Written
by Doug
Kuhlman
Based on some situations originated by James Cameron.
Full of confidence, Jack strode out of his
room and back towards the main stairwell. He'd taken a few moments to decide on
his line of attack, straightened his rugged attire as best he could, and
gathered his "ticket." As he reached the bottom of the stairs, he
noticed that the attending steward had been replaced since his last visit,
which further widened his roguish grin.
The man met him at the top with an almost
rude, "Can I help you?" Jack noticed the lack of a "sir"
following the question. The previous evening had seen the uniformed individuals
full of subservient "sirs" and "as you pleases." Inwardly,
Jack grimaced, but he didn't let it reach his face. He had a part to play.
"Yes. I have to return this to Molly
Brown." With a flourish, Jack presented the tuxedo she had leant him the
previous evening. The steward's expression barely changed, which was a distinct
disappointment. Jack had been hoping for at least a little astonishment to help
him get past.
"Very good, sir. I will see that it is
delivered to her immediately." He reached out and grabbed the clothes out
of Jack's hand.
He was ready for that, though. "Fine. I
suppose you can explain to her why the jacket is missing, then. You can also
explain why I didn't deliver it personally like she asked." Jack lowered
his voice conspiratorially. "Frankly, I'll be glad to not have to do it
myself. She can get quite riled up about these things sometimes."
Now the steward was visibly shaken. He
quickly searched and found that, indeed, there was no jacket. He had no way of
knowing that Rose had worn it back to her suite the night before. Neither man
was aware that Rose's maid, Trudy, at that exact moment, was trying to decide
what to do with it. Both knew though, that something had to break their
impasse.
The steward's head wrinkled in thought.
"Whose tuxedo did you say this was? Mrs. Brown's?"
Jack smiled to himself. Rose's tutelage was
paying dividends already. "Yes. Her real name is Margaret, I know, but I
can't help calling her Molly like the rest of her friends." Such
information was certainly not publicly available.
The evidence seemed to be heavily weighted in
Jack's favor, who could see the attendant mentally counting the costs of
letting him deliver the tuxedo himself. On the one hand, bothering an important
passenger with a ruffian would be an offense, but probably only a minor one. On
the other hand, willfully inhibiting a message from reaching its destination,
if discovered, could really land him in hot water. He reached the only decision
he could in the circumstances. "All right, lad. You can go. But I can't
take you myself. I'll send you with the next steward who comes along."
It was only a brief wait, since the servers
had to be constantly prowling the ship, ready to fulfill the demands of the
passengers. The man Jack had been talking to hailed another one. "Take
this man to see Mrs. Margaret Brown."
"Room B15," Jack interjected
helpfully, trying to add yet another bit of weight to his arguments.
"He is to return this tuxedo to her and
give her a message. Once he has done so, bring him back to the third class
area. Watch him, mind you." The other man looked reluctant but had no
choice but to obey.
Still trying to prove himself, Jack semi-led
the way to Molly's room. The steward's tentative knock was answered by Molly's
maid, who greeted him with a solemn, "Hello again, Mr. Dawson."
The steward looked a bit bemused. "You
do know him, then?"
Then, Molly bubbled into the scene. "Of
course we do. You wouldn't think our Jack a liar, now would you?" Turning
to Jack, she asked, "What brings you back up here today? Gonna turn those
handsome, devilish charms on me?"
He had forgotten the power of Molly's
presence. That surely had influenced the decision back at the top of the stairs
as well. Swallowing, he replied. "I'm here to return the tuxedo you lent
me last night. I really appreciated it. I was also hoping we could maybe talk a
bit."
Jack caught a brief look of consternation
pass through her face, but he felt reasonably certain the other man missed it
completely. "Why, shore! Come on in." She continued over the
steward's protests. "Now, you run along. We can take care of him
ourselves."
She then shut the door in the face of English
calm nearly spluttering its protests. Turning to Jack, she asked in a less
jovial, but no less imposing, tone, "You know you could've kept it…"
Jack interrupted her softly. "It just
felt wrong." A period of silence ensued while Molly tried to read the
emotions crossing his face and Jack tried to decide how much to trust this
woman he barely knew. The pause stretched. Drawing a deep breath, Jack broke
it. "There's something else."
Molly almost sounded perturbed. "Well,
that was pretty obvious, Jack. What is it?" Her tone suggested that she
didn't have all day, but it was also one that spoke of some concern for the
situation.
As much as Jack didn't want to further
intrude on his benefactor, he felt a stronger calling to continue his quest.
"I have to talk to Rose again. This was the only way I could get up
here." He continued more softly to his shoes. "Plus, I was hoping you
could help me find her."
Molly looked deeply at Jack in response. He,
in turn, was surprised and impressed by the communication that stare conveyed.
For someone who wanted to join the ultra-elite social classes represented on
Titanic, she seemed too deep and compassionate a person. Molly was probably the
only one at the previous evening's dinner table who sensed that anything
remarkable had happened.
She obviously was aware, though. The look he
received asked him questions about the previous evening, questions he wasn't
sure he would be able to answer. He could feel her probing for information
about the note, about where he and Rose had gone, and about their feelings for
one another. When she spoke, it wasn't to interrogate him, although he almost
wished it were.
"Now, son. I know you aren't my flesh
and blood, but you owe me enough to at least listen to what I have to
say." She waited for Jack's nod, which he gave, not exactly reluctantly
but lacking any hint of enthusiasm.
"Let me start out by saying that I'm all
for love. I know what power it has and how wonderful it can be. I saw you two
last night passing looks and notes. You're lucky most of 'em there were too
interested in preening themselves to pay attention.
"But you have to think about Rose, too.
Right now she's engaged–engaged, Jack–to one of the richest, most eligible
bachelors in the world. She has meals, servants, clothes, paintings…everything
that money can buy."
Molly held up a hand to forestall Jack's
protests. "Now, I know as well as you that there are some things money
can't buy. But, realistically, what can you offer her? You've probably got,
what, ten dollars? She spends hundreds of dollars in a day, oftentimes. We both
know that you can't give her that, no matter how much you might like to.
"You might think it's best for both of
you to be together. And, maybe you're right. But don't get too egotistical and
start to focus only on yourself. If you truly care for her, you'll consider
what's best for her, too. You may think she'd be wisest to give it all up and
run away with you. I just don't know how happy she'll be without all the things
she has now."
A fire smoldered in Jack's eyes. "What
makes you think she's happy now? 'Cause she isn't." For a brief moment, Jack
considered telling her the real story about what had happened on the stern of
the mammoth ship, but he knew he would never betray any trust Rose placed in
him–especially not that one. The shared secret of what really happened was one
of the many things that had helped bring them together.
Again, Molly's look penetrated rather deeply,
but again she steered the conversation away from prying too deeply into their
relationship. "Jack. I've been there. I've seen both sides. We weren't
always rich. Now, looking back, I don't know how we did it. I'm sure if things
went the other way around, I'd be living a life full of regrets. I don't want
either of you to have to deal with that."
The scrutiny returned, but this time it was
briefer, as if some of her earlier need to rush off was reasserting itself.
"Ultimately, it comes down to this. It's not your decision."
Jack sighed. "I know that. Really, I do.
I just gotta talk to her."
"She'd be giving up more than either of
you realize."
"Probably." His voice was rock-steady
as he confronted her close-mindedness. "But that's gonna be true either
way, isn't it?"
This time it was Molly's turn to sit back and
think, as both had been leaning progressively further forward during their
conversation. She seemed to reach a decision. Echoing Jack's earlier sigh, she
turned to him. "I have to finish getting ready to go to church. They're
holding a special service for a few first class patrons who didn't want to
attend the regular one. It's in the main dining room where we ate last night."
She paused briefly and closed her eyes. "Rose will be there, too."
The words came out reluctantly, almost as if she didn't choose to say them.
Some other force took over and made her tell him that.
Shaking her head in confusion, she stood to
go finish her preparations, although she looked fine as far as Jack was
concerned. As she reached the doorway, she turned and spoke over one shoulder.
"Good luck." He then heard her mutter as she walked out of the room.
"It better be good."
As Jack sat there and thought about what
Molly had said, he realized she was right about several things. He didn't
really have the right to make the decision for Rose, but he did have the right
to make her realize there was a decision to be made. But, if he were going to
do that, it did have to be good. He'd never considered himself particularly
eloquent and trying to plan a speech went contrary to his very nature.
As he was considering this, he also wondered
why Molly's words had affected him so. Had Fabrizio or Tommy or anyone else
tried to dissuade him or alter his path, he would have ignored them, or very
nearly so. Was he also affected by the influence of wealth? Did Molly's money
make her words more meaningful? Or was it just the force of her personality?
Shaking off that line of thought as
thoroughly unproductive, Jack returned to composing his speech to Rose. He
would start with a compliment. Everybody always enjoyed hearing an honest
compliment. He remembered her look of surprise and gratitude on the deck
following his bypassing her physical appearance to comment on the person
beneath. It couldn't be something superficial or banal. It had to touch her
soul. He wasn't quite sure how to do that at this moment, but he wasn't
concerned. He liked thinking on his feet better than planning what to say
anyway.
With that realization, he decided he'd just
go find Rose and talk to her. He'd tell her how he felt and then let the chips
fall where they would. If they were going to be together, he had to stay
himself.
"Molly," he called out, intending
to go with her to the service.
"She already left, sir. Don't you
remember her taking leave of you?" Molly's maid looked down on him
disapprovingly. He wasn't sure whether it was his clothes, his unconcern for
Molly's departure, his familiar tone of addressing her, his social standing, or
something else entirely. Truth be told, he didn't care, either.
"Oh, yes," he lied glibly.
"Could I get some paper to leave her a note?"
The maid got him the requested item and a pen
as well. Jack quickly scribbled a note.
Molly,
Thanks again for all your help. I really do appreciate it.
Jack
PS Rose has your tuxedo jacket.
He told the maid, "Please see that Molly
gets this note." He then bade her farewell and cheerfully headed off to
find Rose and to tell her just how he felt, no matter the cost to himself (or
to her).
It was two turns and a stairwell later before
Jack realized he wasn't sure where he was going. He thought he was retracing
the path he'd been led down twelve hours earlier but something felt wrong. A
few more passages and he was certain he was lost. This really frustrated him,
since he knew that it was a short walk from Molly's room to the grand
staircase.
Along the way, he felt the stares of other
passengers. He just scorned them at first, but as the number of them grew and
people began calling for stewards, he began to feel more out of place and more
like a pariah all the time.
In the beginning feelings of desperation, he
even approached Colonel Gracie to ask for directions The man, who had seen him
dressed both as he was now and in the tuxedo he'd been lent, completely failed
to recognize him. He did, however, provide Jack with directions to the main
dining room, albeit in a rather perfunctory tone.
Jack thanked him graciously and followed the
directions, past another gauntlet of stares to reach the entrance to the
magnificent staircase. No one was manning the entrance door tonight, allowing
him to pass through uncontested. He started down the stairs, keenly feeling the
lack of Rose's arm through his. Just the thought of seeing her again filled his
heart with joy, and soon he was almost skipping down the stairs.
Just before reaching the level of the worship
service, he saw Thomas Andrews, inspecting the ship as usual. As a litmus test
to see if ANYONE would recognize him from the night before, he greeted him
warmly. "Hello, Mr. Andrews."
The older man never hesitated. With at least
as much feeling as Jack had expressed, he replied. "Hello, Jack."
However, he was more interested in his inspection and writing in his notebook
than in talking with anyone–regardless of social standing.
As he descended the last few steps, Jack
wondered if Rose could similarly see past the exterior to the man inside. He
anticipated that she could, but he had no guess about what her reaction to that
man would be.
The End.