As I sit here by the window
And look up towards the sky
I keep on asking the same old question
Why my Lord oh why?
You gave to me the gift of life
No happier could I be
When I looked down and saw his face
A baby boy for me.
I raised this little boy of mine
Without his no good dad
A man that wanted no part of him
A man that left and was glad.
I watched him growing day by day
I watched him sleep at night
I taught him how to say his prayers
And tucked him in at night.
It seemed the kindergarden days
Flew by so suddenly
And now this little boy of mine
Was starting in first grade.
I always picked him up from school
Excited he would be
"I want to show you a picture
I made for you from me."
We always had such good times
We played alot of games
We liked to take long walks at night
He loved the sound of trains.
Then one day they called me
And said I'd better come quick
Because this little boy of mine
Had suddenly become quite sick.
I ran into the schoolhouse
And saw his little face
And tears of pain were falling down
I felt his arms embrace.
I rushed him to the doctor
And he just shook his head
And told me that my little son
Had not much time to live.
I screamed I cried I tried to talk
But the words just wouldn't come
So I carried this small child of mine
Outside toward the setting sun.
I hugged him and I held him close
He said, "Mom don't be afraid
Because I saw a man in white
He said we'd go away."
I saw some pretty angels and a bright and shining light
I even saw my grandpa and grandma there tonight.
They looked just like that picture we have hanging on our wall
Grandpa said we'd go fishing and I could throw a ball.
He said the pain won't last for long
But it sure hurts right now
I kissed him on the cheek and said
"Don't leave me all alone."
You're all I've got in this old world
He smiled and dropped his head
I felt as if my heart would stop
My little son was dead.
I don't know why this happened
I know I can't go on
I want to join my family
I miss my little son.
So take me Lord take this last breath
So I can live once more
I want to see my little boy
The son that I adore.