My name is Serena. When I was young, or maybe before I came to be, I used to hear a
little child crying. She would cry and cry and I wanted the crying to stop. First I noticed that
she only cried when this man who was her father was touching her in private places. Then I
realized that she was crying because it hurt her so bad. I wanted her to stop crying so one day
when he was hurting her, I pushed her away out of the body and took her place. The child's name was Caroline.
The crying was still there but now it was my crying and I could handle it. I grew up
quickly and I grew up mean because of the hurt that this man was doing to me.
Caroline was a good little girl. She went to church and was a proper PK (preacher’s kid)
but because I didn’t have anything to lose, I became just the opposite.
When she was in her early teens, I borrowed the body from her and learned to smoke. I
did a lot of drugs and slept with all the boys. I did everything she wouldn’t have done, and I
guess I never realized that there was an anger building in me, towards her. She was miss goody
two shoes and I was always the bad one. She didn’t know me, and I could blank her out in an
instant. She didn’t know all the wonderful times that we had, while we were supposed to be at
school.
One day, it all came apart on me. I was talking to some man at a Youth place and I
started telling him all about the father and the brother and the things that they did. The man was
very upset and said that I would have to tell the mother right away. I left that one up to Caroline. Caroline told the mother but she didn't believe her.
So I learned to use sex as a weapon on the father to get whatever I wanted. Caroline was pushed around like
snow with a snow plow. I did whatever I wanted to do. I was seventeen. I went out when I
wanted to and came home when I wanted to... I saw all the boys and slept with all of them, and
somehow in there somewhere, Caroline got enough schooling in to graduate.
We got a job and our own apartment. I got angry at the boss one night at work though
and lost the job because of it. So I let Caroline take the fall and like a good little girl she ran back
to mommy and daddy. Things were back to normal but then I met a man. He was older and had
a job so I married him. He was a total jerk but he was better than living with the father. We
eventually had two children. My two daughters are my pride and joy.
Later in our life, I wanted to start having some more fun than marriage and raising
children so I would take the body away from Caroline’s group and party some. It was interesting
and fun but something was still keeping me angry. I started cutting my wrists and then letting
Caroline find the blood and the gashes. I did a lot of things like that, they weren’t nice but I was
tired of always being in the back ground.
Then I met a man on the computer, well really Caroline met him and started really liking
him. That made me so mad, I started really cutting in earnest and got her to stop taking her
medication. I tried to get rid of this man, but he was different. First he didn’t believe in me and
then he did and thought we needed help. Caroline even tried to get help like he wanted and that is
when the words multiple personality disorder surfaced. Of course we had knew it for years.
Well the man finally won me over and we got together and got married. I stopped hurting
Christine and we were finally able to communicate with each other. It was a marvelous day when
my lovely I ladies could come out and met our gentleman.
There are many I ladies and you will met them. They are my friends, my companions, my compardes and most of all my sisters, (and brother, didn't meant to leave you out Josh). I will never try and forget you again, This I vow now to you and to the world.
Serena
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