Every Rose That I Get

(Sequel to Every Rose That I Give)

Written By: Kelly aka Princess

Forum: Insane Asylum, Undiscovered Souls

Chapter 1

It had been two weeks since I sent Brett away. I still hadn’t heard from him. I knew that if given the time he would realize that he doesn’t love me. It didn’t make me feel any better, but at least I knew the truth now. I couldn’t wait, I had been to the doctor today and she said everything was moving along nicely and would expect the new addition in about a week or so. The baby had dropped and was making my back hurt. I couldn’t wait for this little guy to come into the world. I had already chosen a name for him. I decided to name him Brett after his father. Kristine and Heather had been helping me a lot through the last couple of weeks. They thought I was crazy for pushing Brett away, but they also understood why I did it. I had asked them to keep Brett updated on everything with the baby, I didn’t want to talk to him until he decided.

----Heather’s House----

Heather asks while on the phone, “Do you think it will work?”

Voice on other end, “I sure hope so. I hate knowing that she is so unhappy. I just hope she will go through with it.”

Heather says, “I think she will. This is what she wants. She may be stubborn but she will come to her senses.”

She talks to the person for a few more minutes finalizing some details then hangs up.

Heather says to herself, “I can’t wait to see how she reacts to this.”

----California----

Brett walks into the living room and sees Bobby, Ricki and CC sitting there.

CC asks, “So, is everything all set?”

Brett says, “Yeah, everything is in motion. You guys ready to do this?”

Ricki replies, “Yeah, lets do it.”

They head out the door to the limo to take them to the airport.

----My House----

I had just gotten up from a nap when I hear knocking at my door. I get up and head down to answer it. I open it and see Kristine and Heather on the other side.

I say, “Hey guys. Come on in.”

They come in and we head to the living room. We sit down and start talking. After a few hours of talking and watching movies we decide to order some dinner. Kristine goes into the kitchen and orders dinner, or so I thought. Some time goes by and there’s a knock at my door. I go to answer it again, opening it and almost faint on the spot at what I see.

Chapter 2

I just stare and don’t say anything.

The person says, “What, aren’t you happy to see me?”

I reply, “Well, I wasn’t expecting you. What are you doing here?”

They say, “I’ve come to talk to you.”

I say, “Well, from the looks of things it seems like more than just talking that you want to do.”

They say, “Well, yeah. I was hoping to do more than just talk. But first things first we really do need to talk. Can we come in?”

I reply, “Sure, come on in.”

I watch as they enter and go upstairs. I follow them upstairs and stand there at the top of the stairs just looking at them. Wondering what the hell they are thinking. I look at Kristine and Heather and see them smiling at them.

I say, “Okay, would someone mind telling me what the hell is going on. Why are all of you here?”

I look around the room waiting for an answer. I look at everyone in the room. It’s then I notice someone that I don’t recognize.

I ask, “Who is that? I don’t recognize him.”

Kristine says, “He is here to take care of something.”

I ask, “Take care of what? What are they all doing here?”

Kristine looks to the others and says, “Would you care to answer that one.”

I look to the others and say, “Yes, please let me know what all of you are doing here?”

At that point Brett walks up to me and says, “We are here to take care of a situation that has gone on for too long.”

I say, “Brett, I told you how I felt. I also told you not to contact me until you knew for sure how you felt. What does this person need to be here for? He doesn’t know the situation, how can he help.”

Brett answers, “Yes, I know what you told me. What I have been doing the last couple of weeks has been planning this. I came here to tell you that I absolutely love you and never want to be without you again.” He gets down on one knee in front of me, takes out the ring and takes hold of my hand. He asks, “Kelly, will you marry me? Make me the happiest man on the planet, hell in the whole universe.”

I look at him as tears start to fall down my cheeks. I reply, “Yes, Brett I’ll marry you.”

He slips the ring on my finger, stands up and grabs me and kisses me passionately. We here a cough behind us and look to the others, they all have huge smiles.

Kristine says, “Okay, now that that is taken care of, can we get the rest of this taken care of?”

I reply, “Oh yeah, the other person. Is he your lawyer or something? You want me to sign a prenup; I have no problem doing that. Just tell me where to sign.”

Brett says, “No babe, he isn’t my lawyer. I don’t want you to sign a prenup it isn’t necessary. This man is here to take care of something else.”

I ask, “Okay, what is he here for?”

Brett says, “He’s a minister, he’s here to marry us right here right now. I want to marry you tonight. I don’t want to wait any longer. We have everyone here that needs to be here. Afterwards we can have the big one if you want to, but right now I want to make you my wife.”

I look to Brett and can see that he is serious. I look at everyone else and see that they are all up for this.

I look at Brett with a huge smile and say, “Okay, let’s do it. Let’s get married right now.”

Chapter 3

It was a very simple ceremony that was done right in my living room. When the minister announced us husband and wife I couldn’t have been happier. When he kissed me I was able to feel it from head to toe. We celebrated quietly as to not wake the girls. Later as everyone was leaving I noticed Bobby, Ricki, Heather and Kristine all leaving together.

I turn to Brett and say, “What’s with them. Did I miss something?”

Brett replies, “Well, when Kristine would call she would talk to Ricki sometimes. I think they like each other. As for the other two, maybe they’ll hook up to. Why not, we did right?”

I say, “Yeah, we did and I couldn’t be happier right now.”

Brett says, “Well, Mrs. Michaels, what do you say about going to bed and consummating our marriage all night long. I can’t wait to officially make you my wife in more ways than one.”

I reply, “I would love to. There’s just one thing though and I hope you don’t get angry or upset by it.”

Brett says, “How could I get angry with you. You just made me the happiest man in the universe.”

I say, “Well, it’s about my name.”

Brett looks at me confused and says, “Well, your name is my name.”

I say, “Yes, but I don’t want to drop my maiden name. For legal reasons I would like to have both my name and yours. What I mean by legal reasons I mean my kids. I can’t drop my name because my kids have both my married and maiden name. Spent a lot of time and money to get that done. My lawyer even asked me if I was ever to get married again if I was going to keep my maiden name. Please don’t be mad. You popped this on me so suddenly I would have preferred to talk to you about it before we got married. I’m sorry Brett if I upset you.”

Brett replies, “Hey baby, I’m not mad or upset. I understand and it doesn’t bother me. As long as my name is there, that’s all I care about. Hell, my name doesn’t even have to be there. I’m just happy that you’re my wife. Now, how about we go and make it official.”

He kisses me passionately while picking me up to carry me into the bedroom.

I say, “Brett, I’m too heavy for you to carry. I don’t want you to hurt yourself.”

Brett replies, “You won’t hurt me baby. You aren’t that heavy, even being pregnant. You know what?”

I ask, “What?”

Brett says, “I’m so glad I will be here for the birth of our son.”

He carries me into the bedroom and lays me down gently. He leans down and kisses me passionately while running his hands up and down my body. Moving his hands over the bulge of my stomach. He smiles at me and moves down to kiss my swollen belly.

He says, “You know, this little guy is going to make an appearance soon. We need to think of some names.”

I reply, “I’ve already thought of a name. I hope you like it.”

He says, “I’m sure I’ll like it. I just hope it goes with the last name Michaels.”

I giggle and say, “Oh I don’t think that will be a problem honey.”

Brett asks, “Okay, so what’s the name you came up with?”

I reply, “Well, I want to name him after you. Brett Michaels Jr.”

He asks, “Are you sure? He doesn’t have to have my first name.”

I say, “I want him to have your name.”

He looks down at me and smiles before kissing me passionately.

Chapter 4

****SMUT WARNING****

Brett slowly and methodically starts removing my shirt and shorts so I’m left wearing my panties and bra. I start to cover myself up when he pulls my hands away.

Brett says, “Don’t cover up baby. I love you and I love our son that you are carrying. Looking at your body right now just makes me love you even more. Please don’t hide from me baby.”

I let my hands go to his head and pull him down for a kiss. As we are kissing he removes my bra and panties. He slowly moves his hand down my face, to my neck and finally to my breasts. He starts massaging one of my breasts tweaking my nipples with his fingers rolling them around. He follows his hand with his mouth. Licking his way down to my breasts. He takes one of my nipples into his mouth licking the tip with his tongue. Being that I was pregnant my breasts were extremely sensitive as was the rest of my body. So everything was intensified. I saw him smirk at my very obvious arousal to his ministrations.

I say, “Oh, you like that don’t you.”

Brett replies, “Oh yeah. I loved how you responded before you were pregnant. But it’s amplified now because of it. I want to make you cum so many times baby that you won’t know your own name.”

What he was doing to my breasts along with the dirty talk was driving me insane. I run my hands down his chest to the bottom of his shirt. I lift it up and off him before he swoops down and kisses me. I rake my fingernails over his back and feel him arch up. I can feel the bulge in his pants taunting me to let it loose. I reach around the front of him and unbutton and unzip his pants. I slide my hand inside and quickly find his erect cock. I swipe the tip with my fingertip and make him jump. I slide his pants down off his waist and wrap my hand around his erection slowly stroking it. I can hear him starting to moan. He moves his mouth down my body slowly. Kissing my belly as he moves down. I feel his tongue just barely touch my clit and I jump at the sensation. He puts his hands under my thighs to lift me up a little and dives into my clit with his mouth. He continues to fuck me with his tongue while using his fingers to rub my bundle of nerves. Before I know it I’m having the most intense orgasm I have ever had. He drinks me dry until my body calms down. When my body calms down he works his way up my body and kissing me passionately. Tasting myself on his tongue turns me on even more.

I say, “Brett, please make love to me. I need you inside me so bad it hurts. I want you to love me like no other man has.”

He replies, “Baby, I do love you like no one ever has. It would be my pleasure to make love to you, my wife.”

He removes his pants the rest of the way and hovers over me. He slides in a little and I arch up to push him in more. He stops and waits for me to relax before he enters me more. He starts thrusting slowly savoring every second of being inside of me. Every time I try to get him to go faster he stops. Then he continues slowly driving me insane. Finally he starts thrusting faster and harder.

He asks, “I’m not hurting you am I?”

I reply in gasps, “No, you aren’t hurting me. Damn you feel so good inside me. Harder Brett, please.”

He starts thrusting harder and faster. I can feel my orgasm starting to build. He thrusts hard and deep where I can feel him in my stomach. My orgasm hits and my walls clamp down on him. I hear him moaning and let out a shout when he cums inside of me. He thrusts a few more times before stopping to let our bodies calm down. He lays down next to me and pulls me into his arms.

Brett says, “I love you babe.”

I reply, “I love you too.”

We fall asleep in each other’s arms.

----The next morning----

I wake up and feel Brett lying next to me. I smile when I recall what we did last night. I couldn’t believe I was married and to Brett Michaels of all people. I couldn’t have been happier. Some people may think I was crazy to do it, but I was not about to say no. I hear a knock at my door and wonder who it could be. I slowly get up and put my robe on. I look at Brett before exiting the room to answer the door. I get to the door and open it. It’s my mom.

I ask, “Hey mom, what are you doing here?”

She says, “I came by to see how you were doing. How are you feeling?”

I say, “I feel fine. Ummm….could you come back later or something. I just woke up and I have to get the kids breakfast.”

She says, “No I can’t actually. I’ll help you with breakfast. You need to relax and rest. So tell me, have you heard from the father?”

I reply, “Mom, just drop it okay. I’m not going to tell you who the father is. It’s none of your business until I tell you who it is. I just don’t feel like getting into it right now.”

She says, “Well, it is my business. When someone knocks up my daughter and then doesn’t even have the decency to be here for the birth.”

A voice says, “Oh I plan on being there for the birth and for every other thing that happens in that childs life.”

My mother looks and sees Brett standing there and says, “Who are you?”

He replies, “Well, obviously I’m the father of the baby. I’m also her husband.”

My mother shouts, “You’re her what?”

Chapter 5

Brett repeats, “I’m her husband.”

My mother says, “When did that happen? Why didn’t you tell me?”

I reply, “Mom, it was literally very sudden. He came by last night with everything set and we got married last night. Right here in the living room actually. It was very simple with only a few people here as witnesses.”

My mom says, “And you didn’t feel the need to let me and your father know about this?”

I say, “Like I said it was sudden. This isn’t exactly how I wanted you to find out. There’s nothing that can be done about that now anyway.”

My mom says, “Well, I expect to talk to you later about this. I have to go.”

My mother walks out and I can tell how upset and angry she is.

I walk to the window and watch my mother leave. I didn’t want them to find out this way. I wanted to go over there and explain exactly what had happened and how it happened from the beginning. I feel Brett behind me and he wraps his arms around me.

Brett says, “I’m sorry babe. I should have stayed in the bedroom. I just didn’t like what she was implying.”

I reply, “It’s not your fault Brett. It’s my fault it’s always my fault. Don’t worry about it, I will deal with my parents.”

Brett corrects me, “We will take care of it babe. We are married, so whatever you deal with I deal with. Come on, I’ll help you with breakfast.”

We cook breakfast and eat. I explain to the girls about marrying Brett. They seem excited with the fact that they will have a father.

One of my daughters says, “Is he our daddy now?”

I explain, “No sweetie, he’s not your daddy. He would actually be called your stepfather. Which means he is a father to you but not your actual father. I know it’s hard to understand.”

We finish breakfast in silence. I get dressed and ready to go over to my mom’s house.

Brett asks, “Where you going babe?”

I reply, “I’m going over to my moms house. I need to do this today. If I know my mother she already told my father about this. I wouldn’t be surprised if he is at her house already waiting for me.”

Brett says, “Well, then let’s go.”

I reply, “Brett you don’t have to come with me.”

Brett says, “I told you, we go through this together. Let’s get the kids ready and go. I want to spend the rest of the day with my new wife and my new stepchildren.”

I smile up at him and get the kids ready. We head over to my moms house and I see my dad’s car there.

I mutter, “Shit.”

Brett asks, “What is it babe?”

I reply, “My dad is here just as I though he would be.”

Brett says, “Well, then that kills two birds with one stone then. We talk to both at the same time.”

I say, “Okay, let’s go. This isn’t going to be easy Brett I’m letting you know now. This will actually be easier than my brothers. Actually one of my brothers, but that’s a story for another time. Okay, let’s go in I know they are waiting.”

We head to the door and I open it. I see my parents on the couch talking. My mother and father look up as I walk in with Brett and the kids.

My father looks at me and says, “Well, if it isn’t my newly married daughter. What the hell is the matter with you?”

Chapter 6

I say, “Dad calm down. I’ll explain everything.”

We sit down and I explain everything that happened from the moment at the concert to last night. My parents were a bit shocked seeing as I never mentioned anything to them. They admitted that it would take a little time to get used to the idea of me being married for a second time. Once everything was settled my dad pulled me aside to talk to me for a few minutes. After we were done talking I gathered up the kids and left with Brett. We got back to my place and settled down to relax for a little while. That took a lot out of me and I needed some rest.

I say, “Brett, I’m going to go lie down for a little bit. Will you be okay with the kids?”

Brett replies, “Go ahead honey, we’ll be fine won’t we girls.”

The girls say, “Yeah, go ahead mommy go rest. We’ll be fine.”

I smile as I leave the room looking at them as they relax on the couch. I go into my room and lay down. A little while later I get up and just lay there thinking. I still couldn’t believe I was married, and for a second time. I hear Brett come in and I open my eyes and look at him and smile.

He says, “Hey babe, how you feeling?”

I reply, “I’m feeling okay. I’m still kind of tired and my back is hurting a little.”

Brett says, “Roll onto your side and I’ll rub your back a little.”

I roll onto my side and he starts rubbing my back. After a little while I start feeling little twinges in my abdomen. I don’t pay them any mind thinking it’s just my body relaxing. I start feeling the twinges again and they are getting stronger.

I say, “Brett honey, can you do me a favor and call my mom to come over here to watch the kids. We need to go somewhere tonight.”

Brett smiles and says, “Sure honey, but where are we going to go.”

I reply, “Well, I don’t want you to panic but I think it’s time to go to the hospital. I’m not sure especially being that I never went into labor with my other kids.”

Brett smiles and says, “Okay honey, stay here I’ll be right back.”

Brett goes and calls my mom and then comes back in to get me ready to go to the hospital. As soon as my mom gets there we head to the hospital. By the time we get there my contractions start up and get quicker. My water had broken so it was just a matter of time.

----The next morning----

I wake up to see Brett sitting in the chair next to my bed with our son in his arms. He is talking to him softly that I can’t hear him. I look at them and can’t help but smile.

I say, “How are my boys doing?”

Brett turns to me and says, “We are doing great. Oh baby, he is a gorgeous baby.”

I reply, “Of course he is, he has you for a father. He’s okay though. The doctor said everything is okay?”

Brett says, “Yeah, he said everything is absolutely perfect with our little guy here.”

Brett gets up and sits on the edge of the bed with the baby. We look like the happy family and I savor the time we have right then and there. I know we have to decide still where we are going to live, but I also knew that he had to leave soon. I also knew that he didn’t want to leave without me and our new family.

Brett looks at me, kisses me softly on the lips and says, “I love you baby.”

I look into Brett’s eyes and say, “I love you too.”

Chapter 7

----One Year Later----

Things had been going well between Brett and me for the first 6 months or so. We had stayed in NY for the summer and were in California for the fall and winter. I started to notice a bit of something in how Brett was acting. Of course me being a suspicious type of person, I thought that he was unhappy with our marriage and me. So because I had noticed a change in him I had started to distance myself from him emotionally and physically. Yeah we still had sex, that’s what I thought it was at this time, but it was lacking something. Wasn’t sure if it was him or me, was a bit afraid to find out. Having had one failed marriage I was not looking forward to another one. I had made a decision that I had to tell Brett about. He was due home in a few hours that is if he didn’t go out with the guys. That was another thing I had noticed. I didn’t mind him going out with the guys, but he went out every night and left me home alone to take care of the kids, including his daughter. I had mentioned it a few times, but then said that was what a nanny was for. If he wanted his daughter raised by a nanny that was fine, but I refused to let my daughters and son be raised by one. But that didn’t mean that he couldn’t be home sometimes to say goodnight to them. Now I was starting to understand the life that I had chosen for my kids and me.

A few hours later Brett walked in the door, evident that he had been out with the guys. I just rolled my eyes when I looked at him and turned to go into the kitchen. I notice him following me. He comes up behind me and wraps his arms around me.

He says, “Hey baby.”

I reply, “Hello. Your dinner is waiting for you.”

He says, “Thanks babe, don’t know what I would do without you.”

I bit my tongue to keep from responding knowing that it would be anger speaking. I say, “We need to talk about something Brett.”

He asks, “What about? Something wrong? You seem a bit upset. Actually you have been that way for a while now.”

I say, “Me and the kids are going to NY. My daughters and son are leaving with me tomorrow. Raine will stay here with her nanny.”

He asks, “Why? We just got back from NY a little over a month ago. Did something happen back home that you need to go. You can leave the kids here; the nanny will take care of them.”

I reply, “No nothing happened back home. I’ve told you I don’t want a nanny raising my kids so even if there were something wrong back home I would still take them with me. No, I just need to get away for a little while.”

He turns to me and looks at me, “You need to get away. Are you pregnant again?” Remembering the last time I told him I needed time.

I look at him and say, “Brett, we haven’t had sex enough in the last month for me to even think I might be pregnant.”

He didn’t notice that I had said sex and replies, “Then why do you need to get away. I thought you liked it out here.”

I say, “Yeah I do. But if I wanted to be out here by myself then I would have moved here myself years ago. I wouldn’t have had to get married to come out here and be alone.”

He says, “You aren’t alone. I’m here with you.”

I reply, “Hardly. You are out every night doing who knows what. You haven’t seemed yourself for the last few months Brett. Truth be known, I need to get away from you for a little while. If I had known what this kind of life was going to be like I never would have married you. I didn’t marry you and move out here to be alone and have you distancing yourself from me. I had one failed marriage I don’t want another one. That’s why I’m doing this. It may make it worse, but I’m hoping it will make you realize what it is you are going to lose if you don’t open your eyes.”

Brett says, “Is this what this is about, me going out? What the hell is the problem with me going out once in a while?"

I scream, “Once in a while. You are out every fucking night. I’m raising your son by myself. If I’m going to end up raising him by myself I may as well do it back in NY where I can at least work. I can’t work out here they treat me like trash. No one will give me a job. So tomorrow I’m going back to NY and to my old job. I already spoke to my old boss and she’s willing to take me back.”

Brett says, “So this is obviously something you have thought of for a while now. Why didn’t you say something sooner? We can work this out baby. I don’t want you to leave I love you. Please don’t leave.”

I reply, “I have to Brett, at least for a little while. You are busy with the band and having fun. I can’t live that kind of life, you knew before you married me that I wasn’t that type of person. I have to go pack mine and the kid’s stuff. Don’t worry; I’m not taking any of the stuff you have bought me since we’ve been out here.”

Brett says, “I’m not worried about that. You can take whatever you want, but I still don’t want you to go. I’ll miss you.”

I reply, “Unfortunately Brett, I don’t think you will miss me. You hardly notice me now as it is.”

I go upstairs to pack things for the trip, not aware of the shock on Brett’s face at what I just said to him. Realization finally hitting him.

----One week later----

I had been back in NY for almost a week now. When I left California I only took what I had taken with me when I moved out there. I left everything else including the credit cards Brett had given me. I didn’t want his money even though he told me to take them with me. I had settled us in the co-op and had a pretty good routine going. I had gone back to work at night. When I spoke to my boss she was more than happy to work with me on the hours I could work. Being that I had a baby I was home during the day and worked at night. I had some money saved so I had a babysitter at night. I didn’t even let my parents know I was back in NY yet. I knew what they would say and I didn’t want to hear it.

The phone interrupted my thoughts. I looked at the caller ID and saw that it was California. I wasn’t sure if I wanted to speak to Brett yet, but figured he was probably calling to check on his son.

I picked up the phone and said, “Hello.”

Brett says, “Hey sweetie. Just called to see how you were doing?”

I reply, “I’m doing fine. How are you doing?”

He replies, “I’m doing ok. Missing you though. Are you doing okay with money? I noticed you left your credit cards here.”

I answer, “Yeah, I’m fine with money. I went back to work.”

He says, “Why did you do that. You know I will support you and the kids. You don’t have to work.”

I say, “Yes I do. I’m working at night so I can be with the kids during the day. I have a sitter watching them while I’m at work.”

He asks, “I thought you didn’t want someone else raising the kids?”

I reply, “Having a babysitter a few nights a week is a lot different than having a nanny watch them and do things for them all the time. You know that.”

He says, “Yeah, I understand. Listen babe, I really want you to come home. I miss you. It just isn’t the same without you here.”

I ask, “How would you know what it was like when I was there. You were hardly there when I was.”

He replies, “Despite what you think, I always loved coming home to you and the kids. I know I haven’t exactly been very attentive lately and I’m sorry about that. I know I’ve been out a lot with the guys, I’m sorry for that too.”

I say, “I don’t want you to be sorry Brett. I don’t mind you going out with the guys. I just wish it wasn’t every night. I don’t know what you do when you’re out with them, and I don’t want to know. If I wanted to be alone then I would have stayed here in NY. I don’t want to be alone Brett. I’ve had too many years before I met you being lonely. I love you and I want to be with you.”

He says, “Then come home baby. We’ll work this out.”

I reply, “I can’t right now. I’ll talk to you soon. I miss you and I love you.”

He says, “I love you too baby. I miss you a whole hell of a lot. I can come out there sometime next week if that’s okay with you.”

I reply, “If you want to then that’s fine. But don’t do it just because you think it will make things all better. I would love to see you.”

He says, “I want to see you. I’ll call you in a couple of days to let you know when I will be coming out there.”

I say, “Okay sweetie. I’ll talk to you in a few days. I love you”

He replies, “I love you too.”

----Few days later----

Brett had decided to come out a few days earlier than expected. I was at the airport waiting for his plane to land. The kids were at home with the sitter. I was sitting in the waiting area, his plane was due to land soon. I had heard something announced over the PA system and didn’t pay much attention to it until I heard the flight number of the plane he was on. I ran up to the ticket counter and waited to be helped.

I ask, “What was that I just heard about flight 6312 from Los Angeles?”

The woman looks at me and asks, “Is there someone on that flight that you know?”

I was confused at her question but replies, “Yes, my husband is on that flight. What’s wrong?”

The woman took a deep breath and said, “I’m sorry maam, but the plane crashed just outside the airport. We just got the report.”

I just stared at her like she was crazy. I say, “No, that can’t be. The plane is due to land any minute.”

She says, “I’m sorry. The rescue crews are at the crash site right now looking for survivors. Unfortunately they don’t think there are any.”

Next thing I knew I let out a bellow and collapsed on the floor.

Chapter 9

When I wake up I see security guards around me. I sit up and look around. I am in the medical office at the airport.

I ask, “What happened?”

One of the medics says, “You fainted.”

Everything comes flashing back to me. The news of the plane crashing and knowing that Brett was on the plane.

I ask, “The plane crash, did they find any survivors?”

An airport official sits down next to me and says, “I’m sorry they weren’t able to find any as of yet. They are still searching for survivors.”

I just start crying and couldn’t stop. After a little while of letting me calm down they let me leave. Visions of Brett in my head and the life we had together that was so short. I get home and ask the sitter to stay. I don’t have it in me to explain to her at this moment. I can see by the look on her face that she knows what happened.

She says, “Um…I know this is a terrible time but these came for you while you were at the airport.”

I look to where she is pointing and see a bouquet of roses. I see a card attached and lift it away from the roses and read it:

To My Love,

I can’t wait to see you. I am hoping that we can get back on track and have our life together again. I love you and miss you terribly.

Love Brett

I drop the card and start crying. She comes over to me and just holds me while I cry.

I ask, “Would you mind staying the night? I don’t think I can handle the kids right now. I’ll pay you extra.”

She says, “Sure no problem and don’t worry about paying me. It’s no problem at all. Concentrate on yourself right now.”

I go into my bedroom and close the door. I look at the answering machine and see there are 6 messages. I decide not to listen to them right now. I couldn’t handle it. I just lie down on my bed and cry myself to sleep.

The next few days were hard. Everyone was in attendance at the funeral. I couldn’t believe that at my age I was a divorcee and a widow. Everyone was trying to help me get through it. They didn’t realize that I didn’t want their help right now. When it was time to lower the casket I stood up and walked over to the grave. I had in my hand a rose from the bouquet that he had sent to me the day of the crash. I just stand there for a few minutes.

I say, “This is for every rose that I give to you and for every rose that I got from you. I love you Brett and will miss you for the rest of my life. I guess the song was right, every rose does have its thorn.”

At that I dropped the rose into the grave with the casket.

The End