~* Chapter 53*~
That night everyone went back to the beach house,still unable to believe
what had happened.The doctor had given Nick some tranquilizers to help calm
him down,and when they reached the beach house,he told them he wanted to be
alone and locked himself in the bedroom.
Everyone gathered in the living room;a feeling of sadness and loss hung
thick in the air.
Erica took a deep breath."I can't believe she's gone," she whispered,as a
single tear slid down her cheek,and AJ pulled her into his arms.
AJ sighed."We're all gonna have to be here for Nick for awhile.The next
couple days are gonna be the hardest~the funeral,stuff like that," he
remarked.
Everyone nodded their agreement.
Kari began to sob,and Howie wrapped her in his arms."I can't believe
she's gone,either.Just a few hours ago we were all hanging out with her,and
now we're never going to see her again."
Brian squeezed Karen's hand."I talked to the police officer who was at
the scene of the accident,and he told me it was a drunk driver that ran into
Blane.She didn't even have time to save herself," he told them.Karen hugged
him,and kissed him on the cheek.
Kevin,so far,hadn't said anything.Finally,he spoke up."I highly doubt
Nick's gonna be ready to go back out on the road in two months.Maybe we
should talk to Lou and see if we can postpone touring for awhile.I'm sure the
fans will understand."
The guys all nodded their agreement,and a few minutes later Nick came out
of the bedroom.
"The place seems so empty without her," he choked out.His eyes were red
and bloodshot from crying,and his hair was a mess.
Erica walked over to him and wrapped him in her arms.He felt himself melt
into her arms as sobs shook his body.Erica was crying along with him,as was
everyone else,even though the guys were trying their best to not show their
tears.
She led him over to the couch,and he sat down and took a deep breath."Why
did this happen?It's not fair," he remarked,and Howie patted him on the back.
"We're here for you man.We all are.She was just as much a part of our
lives as she was yours," he replied.
Nick stood up."You know,this is all my fault.If I had insisted she stay
at the party,she'd be alive right now," he declared.He felt himself grow
angry,and picked up a vase from a nearby table and heaved it at the wall."God
damnit! Why did she have to die?I loved her so much!," he yelled.
Suddenly,he crumpled to the floor,as the guys all ran over to him and
tried to calm him down.They led him to the bedroom,as the girls gathered on
the couch and began to sob,hugging and comforting each other.
*~54~*
The next couple days passed in a blur,with people dropping by to offer
condolences.Jane,Nick's mom,did everything she could to help her son,but Nick
didn't want any of it.He just wanted to be left alone,so he could grieve in
private,but every time he turned around,someone was always in his face,asking
if he was ok,or could they do anything for him.Finally,after his mom asked
for the millionth time if he was ok,he snapped.
"No,I'm not OK! I just lost my wife,the most important person in my
life!And i wish you all would just leave me alone!," he exclaimed,and before
anyone could say anything,he turned and left the house.
He walked down the beach until he was a good distance from the house,then
sat down in the sand,letting the water lap at his feet.He felt the tears
start to fall once again as he thought of Blane.
He couldn't believe she was gone.She had been his true love,the woman he
had promised to love for the rest of his life.They were going to start a
family.But it was all over now,as he sat gazing out over the crystal blue
water of the Atlantic Ocean.Amazing how his entire life was falling apart,and
the rest of the world continued as if nothing had happened.
He knew his life would never be the same,now that Blane was gone.She had
been his whole world,the reason he lived from day~to~day.Now he had nothing
to live for.
The tears continued to fall down his face."Blane,why'd you leave me?I
love you,baby girl.What am I supposed to do without you?," he whispered.
He sat there for awhile longer,lost in his own thoughts.He was dreading
the next day,when he would say his final goodbyes to her.
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