of all things, talking to my brother (the criminal) was what made me feel better. i am, needless to say, surprised. and relieved. we are very close in age, and despite the fighting that often took place, we're close. or were. or whatever. i guess i mean i trust him. and it is such a good feeling, to have that back.
i was, essentially, whining to him about my need to kill my crush on m. (it won't go away, although i think talking with my bro definitely helped on me getting perspective). we talked for a good while. and he gave me sound advice. i can't really explain how happy that makes me feel. being able to relate to him again is such a relief.
i've gotta go to work, i'll finish this entry upon my return
i have returned.
on the whole, not a bad day at work. i'm thinking i might start working full time, at least through the xmas season, so i can get me some benefits (can we say health insurance? i think so) and a little extra moolah. i like working the day shift (9-5). when i get home in the evening i have time to chill and read before watching tv and eating dinner and such like. i've gotta get an early night anyway tonight because i'm working the shoot tomorrow and call is 8am. meaing i have to leave here at 7 at the latest, because of traffic and all. should be fun. seriously. i've missed being in studio, so tomorrow should be a real adventure.
back to my paying job, g. (coworker) is working the close shift, so i only saw him for a bit, but he seemed particularly low. he apparently crashed his car (again, although this time it wasn't his fault) which is compounded by family stuff. he just looked so very not needing to be at work. i gave him a hug. if i had been on the same shift i probably would have done so several times. you know how some people just need a hug. he needed several. i only mention it because i can still feel it - how blue he felt. my empathy going into overdrive, no doubt. but my thoughts are with him. i hope he feels better tomorrow.
it was downright chilly today, i actually wore my gloves. very exciting. i love that cold snap. it might even get frosty tonight. woohoo. continuing to wear my gloves while inside at work drew an occasional raised eyebrow, but what can i say? i get cold unless i'm moving. hypothyroidism. i'm also trying to wean myself off my zoloft (mainly because i'm running out) and i know if i just flat out stop like i did last time i'll get sick and stuff.
anyway, i'm going to make some dinner and relax, try to loosen up enough to really knock this tension headache i've got. have a nice evening, and i'm sure i'll write about the shoot tomorrow.