A DEEP OCEAN OF SECRETS
Chapter Seventeen

At the bridge, it was frantic. Captain Smith, Thomas Andrews, J. Bruce Ismay, Murdoch, and a couple of stewards were in the chart room, looking over some blueprints of the ship that had collided with the iceberg only minutes ago. "Water fourteen feet above the keel in ten minutes. In the forepeak…in all three holds, and in Boiler Room 6."

Ismay was getting impatient. "When can we get underway, dammit?" he asked in anger.

"That’s five compartments!" Andrews replied, worried. "She can stay afloat if the first four compartments are breached. But not five. Not five…as she goes down by the head, the water will spill over the tops of the bulkheads at E-Deck, one right after the next. There’s no stopping it."

Smith looked at the blueprints. "The pumps—"

Andrews shook his head. "The pumps buy time, but minutes only." A look of horrid realization took over his aging face. "No matter what we do, Titanic will founder."

All was silent. Ismay looked the most shocked. "This ship can’t sink!" he stammered.

"She’s made of iron, sir!" Andrews cried. "I assure you, she can. And she will. It is a mathematical certainty."

Smith looked like he had been gut-punched. "How much time?" he asked slowly.

Andrews took a while to answer, looking at the blueprints. "An hour," he concluded sadly, "two at most." All the color from Ismay’s face drained.

"And how many aboard, Mr. Murdoch?" Smith asked slowly.

"Two thousand, two hundred souls aboard, sir," Murdoch replied stiffly, softly.

It was a long beat in Smith’s eyes. He looked at his employer with sadness and realization. "Well, I believe you’ll get your headlines, Mr. Ismay."

*****

Back in the suite, there was tension in the air. Ruth could sense it. There was a knock on the door. "Well, I’d better go dress," she concluded. "Elisabeth, help me choose." She dragged her daughter into the bedroom before she could protest.

Cal looked at Rose. He opened his mouth to speak, but then closed it. Suddenly, he slapped her across the face. Rose’s head stayed in the position after she was slapped for a moment. The blow compared to nothing of the blow her heart had just received about Jack. "If it isn’t the little slut!" Cal hissed. "Look at me when I’m talking to you!" He grabbed her shoulders roughly just as there was a loud knock and a steward entered.

"Sir, I’ve been told to ask you to please put on your lifebelts and come up to the boat deck," he said, grabbing the white lifebelts from the wardrobe shelf.

"Not now. We’re busy," Cal demanded, staring at Rose with hateful eyes.

The steward didn’t listen. "I’m sorry, Mr. Hockley, but it’s captain’s orders. And may I suggest dressing warmly? It is quite cold tonight." As the steward spoke, Elisabeth and Ruth emerged from the bedroom. Elisabeth was pale, the cloth removed from her arm, the bleeding stopped, her hair hanging limply around her shoulders. Ruth had put her hair up and changed into a green dress and coat.

"What’s going on?" Elisabeth asked, nervous. The steward handed her a lifebelt, then passed one to Rose.

"Don’t worry, ladies," he said. "I’m sure it’s just a precaution." Rose’s hurt eyes looked into Elisabeth’s confused ones, but she didn’t say anything—they spoke on their own. They knew it in both of their hearts—something wasn’t right. About the iceberg, and about Jack.

Rose slipped on her coat, Cal his overcoat, and they made their way out of the suite and into the corridor. They walked up the Grand Staircase to the A-Deck foyer. The scene was surreal to Elisabeth; first class women dressed in their elegant dresses, but with White Star Line lifebelts over them. People acted as if nothing was wrong, but there was a tension in the heavy air that wouldn’t go away.

Cal had other thoughts, not even really noticing, carrying all of the lifebelts he had taken away from their party. "It’s just the damned English doing everything by the book," he said. Rose looked like a sleepwalker, and Elisabeth just looked out of her mind. She looked like she was dead.

"Now, there’s no need for language, Mr. Hockley," Ruth said, putting on her gloves. She turned to Trudy. "Go put the heat on in our rooms. I would like a cup of tea when I return." Trudy nodded and scurried away.

Elisabeth looked around the foyer. So magnificent, so beautiful…she saw Thomas Andrews standing on the third step from the floor on the staircase, staring up at the dome. He looked so sad, so helpless. "Mr. Andrews!" she cried softly to get his attention. She ran over to him, stood on the first step, and tilted her head up to look at him, grabbing the side of his coat in her pale, fragile hands. Her hair outlined her face, her eyes gleaming on the brink of tears. He gazed down at her, not knowing what to say. His graying hair shone against the light above him. God, she is beautiful…his mind was getting the better of him.

"Mr. Andrews…" she breathed, her voice soft and determined, her eyes searching his. "I saw the iceberg, and I see it in your eyes. Please tell me the truth."

Andrews was having trouble trying to speak. "The ship," he managed, "will sink."

Elisabeth’s eyes widened in fright. She couldn’t have heard right. Titanic couldn’t sink! "You’re certain?" she asked.

Thomas Andrews could only nod. "Yes…" He trailed off. "In an hour or so…all this will be at the bottom of the Atlantic." Elisabeth’s expression was now scared of what was to happen. "But please, tell only who you must. I don’t want to be responsible for a panic. Get to a boat quickly. Don’t wait. Such a beautiful face…you remember what I told you about the boats?"

By this time, Cal, Ruth, and Rose had come up beside Thomas and Elisabeth. The boats could only hold half the passengers. "Yes," Elisabeth said quietly. "Yes, I understand." Mr. Andrews gave her shoulders a squeeze and moved past her, urging people to put on their lifebelts. Elisabeth stared at the place where Andrews had been standing, lost in thought. Rose touched her arm softly.

"Elisabeth," she murmured. Elisabeth’s head turned towards her, her mouth open partially in shock. They stared at one another in sadness until a single tear streamed down Elisabeth’s cheek. Rose engulfed her in an embrace and they stayed like that for a couple minutes, too shocked for words.

Cal tugged at the sleeve of Rose’s pink coat. "We have to get up on deck," he said irritably. Rose looked up at him and nodded sadly. She let go of Elisabeth and they made their way up to the deck.

When they arrived, the cold stung their skin like a thousand knives. Elisabeth shrunk into her coat, wanting to stay exactly where she was. But Cal grabbed her arm and dragged her down the deck, pushing past people to a lifeboat. All the while, she was like a statue, not wanting to go anywhere or do anything. The shock of Titanic sinking had hit her straight in the heart.

Ruth looked at the lifeboat. "Will the lifeboats be seated according to class?" she called out to anybody listening, particularly to an officer. She chuckled to herself and said, "I hope they’re not too crowded." Elisabeth looked at her mother in pure hatred. She was about to make a remark, but Rose beat her to it.

"Oh, Mother," she said in disgust, "shut up!" She grabbed her mother’s shoulders and shook them furiously. "Don’t you understand? The water is freezing and there aren’t enough boats. Not enough by half! Half the people on this ship are going to die." Ruth’s jaw dropped in front of her daughter, shocked at her outburst.

"Not the better half," Cal sneered, and Rose’s head shot up, looking up into his eyes. "You know what a pity it is that I didn’t keep that drawing? It could be a worth a lot more by morning."

Rose’s mouth opened in shock. Jack was third class. He didn’t stand a chance! "You unimaginable bastard," she whispered. A rocket burst overhead, the flares bathing her face in a warm glow.

Molly pulled Ruth into a boat, and said to Rose, "You’re next, darlin’. Then Elisabeth." Rose took a step back, shaking her head. She had to find Jack!

"Rose," Ruth warned her daughter. Rose just shook her head. "Rose, get into the boat!"

"Good-bye, Mother," she said. She looked at Elisabeth, who was staring at Ruth in confusion, and sped down the deck. Elisabeth looked after her, then back to her mother. Cal sped after Rose. He grabbed her arm in the crowd.

"Where are you going?" he cried. "To be a whore to a gutter rat?"

"I’d rather be his whore than your wife!" she hissed. She tried to run away, but Cal held her in a death grip.

"No! I said no!" Rose hocked back her spit, then spit into Cal’s face. Just like Jack had taught her. He let her go in disgust and wiped his face. Rose disappeared into the crowd, desperate to find Jack.

At the lifeboat, Ruth was calling after her daughter frantically as the boat began to lower. Elisabeth stepped back in confusion and hurt. Her mother didn’t love her like she loved Rose. She’d rather have Rose alive than herself, just because Rose had a way to ensure Ruth to be rich. Suddenly, she felt sick to her stomach. Not loved. Abandoned. At that moment, she wished she could just jump straight into the ocean…and she knew that nobody would save her. She had never felt so alone and heartbroken. Just before the lifeboat disappeared below the deck of the ship, Ruth’s eyes fell on Elisabeth. They showed no emotion, and Elisabeth felt herself starting to cry.

Suddenly, she ran. She didn’t know where she was headed, but she knew that running helped her clear her mind. But now there was nothing to clear. Her mind, her thoughts, were totally shattered.

Chapter Eighteen
Stories