BREAKING FREE
Chapter Six
Rose watched the people flock
into the lift. She watched the women scream and the men lift the body and carry
it away. She felt numb as they pulled her from Jack’s arms, barely able to
protest. She didn’t speak. She just stared blankly into space, not quite sure
how to feel. The only sound which she could hear was the gunshot, still ringing
loud and clear over all of the voices.
She lay on her bed, half in and
half out of consciousness. She wasn’t sad, just shocked. Finally, after an
hour, she got up. She put on some fresh clothes and headed down to the third
class rooms. On her way out the door, she caught a glimpse of Cal’s room, door
flung wide open by some unknown person. She looked inside and saw familiar
clothing and a stiff portrait of her and Cal, commissioned by his father.
Seeing the face on that portrait was what made her fully realize just how much
her world had changed. Despite herself, a smile of relief spread across her
face. She felt like screaming with joy.
That girl, the bored, trapped,
sad girl in the picture, had perished along with the man next to her. There was
no more engagement. No more life as a woman of society. She could do whatever
she wanted now. Of course, she already knew what that was. She went rushing
down to Jack.
Finding him was hard. There were
so many people in third class! She finally spotted him sitting on an empty cot,
looking distressed. She walked over to him and put her arm around him.
"Jack, what’s wrong?"
"I’m so selfish."
He was selfish? Had he missed
what Cal had to say to him? "What?"
"Don’t you see, Rose? Cal
should be alive right now! You should be happy! I was so stupid to do this! I
didn’t just ruin your future. I fought to ruin it!" He punched the hard
mattress. "Don’t you remember? You weren’t sure. You resisted, and I
begged! God, I begged you to run! Now look where that’s brought us! You could
have been happy, Rose. You could have had everything. I could have died when I
was supposed to!"
Rose released him and stood up,
throwing her arms up in the air. Her temper was flaring up. "Happy? Do you
seriously think that I would have been happy without you?"
"If we’d never met, if I’d
stayed away from you like I should have…" He buried his face in his hands.
"Jack! If you’d stayed away,
I would be at the bottom of the Atlantic right now."
"It was what you
wanted."
"What I wanted before you
came along."
"Exactly. I ruined your
life, complicated everything."
"So, you’re saying you would
rather see me dead than with you?"
"No!" he said. "It
would have broken my heart to see you jump. That was why I followed you that
night. When I saw you at that railing, all I could think was, No! But I
would like to see you happy."
She sat back down next to him,
taking his hands in hers, and said gently, "But I’ll always be happy with
you."
He looked at her. "You know
it will be hard."
"I don’t care."
"Rose, I have absolutely no
money, no home, nothing. You aren’t used to that. Not to mention that your
mother will probably never speak to you again."
"When have I ever wanted my
mother’s company?" She smiled.
He finally smiled back, realizing
that she really wanted this. "So, what will we do first when we reach
home?"
They both laughed softly and
said, "Coney Island!"
They kissed, knowing everything
was going to be all right. They spent the entire night down in third class,
getting what food they could and sleeping in the next morning, and even down
there, where there was virtually no light, the world seemed brighter to Rose.
The End.