Frogg42337's 6th Journal
March 22,2000
To the peanut gallery:
So again i've neglected my writing, myself, and my friends for quite some time. I feel such a need to apologize to everyone i know because i've hurled myself into my own private world. I have found such a minute degree of comfort in drowning myself in the throws of ana. Yes, i welcome dear Ana, my change to escape and to reciprocate my own hate for my despicable self. Why i've chosen now to advance deeper into destruction, i know not. The main question being do i care. It's a rather lonely night tonight, not that it matters to anyone but me. My own loneliness has blessed me with the ability to contemplate my faults, everything that's wrong with me. I only want perfection and Ana says i'm far from that but it's possible if i listen to her. Forget the fact that injury is easier and eminent with dear ana, and that i've been sick for a few weeks from dear ana depleting my immune system. Do i care? Can we just let it end....let me end and disappear. it'd be easier that way...oh so much easier.
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