Frogg42337's 5th Journal
To those who care to read,
Usually on bright sunny days my mood follows suit. A nearly genuine smile plastered on my face with that same infectious smile(or so i heard) appears. For some reason today was just harder than that. There was sun and there were the smiles and laughter but there were shadows too. Flashbacks are once again gradually getting stronger, more disturbing and more vivid. Along with that comes Ana's resounding voice, evil like a demon on my shoulder but sweet something craved. Can anyone truly understand this. Yet conflict occurs for beside Ana's voice there are those resounding voices of the doctors and my few close friends....screaming stop. I argue nothing will happen and it's not that easy to stop...unfortunately the doctors can now viably argue that something will happen because it has. Welcome to my world of shadows curtesy of Ana. I just wish someone would understand when i say it's not that easy to drop it's not, it's an addiction, with many more reasons behind it. So be it, they were right but surely i can beat the odds. Not abandon Ana but survive.
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