. We were deep in the dark forest that was attached to the cemetery. Aaron kissed me again, this time deeper and more passionate as he gently guided me on the grass, never breaking the kiss. When he broke the kiss, my mind was in a spiral of emotions and my breathing was ragged. Aaron smirked, loving the effect he was having on me. He got on top of me, gently capturing my hands and putting them above my head as we entwined our fingers together. He then started pulling his shirt off, exposing that wonderful chest I dreamt of touching. It was rock hard. I wanted so bad to rake my fingernails down it, but he had both my hands captured in one of his above my head. Aaron then took my shirt off, freeing my hands for just a second until I heard him ask me something.

"Kyrena, I want you to keep both of your hands on top of your head okay?"

I just nodded as Aaron picked my body up easily and unsnapped my bra, making it drop to the floor.

"Absolutely breathtaking." Aaron said, kissing my throat, neck, and then traveled further down to kiss in between my breasts.

My whole body was on fire for him and I was getting sick of this slow shit, but I was going to let him do with me as he wished. I just laid there in the grass, not believing I was actually with him in this way. I moaned his name when he started nibbling and sucking on each of my nipples, making them hard as rocks. When he felt he tormented me enough he moved down further, not leaving one speck of skin untouched. His hands were so rough, yet gentle and it was driving me insane. Aaron moved lower and lower, leaving a trail of hot fiery kisses in his path. He gently hooked both thumbs in my pants and pulled them down my legs, kissing up one and then down the other. He was a wonderful lover, no doubt about that. Then Aaron stared in my eyes as he pulled my panties off, wanting to see how far I wanted to go. Once those were off, he got on his stomach and positioned himself at my dripping wetness, making me scream out his name. Aaron started moving in and out of me, making me insane with pleasure. I couldn't take anymore and started running my hands over his bald head, which he didn't mind and spilled my juices deep inside his mouth. Aaron greedily drank every last drop and then sucked on my bud, making me squirm under his touch.

"Kyrena do you want me to stop here or do you want me to continue?" Aaron asked me and

I suddenly felt guilty.

The man was married for Christ sakes, but one look in his eyes and I knew he wanted to make love to me so I just closed my eyes and nodded my head no.

"I want you to continue Aaron." I replied, making him smile slightly.

He completely undressed in front of me and my eyes widened when I seen the size of him.

He was HUGE! Aaron positioned himself between my legs and plunged his manhood deep inside of me, making me scream out in absolute pleasure. He started thrusting like a Wildman, not wanting to take this slow. I raked my fingernails down his back, encouraging him to go faster. Aaron growled as he pushed my legs apart even further and slammed into me even harder, hitting my G spot and that was pretty much my undoing as I felt my walls tighten around his shaft, making Aaron growl out his release as he spilled his seed deep inside of me. It was the most exquisite feeling I'd ever experienced in my life. Aaron collapsed on top of me, totally spent and tired from our fuck session. It was supposed to be a make love session, but who am I kidding? It was straight out fucking and I loved every minute of it.

As soon as our breathing returned to normal, we both dressed, neither speaking to each other. Aaron drove me home, not saying a word to me, which I could understand. I didn't dare say anything back to him and pretty soon we arrived at my house. I started getting out when Aaron pulled me in for a deep kiss. I broke it and smiled, caressing his face and silently thanked him for one night I'd never forget. He nodded and I got out, shutting the door and walked up to my apartment building. Once Aaron was sure she was in safely, he drove away, wondering if he really was making a mistake by letting me go.

Chapter 8

It's been a year since I last seen Aaron and my heart ached everyday that he was gone. I knew that it was a one time thing with him, but it still hurt. I missed and ached for him every day and night and was a complete bitch to everyone who was around me. My sister even stopped coming around me when she seen my new change of attitude. I started writing more severe and deadly stories, making the sisters on my board more confused and concerned than ever.

I was sitting in my apartment watching TV one night when they had a special music report on MTV and it was about Aaron. I was shocked to find out that Aaron had indeed divorced his wife Vanessa and had full custody of little Zoe Jane. I was secretly cheering inside, but then quickly passed that by. I knew Aaron would never come back to me and that thought just burned me up completely inside. I loved that man more than my own being, my own life, everything. I was so deep in thought that I didn't even hear my cell ring, until it vibrated against my hip. I picked it up and answered, completely stunned as to who was on the other line.

"Hello." I said lifelessly, not wanting to talk to anyone that night.

"Is this Kyrena Jameson?" Came the little sweet voice on the other line.

"Yes it is and who may I ask is calling?" I asked, my heart racing faster and faster.

"Kyrena its me Zoe Jane. Listen could you come pick me up at the Hill berry Hotel? My daddy is gone and I'm scared." She asked, fright evident in her voice.

"I'll be right there sweetie just stay on the line okay?" I said, frantic about the little girl's safety.

"Well I have to go get my things ready. I'm in room 253. Please hurry Kyrena." Zoe said, hanging up the phone and laughing.

"What did she say?" Aaron asked his daughter.

"She said she's on her way daddy." Zoe said, her little eyes sparkling.

"Excellent." Aaron stated, kissing his daughter's forehead and staring out the window.

It had been so long since Aaron had last seen Kyrena and he missed her so much. His divorce was nasty and the custody was even more brutal and he didn't want to drag Kyrena in all of his problems. That's why he didn't make contact with her for a whole year. Now that all of those problems were behind him, Aaron was determined to make Kyrena his once and for all. He only hoped she still felt the same way about him.

Chapter 9

I quickly got dressed and put my steel toed boots on, just in case I had to kick some ass. I grabbed my car keys, cell phone, and leather jacket and ran out the door, not even realizing what was going on. All I cared about was that little girl and Aaron and was determined to save her. I only wondered where Aaron had gone too. I arrived at the hotel and quickly parked, literally sprinting to the front desk. The woman looked at me like I was nuts, but I didn't care. I had to get to Zoe and fast.

"Hello my name is Kyrena Jameson and I'm here to see Zoe Jane Lewis." I stated, making the woman smile sweetly.

"Of course Ms. Jameson. Zoe told me about you. Here's the key and she's in room 253." The woman said, handing me the key.

"Thank you." I said and quickly went to the elevator.

Once the elevator had stopped and dinged, signaling my arrival to her floor, I sprinted down the hallway, desperately trying to find Zoe's room number. I finally found it and opened the door, seeing all the lights were off.

"Zoe?" I called, fear in my voice.

When she didn't answer me, I began to panic and quickly dialed 911 and put it to my ear, but it wouldn't work. My cell phone was dead! I started walking around, trying to find my way through the darkness and kept calling her name. When I reached the bedroom and tried turning on the light, nothing worked either! I walked further in the room and quieted down, knowing I heard something. I quickly went to the bathroom and tried turning that light on, but it wouldn't work! Nothing worked and it was pitch black. I was starting to get really scared now and was about to run out of there when a pair of lips attached to my neck and I felt arms wrap around my waste. I tried to fight off this man, but it was no use. He was just to damn strong.

"Please let me go." I said, my lip quivering with fear.

"I don't think you want to leave now do you?" He asked me and I closed my eyes, realizing who it was.

Chapter 10

I immediately broke his embrace and turned around, looking into those amazing grayish blue eyes through the darkness and realized that this was all a plan! I folded my arms across my chest, making Aaron chuckle at me as he turned the lights on and there he was in all his glory. He hadn't changed a bit. Tight black jeans hugged his waste perfectly and he was bare-chested! Zoe Jane then peaked out from her dad's leg and smiled innocently at me, making me smiled at her. She smiled and ran into my arms as I squatted down, squeezing the life out of her. She had gotten so big since the last time I saw her. I stroked her hair, hearing her soft sniffles and I could feel her tears wetting my shirt, which really confused me. I broke the embrace and looked into her eyes, seeing all the happiness in her.

"Sweetie why are you crying?" I asked, tearing up myself.

"Because I missed you so much and so did my daddy." She replied, making me look up at Aaron, who had a tear sliding down his cheek.

I kissed the top of Zoe's head and walked over to Aaron, wrapping my arms around his neck and hugged him. Aaron wrapped his arms around my waste, lifting me up to be eye level with him.

"She's right you know. I missed you so much. That night we spent together changed my feelings about you. Kyrena I love you and I want you in my life forever." Aaron said as he passionately kissed me, making my mind reel and my heart race.

"You were so far away from me, but now you're here and I'm never letting you go again. Will you marry me?" Aaron asked, getting down on one knee, shocking the life out of me.

I looked at Zoe, who was looking at her dad knowingly and I knew what I had to do. I loved Aaron with all my heart and if he wanted me as his than I wasn't going to stop him.

Tears slid down my cheeks as I nodded my head yes, making Aaron smile and swing me in the air, passionately kissing me and sliding the diamond ring on my finger. I picked up Zoe, and let her join in our happiness, knowing that I'd finally found my family. They were so far away, but yet so very close to me and I didn't even know it.

The End!